Let Me Love You
Chapter Twenty One
"C'mon Edward! Bella's going to be there!" Alice and the rest of my siblings have been trying to convince me to get out, and stop moping in misery. This time we were in L.A and they're currently nagging at me to go out to the pool with them.
"So will He, Alice." I growled back, ticked that she wouldn't just let me be. Was it really so hard to leave me alone to drown in my own depression? It was definitely the next best thing to watching the love of my life in another man's arms.
"He's going to be leaving in a few days, anyway. And its not like she looks at you any different just because Shane's-"
"DON'T say his name!" I covered my ears, to show how much hatred I had for the monster.
"-he's in town. She still cares for you," she then mumbled something unintelligible under her breathe, and to my annoyance, blocked her mind before I could clarify what she said, "it's just that she feels the need to spend time with Sh-" I gave her a look, "Him," she made air quotes, rolling her eyes, "before he has to go back to God knows where to finish whatever film he's doing."
Although I knew she was probably right and she sounded sincere, I couldn't help but get the feeling there was something behind all of it. Like she was keeping something from me, which knowing Alice, wasn't doubtful.
Alice's POV
I understood how Edward felt, but also didn't at the same time. I knew he was miserable with Shane around, taking away time he could be spending with Bella. But I didn't, and probably couldn't, possibly understand the pain that was clearly shown as it is overtaking him. There was only my imagination that could be the closest thing to actually knowing what it was like, what he was going through.
It pained me to see him in his condition, and scared me beyond that to the fact that I, as well as the rest of our family, could lose him because of this.
Earlier today I had a vision that could change all of that, and would let the future flow out for the better.
Now I would just have to try and see if it would come true.
Back to Edward's POV
I sighed as the little pixie continued to stand there stubbornly, giving me her best puppy dog stare with her infamous pout.
"There's no getting out of this, is there?"
"Nope!" she squealed, jumping at me with a hug, before bouncing up and down as she clapped her hands in excitement and triumph. "Your new swim trunks are in the shopping bag in your closet! And no complaints about it!" she sang, skipping out of the room to get ready herself.
I groaned, walking to my closet to get the item of clothing she was referring to. I should've known she'd add shopping somehow in the mix of things, sadly, it was just her nature.
After changing, I threw a towel around my neck and walked out to meet my siblings in the front porch. We walked over to Bella's, everyone animatedly chatting while I was left to my own thoughts.
Carlisle was working an extra shift while Esme decided that she needed to clean the house, which I didn't understand since it was spotless, literally. But knowing her, she probably didn't want to 'intrude on our fun' and decided to stay out of it.
"Stop it!" my focus shot out to the sound of an angel's laughter and my breath caught. I was frozen to the ground, my feet immobile as I caught sight of Bella laughing as she got out of the pool. The sun was out, causing her skin to glow as if she was just sent from the heavens above—which I wouldn't be surprised at all—that was well complimented with the small baby blue material. Every curve was as if sculpted to precision, with every muscle toned at a level higher than perfection. Each chocolate strand of hair glistened from the sun's rays...
"Hey Edward! You coming in?" I didn't even notice Bella was looking at me, until she spoke up with a teasing tone before she splashed water on me.
"HEY!" I complained with the same amount of playfulness, before running full speed in her direction. She squealed as I leaped into the pool, missing her by mere inches, as I cannonball into the water.
"That was so not funny!" she laughed, glaring at me—although her smile ruined the effect—after she wiped the cool liquid that had sprayed on her face.
We laughed, until I heard a yelp and looked at her in alarm, only that she had disappeared. Panic stricken, I looked around frantically, until I saw the color figures underwater start to resurface revealing Bella and (you have got to be kidding me) Shane laughing.
Anger and jealousy constricted me at the sight of his arms locked around her waist holding her to his body.
That should be you.
Oh god, it's you again.
Yep, miss me?
Pssh, in your dreams.
Hell yeah.
Should I be scared?
May-be hehe.
-Walk away-
Hey! Come back here!
Nah, I'd rather not.
Poopie head!
If you could see this, I'm giving you the finger by the way.
You'll be sorry for this!
Uh huh, you go and think that.
Back to reality; I quickly masked my expression and plastered an amused one a split second before Bella looked back at me.
She opened her mouth, but before she could get anything out, her eyes widened as she looked behind me.
"CANNONBALL!" my eyes widened as both Emmett and Jasper cackled, jumping higher than ever into the air and barreling down the forty foot fall splat in the middle of the pool. Shock was written all over the three of our faces as we resurfaced spitting out the chlorine filled water, watching as my two brothers heads shot out as they laughed hysterically at us.
"Okay, that was not funny!" Bella splashed a wave at the two dim-wits but they continued chuckling anyway.
