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I am trying to keep the number of reviews higher than the number of chapters....I'm clearly quite pathetic lol x
I don't think the beginning of this story is flowing to well. I have so many idea's, but of course they can't come until later in the story...it's rather frustrating lol x
So here's Chapter 4!
New Friends & Old Companions!
"During depression the world disappears. Language itself. One has nothing to say. Nothing. No small talk, no anecdotes. Nothing can be risked on the board of talk. Because the inner voice is so urgent in its own discourse: How shall I live? How shall I manage the future? Why should I go on?"
Kate Millett.
Never in all her life, even her day's as a cheerleader, had Gabriella Montez seem someone so peppy or so obnoxiously happy as the blond who stood in front of her right now. Clad in rhinestone this female definitely was something else. Sharpay Evans was, without any other way to put it...Bedazzled. She squealed when she met her, once again squealing when she saw her sandals and then squealed once again when she found out Gabi's hair was infact real and not extensions. There was a part of Gabriella who hoped that she could perhaps feed of the Blonde's happiness, there was another part however, a rather large part of her which really wanted to punch this girl in the face.
Gabriella was ecstatic to discover Sharpay, or Peppy as Gabi had taken to calling her, was the only overly happy, half way to insane member of the group. Sat around the table of which Sharpay had abandoned, in attempts to be the first to introduce herself, sat 7 others, 5 males who she knew and 2 other females.
"Yo Gabby", Chad called as she made her way towards their table.
"Hey Chad, hows things?", Gabi replied.
"Not to bad, not to bad, I...
"Aren't you going to introduce us?", asked the dark skinned women sitting to his left.
"Oh sorry babe, I almost forgot. This is Taylor.." , Chad started as he began to introduce the females.
Taylor McKessie was a dark skinned beautiful women. She had dark hair, which sat in a stylish bob, dark eyes and from what Gabi could see had a very curvaceous figure, one which Gabriella was quickly very jealous of. She quickly found out that the young women was also dating Chad.
To Taylor's right sat a very petite and reserved looking girl. Her hair was a mousy brown colour and upon her fair skin nose lay a pair of glasses. Her name was Kelsie Neilson. Gabriella took an instant liking to this girl, perhaps it was how shy and yet very genuinely nice she seemed. Kelsie was the "better half", as Chad had so kindly put it, of Jason.
The last female to be introduced, even though they had already briefly met was Sharpay Evan's. There was no denying the girls beauty, she was petite, similar height to Gabriella. She was also blond, very, very blond.
All of the people all the table made Gabriella feel very welcome, asking her questions about herself, none of which Gabi noticed where to personal, she thought perhaps Troy had told them not to.
Gabriella was taken aback by how wrong she had been about the peppy blond. She was infact really nice. Gabriella had accidentally called her "Peppy", while speaking to her, she laughed it off saying "It's better than this stupid arse name my parents gave to me, Sharpay, Shar-fuking-pay. Then you know what they go and do for Christmas, they but me the dog, the dog that I am named after, could that be anymore humiliating. They couldn't just buy me a fucking Labrador.
At this Gabriella took to liking Sharpay, who asked could she call her Peppy, because she despised her name.
Gabriella had made continual glances towards Troy, she noticed he was being awful quite.
"Hey, are you okay?", she asked him.
"Me, yeah I'm fine, just fine", he said very unconvincingly.
She noticed he was looking over at a table where four girls where sitting.
They were speaking exceptionally loud in an obvious attempt to be noticed. To Gabriella they all looked like desperate sluts.
"Who are they?", Gabi asked 'Peppy' who was sat beside her.
"Oh God, you don't want to know", Sharpay stated, growling at the loudest of the girls at the table,"...that's Kacey White and her band of plastic whores." " They go to our school", she continued, "the red haired one, fake chest, that's Kacey, cheer captain."
Wow, this is all very cliche, thought Gabriella.
"Is there any reason for Troy's staring", she questioned.
"Last weekend their was a party at Louise's, a girl on the cheer team's, house. Kacey had been all over Troy all night, he kept brushing her off, he's never been interested in her, she tryed to coax him upstairs with her and when he refused to she went ape-shit."
