Let Me Love You

Chapter Twenty

I couldn't believe what was happening to me. It was like being thrown into an erupting volcano, the pain burning me, as a torturous ache coursed throughout my being. And that factor had nothing on what my heart was feeling after those two small, but also incredibly large, words escaped my other half's lips. Nothing.

I promise.

I didn't want to think about why she forgave him so easily, knowing it would only make things worse. But I couldn't stop my own mind from processing such an easy answer; she loved him.

I promise.

How could anyone stand this kind of pain? Now I knew why there are so many suicides committed. No one could. I felt myself welcoming the end of my existence with open arms. It wouldn't matter anymore. Not only did the love of my life didn't return the affection, but I got to watch as she did for another.

I promise.

I flinched. The voice I knew all too well echoing in my mind.

"Edward! Dude, what happened?!"

I looked at Emmett, seeing worry I've never seen so strong before, coming off of him like an aura. Even Rosalie—pigheaded Rosalie that normally was only concerned with her own self—was sympathetic, knowing pretty well what was going on. Jasper was nearby, clenching his fists, grinding his teeth, as he tried to fight off the pain he could sense from my direction. Alice was rubbing soothing circles on his back, shooting quick glances at me every few seconds.

I didn't have the strength to answer.

What was the point?

If Bella could forgive Sh-Him so easily, there wasn't the slightest chance she'd give me a second glance if I tried anything to win her heart—let alone a crummy song.

Alice stopped her motions as her eyes went blank once again that day, and I knew exactly what she was seeing, no mind reading needed.

"What is she seeing?" Rosalie asked, before Alice quickly came back to the present.

"Edward, you are not going to go pick a fight with some random vampire, just so you could get yourself killed!"

"What?! C'mon, you are not turning Emo on us, and committing suicide! Not under my watch." My brother sternly stared at me.

"Yea, man. I don't give a rat's ass if I have to constantly endure your pain, you are not leaving us." Jasper grunted, taking Alice's hand, seeming to have controlled the emotions filtering through the room, although still slightly touchy with the minor pain he couldn't block out.

I sighed. I suddenly wished I was human again. It would be so easy to end my misery. All I would have to do was go into the kitchen's cutlery.

Before I could reply, Bella was bounded down the stairs, Shane in tow, with a smile on her face. There was something in her eyes that wasn't right, but I couldn't seem to quite distinguish it.

"Ed-waaaard!" she sang. As soon as she got a good look at my expression that I had pathetically tried to hide, her smile instantly dropped into a frown as worry and confusion mixed into her features. After coming to a halt, she quickly bound over me like I had earlier, and hugged me tightly in her little arms. "What's wrong?"

She shifted away at a far away enough distance to look up at me, while I looked deeply into her eyes. My mood became remarkably better—although I was still depressed at the aspect of the events not ten minutes previously—from the clearly noticeable concern.

I smiled weakly, at her as I replied, "Nothing, I'm fine, really." She didn't seem to believe me, bringing me back into her arms, as I embraced the moment, inhaling her intoxicating scent that I could never get enough of. I could only see the two of us; everyone else had pealed away from my notice, even though I knew they were still there watching us from the thoughts that had flooded my mind.

Looking up, I saw my siblings smiling at me, although their eyes still held sympathy, while He was glaring daggers at me.

Ignoring his useless gaze, I looked back down at the beautiful creature in my arms. "I'm fine." I repeated, my smile becoming at least more genuine this time.

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Yeah, I know, I know. This was a really short chapter, BUT I tried to update before I left for Montreal but I had to get homework that I wasn't going to be there for, and there was A LOT of drama happening so I was busy with that (sadly). Oh yea, and while I was looking into these souvenir stores, I found the most hilarious (although perverted) shirts ever. There was one with a bunch of different boobs and they were labeled things like "beestings, has-beens, and cucumbers" and a bunch I can't remember right now but they were pretty damn funny. And there was this one where there's these penises and there are quotes next to them like 'my closest neighbor is an asshole, my best friend is a pussy, I can't think straight with my head" HAHA. But I think the MOST hilarious one was this one where it has "THE MAN" printed with an arrow pointing upwards and an arrow pointing downwards saying "THE LEGEND" LMFAO. This guy in my math class (not surprisingly with a big ego) actually wanted to buy it off of me, but I'm thinking of giving it to my dad as a joke for fathers day and try to see if I can make him wear it that day haha. And what's pretty shocking (well not to me but probably to people with normal parents) is that my mom suggested it xD. Okay anyway, back on excuses. I've been working on this damn English project that's worth 15 of my grade, and I finished it yesterday night and presented today. And trust me; you have enjoyment over my torture to know that I looked like a freaking retard in front of the class. I'm not a presentation person LOL I ALWAYS get all nervous and stutter, my face turns as red as Bella's, if I even look up from the paper in my hands, its usually at the ceiling or in the back of the room. AND I have a constancy to say 'um...yea...' a lot xD. Probably the only sort of good thing is that I got an A- on it, which isn't actually that good because I've been working damn hours on the piece of crap, sitting on the ground half the time earning a neck and back ache. AND it was actually due tomorrow but I'm not going to be at school tomorrow, so I had to present today. Why? Well, because I'M GOING TO THE FUCKING TOKIO HOTEL CONCERT IN TORONTO TOMORROW!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! :D kay, sorry, I've just been so flipping excited for the past two weeks ever since me and my friends ordered the tickets haha.

PS: I noticed I've been getting complaints about how stupid Bella was in the last chapter, and I realized I forgot to mention something in the AN so I'll just say it now. There is a reason why she forgave that god forsaken bastard so easily, and it will be cleared up later on, so no need to hate anyone (well except for Him, but still, don't actually need to hate him in real life, since this is just a story LOL. I realized that I've made Shane West look really bad here haha, o wells ;D)

PSS: Oh, and sorry if Edward sounds so suicidal. I just tried to make him seem really depressed xD

Aiit, I'ma go, check ya later! :D