"Edward! Come over here!" I looked over to see Alice waving me over from her spot with Rosalie, 'tanning'.
"I'll be right back." I called, placing my hands at the edge of the pool, hurling myself out. Standing, I noticed a cooler, remembering she still eats, I turned back to her. She was staring at me, her eyes in an out-of-it state. I would've blushed, suddenly becoming embarrassed. Was I that repulsive? It was a stupid question, being a vampire and all, and supposedly having the 'perfect' body, but I still couldn't help but feel self-conscious. Not to mention she's probably seen hundreds of other extremely good looking vampires since she was part of the Volturi. I sensed that she had let her blocking wall down, and I was temped to peak into her mind, but was afraid what I might here, so I just asked, "Um, did you want anything?"
My question seemed to snap her out of dream-land, while she smiled up at me, with a slight blush painted on her cheeks, and politely replied, "A Pepsi would be nice."
"Coming right up." I turned on my heel and strode over to my two sisters who were practically bouncing right out of their seats.
"OH.MY.GOD!! She was totally checking you out!" they squealed, clapping their hands together in excitement.
"Jeez, will you keep it down?!" I hissed, looking over my shoulder to see her (thankfully) only laughing as Emmett and Jasper dunked Him underwater, attempting to 'drown' him. She looked up at me and smiled. Once again, I noticed how beautiful she looked, glowing while the rest of us just sparkled. She really was original. I turned back to Rosalie and Alice, as they both raised an eyebrow each, smirking at me. I shook my head at them. "Yeah right, I bet she just realized how normal—for a vampire—I look, just like everyone else, and possibly might be repulsed by now. She's probably just trying to be nice, since that's how she is."
"PSSH!" they both scoffed at me.
"Okay, I'm not trying to cross the line to incest here," I raised my eyebrow at Rosalie, but she returned the look and continued, "but Edward, you're. Hot. Sexy, fine, beautiful, whatever you want to call it! The point is, sheesh you're just like Bella, that you don't see yourself clearly. At all. You think you're nothing special, and that you're not good enough, or good looking enough, and this, and that! Wake up call! You're not just like any other guy! You care about her, you'd never hurt her –cough like you know who cough- you're a complete gentleman, you listen to what people have to say, even if you don't necessarily get it through your thick skull" she ignored my glare, "and so much more. Gosh, it'd take me a lifetime to get through it all!" she pretended to fan herself, as if that speech was so tiring.
"And even if you're not 'good looking enough'" Alice rolled her eyes, "you should know that Bella isn't that shallow—if at all. She isn't the type of person that cares about looks, or how well known you are. She cares about personality, who you are. You're Edward Cullen, and any girl would be incredibly lucky to have you. Well except for me, Jasper's way better in my opinion-"
"Ah-hem," Rosalie cleared her throat nonchalantly.
"-And Emmett's the most amazing in bed, in Rosalie's opinion." Insert eye roll from me here. "But any other girl would be head over heals for you. Imagine getting married to you on their wedding day, crave to be in your arms, strip you naked with their eyes, fantasize about you in their bed-"
"Crossing the line! Crossing. The. LINE!" I pointed accusingly at them with an exasperated expression, as they both just laughed hysterically at my uncomfortable situation.
I glared, but Rosalie just chucked a can of Pepsi at me, which I easily caught before heading back to the pool.
"Where's Bella?" I asked, more to Emmett and Jasper than Him.
"Iunno." They all shrugged, indifferently. 'Iunno' my ass.
Before I could look into their minds-BAM- I was screaming, hearing an evil—although still breathtaking—cackle, as Bella brought me down with her and I hit the water a second time today.
We both came back up for unneeded air as everyone hooted.
"Now that is funny." Bella giggled, unlocking her arms that she used to hold onto me when she brought me crashing into the water. I was momentarily disappointed that I didn't get to savor the feel, but quickly shook it out of my thoughts as I smirked back at her.
"No, I think this is." Her eyes widened, but I already grabbed onto her as I threw her over my shoulder and hopped out of the water. She squealed, but I was already jumping back in with her.
Everyone was laughing, even Shane, although his thoughts were telling me a different story.
Asshole.
I ignored his thought, and we continued to play around in the water while the sun was still out.
We were all laughing and having a good time, my siblings finally glad that I was out of my depressed mood, that even Alice and Rosalie eventually joined us. Emmett was cracking lame jokes, while Jasper thought it would be fun to give the guys erections (yea, that was almost as awkward as it was annoying) and the girls were busy laughing, until someone's phone started to ring.
"Mine!" Shane flew out of the pool over to a sun chair where his cell was lying. "Yello?"
After he was done he jogged back over to the edge of the pool.
"What was that all about?" Bella asked.
"Oh, the director wants to start filming again soon, so I have to leave tomorrow morning."