"The next day we all went down to the court, the guys always get together and play on a Sunday, and she was there. Everyone was whispering and giggling and it was pretty clear it was directed at Troy. All her little cronies had said they saw them go upstairs together, Kacey however, told everyone that he was....lacking in that department, if you know what i mean", Sharpay said looking over to Gabi, she nodded. "She told everyone how terrible he was and how he 'couldn't get it up', anyway long story short, the guys all teased Troy about it pretty badly and he was really pissed."
Gabriella turned to Troy, seeing that he was still growling towards Kacey's table.
"You know Troy, I've met some bastards in my time, had the displeasure of meeting some pretty fucked up and evil people. People who got of on other people's misery, making their life's a living hell, but you know what, never in all my life have I met anyone as bad as a ecotistic cheerleader. They bitch and fuck with people for a living, you know what people say that cheerleaders are thick, that's the biggest load of shit I've ever heard. Don't get me wrong the aren't all brainy academically, but they know how fuck you up, their smart girl's."
Troy was looking down at Gabi as if she were crazy.
"You think I'm kidding?" asked Gabi.
"No, I just...I don't get you, your a hard girl to understand"
"Don't worry about it", Gabi replied,"..most don't, and you probably never will."
"So...will you be going to school when the summer ends?" Troy questioned, in an attempt to get back to normal conversation.
"Yeah, for my senior year, East High I think it is".
At this Sharpay gasped and squealed once again. I'll never get used to that, thought Gabi.
"Your coming to East High, we go there", she exclaimed.
"Yeah, well Shar it is the only high school in this area, everyone goes there.", stated Chad.
"I know, but its still cool", she replied.
For 2 hours the conversation flowed freely. East High was sounding pretty good for Gabriella and she was quite looking forward to attending. Gabi had also said that Leah would be joining her soon. Of course the conversation then turned to Gabi's friend. Sharpay had asked to see a picture of her, Gabi had some on her phone. Sharpay had decided then and there that when Leah arrived she should hook up with James, which Gabi laughed at, though he was very good looking he didn't seem like her type. He was very quite and reserved and from what Gabi had known of Leah she liked a dominant, powerful kinda guy.
After a walk along the beach, everyone had decided to go their seperate ways. Everyone had paired off except for Gabi, Troy and James. James left shortly after to go home.
Troy walked Gabriella home once again, apologising when they got to her door for how quite he had been all night, stating he just had things on his mind.
Before turning to leave Troy leaned down and placed a kiss on Gabriella's cheek, though not without hesitating first. He looked down at her, the awkwardness of the situation not only evident on his face but also in the air.
"Soo...bye", he said.
"Yeah, after", Gabi replied.
Troy walked down the path without looking back, raising his hand and rubbing the back of his neck as he walked.
Wow, awkward much, Gabi thought.
Memories of sickness and fear of the dark plagued her mind, as she watched the young women from afar. Watching this women torture herself should have been sickening to Gabi, and yet it wasn't.
She felt no sympathy towards the young girl . Nor could she bring herself to empathise with her regarding the situation she was now in.
Gabriella found herself disgusted as she watched her ever pound her fists against the cold floor.
Seemingly unfazed by the tortured girl, Gabriella made towards her.
She was weak, weak and helpless. Gabi laughed at this, she was worthless, useless...pathetic. A pathetic little girl who meant nothing.
Gabriella could barely stand to look at her anymore, the mere sight of the worthless being turned her stomach.
The young women lay upon the cold floor,she writhed in pain, bathed in blood and perspiration. Her dark hair tangled and matted. Her face cut and bruised. The room its self would have been torture enough for anyone, the cold floors and padded walls, there were no windows, no light to be allowed in. Her only item of clothing a white gown.
Gabriella suddenly became aware of she and the other girls surroundings and shivered at the thought.
She could hear the shrill screams of the insane and mentally unstable. Behind the walls of the room where the women lay, beings who had lost all touch with reality lay too in their boxes.
The young women was no better thought Gabi.
She deserved to be here, after what she had done, she deserved all of this.
The room became to spin, and a disruptive beeping could be heard in the distance, drowning out the screams of the insane.
Gabriella turned and looked back at the girl, she new, somewhere deep inside of her this should have hurt. It didn't.
The girl looked up at Gabriella as she took a final glance at her. She stared at the girl, looked into her eyes and saw a stranger looking back, a stranger trapped in her body.
For it was her, she was the girl on the floor and this, this was her reality.