"Oh." She replied with a blank expression.
"And that reminds me, we still have to you-know-what before I leave." He smirked with a mischievous hint in his voice. Was he serious, right in front of all of her friends?
"Oh yeah." She chuckled. Was I hearing her right? "I'll see you guys later, but guys can stay as long as you want. Me and Shane have to get back inside to, uh, pack." She raised an impish grin with Shane, whom returned with a playful glare, and I could tell they were holding back laughter.
I could feel the pain come back, taking things to a whole new level, seeing them jump out of the pool, him chasing after her up the steps as she giggled all the way.
And what hurt even more was the clear view of the bedroom window that I knew without a doubt was Bella's. My eyes burned with tears that willed desperately to be shed as I saw Him holding her bridle style as he through her onto the bed where she only laughed at the gesture before he ran over to the window and shut the curtains.
Jasper's waves of calm he was sending not helping me at all at this point.
You're Edward Cullen.
Alice's thought came to me, and everything she and Rose told me came rushing back to me.
You're not just like any other guy...
And I took all that anger and jealousy, and pain pent up in my being and forced it into my own determination. I was going to pour out my thoughts, my feelings, my soul, for her, to make her see me in a whole new light.
I quickly ran back to my house, ripping open the bench that held my compositions.
And it was going to start with this song.
. x I was going to leave it there, but you might kill me if I don't add this little bit in x .
Bella's POV
Shane was chasing me up the stairs, before he quickly scooped me up and ran the rest of the way to my room. He quickly through me onto the bed, and raced off to close the curtains before turning back to face me with an evil smirk.
I sighed as if slightly annoyed.
"You're not going to win this time." He crawled onto the bed, fixing himself right in front of me. We had to do this before he went back to work, and this would keep us at it for hours.
"Ha! We'll see about that." I ducked under my bed and grabbed the cardboard box, setting it up between the two of us.
He took the two cubes and started shaking them in his palm. "Person with the highest number starts first." He announced letting them go.
"Seven." I declared, taking them for myself. I let them go. "SKILLS! TW-ELVE! Oh-yeah! Who's the superior one!?" I pumped my fist into the air.
"Pssh, I swear, you have to be cheating at this game."
I gasped, feigning hurt. "At Monopoly? Never!"
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So how many of you thought that I'd make Bella and Shane sleep together? C'mooooon don't lie! Haha jkz jkz. Sorry, I just wanted something to make Edward do something to prove himself, instead of just mope around for the rest of existence, and I thought the little part at the end would be kinda funny xD Anyway, I felt bad about not writing a longer chapter last time and writing my AN look about as long as the chapter itself (as someone pointed out to me LOL sorry! Writing a chapter sadly takes me more time than writing an AN –sigh- if only it couldn't be the other way around. It'd make my life that much easier xD) I tend to talk a lot sometimes, but then at other times, I'm really quiet and my friends are all like 'why are you so quiet?' and they think I'm depressed or something -.-". And I made this longer because I'm still on a happy-high from the concert which was FREAKING WICKED AWESOME! :D Well, it would have been better if you cut out the mosh pits, but still, it was PRETTY FUCKING COOL! I was a good 15 feet away from Bill and Tom (the lead singer and guitarist for those of you who don't know who I'm talking about), but I got kinda pissed cause my friend's sort-of-friend that went waaaaaaaay later than us got to be in the SECOND ROW! :O I was like well FUCK, we've been waiting for basically forever and we started out near the beginning of the line and then all the pushing from the other people got her to the second row and she only had to wait like two or three hours! –sigh- life just isn't fair sometimes. Eh well, my friend got the most perfect picture of the lead singer and I'm going to blow it up poster size and stick it in my room, for great memories :D. Oh yeah, and guess what I saw while waiting in line? Someone brought an ECLIPSE book! I was like :O OMG OMG OMG and started pointing at it, and my friends were just like oh...yeah. They were probably thinking 'why are you so excited over that, when you're going to see Tokio Hotel?' but I was bored, and I always react like a crazy psychotic freak when anything Twilight related happens, so sue me hehe. I finished just finished this today but I tried finishing it so I could post it up yesterday but I wanted to make it longer and it started getting late because I was busy trying to remember what I've been daydreaming to happen next in the story (I've been zoning out a lot lately).
Oh yea, I know this is pretty late, but did anyone find Robert Pattison freaking BEAUTIFUL in the Twilight trailer? LOL I was like W.O.W...make-up can really work wonders...haha (and his hair looks pretty good there too) but oh my god, he seriously looks good in the trailer, I cant wait for the actual movie! But the bad part about the trailer is that I kind of found Kristen Stuart really bad for Bella now, but eh well, that's just my opinion. It still looks pretty damn awesome! :D
Aiit, imma go and post this, bye!