Gabriella woke with a start, the reality of the dream hitting home.
This dream had been different, rather than a memory, she had been looking down or herself and she had been disgusted with what she saw.
Gabriella turned to the noisy contraption to her left, hitting the top of it to halt its obnoxious bleeping.
She noticed the time on the clock read 5:36. I need to stop waking up so early, she thought to herself.
Deciding she wasn't willing to risk the chance of dreams again, Gabi choose to get up.
Heading into the shower.
1 hour later Gabi was dressed in sweats and a baggy T-shirt, having just finished blow-drying her hair.
Switching her i-pod to shuffle Gabi decided she would have a start at actually unpacking some of her clutter.
She halted straight away, however as she heard the song which began to play from her speakers.
Moving over to switch it off, she stopped herself, however as the lyrics began to play.
It had been the song she had sung. Sung it for them, the day she had laid them to rest.
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an Angel fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of an Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
Gabriella lay hugging her pillow as the lyrics drew to a close and the music faded out.
Silent tears falling from her eyes as she remembered her brothers.
She had been so horribly depressed for 3 months...she couldn't pretend that it had passed completely. Sometimes, while in a room full of people, she could feel so alone, so scared. As much as it humiliated her to admit it, though she had been through so much and had been forced to endure so many unbearable situations. Times when she had stoically faced death and danger head on, it were the little things that she scared her the most. Gabriella was scared of the dark, she was afraid of strangers but most of all she was terrified of being alone.
There was no cure for her mental state, the doctors had told her so, there is no medicine or operation that can cure a broken mind, let alone a broken heart.
Living with a mental illness was an endless and vicious cycle. There were days when she felt great, normal even, as if she were her old self again. Then there were the days she was bearly recognisable, she would lash out, hurting both herself and others both physically and emotionally.
The thoughts of hurting those she loved again terrified Gabriella, she was plagued with guilt and she thought back on the times when she had.
A week later Gabriella was feeling more settled in.
The previous night Gabi had gone out with 'the gang' for the third time and much to her surprise, it had been fun, really fun.
Today, however, was the day Gabriella had been looking forward to. Leah was coming. She had text her earlier saying that they had just landed and they would be arriving shortly.
Gabriella and Leah had become like sisters in the short time that she had spent in Canada.
They had met at a cheer-leading tournament in Australia a few months before Gabi moved to Canada.
They had gotten on really well and when Leah had gone back to Vancouver they had stayed in touch via email.
When Gabi found out she was moving to Vancouver, the first person she told was Leah. Asking her which school she went to and where she lived. Eventually Gabi had managed to sway her father to moving to near where Leah lived.
They had become so close during their time together, that they were like family to each others parents. Gabi and Leah's mothers had become close friends also and so they had quickly become like one big family.
The doorbell rang, snapping Gabi out of her thoughts.
"Gabi darling, there is someone at the door for you, complete stranger I think", laughed Gabi's father.
"Haha, funny Uncle James", replied the voice of Leah MacKinnon.
Upon hearing this voice, Gabriella ran from her room, bounded down the stairs and engulfed the brunette standing in the doorway in a bone-crushing hug.
"You totally forgot all about me the, I guess", joked Leah.
"Yeah Lee that's what this is", she replied.
"So Elle, what's been happening?"
"Nothing much, you know just...stuff", replied Gabi, while taking Leah's bags upstairs to her room. They would be staying together until Leah's parents had decorated and furnished their new home.
"Stuff really li.....wow, who dropped the bomb", said Leah as she noticed the disaster that was Gabi's room.
"Haha very funny, I just haven't got round to doing it yet", stated Gabriella.
"No you where just waiting till I got here, knowing I would do it because I can't stand mess."
"Yeah well that also", Gabi admitted, trying to find a space for Leah's suitcases.
"Well let's get started them", stated Leah, far to enthusiastically for Gabi's liking.
"Huhh...why do you sound excited about cleaning? I mean come on it's a Saturday and you just got here, why don't we go to the beach? asked Gabi.
"Yeah well, I can't sleep in this", she pointed around at the room,"...tonight and if you don't start now you never will.
"Fine, but I'm not arranging everything, just getting the clutter of the floor".
4 hours later Gabi was unpacking the last of her items onto her desk(which had been moved 6 times, until Leah thought it was in an appropriate spot).
"Done", cried Gabi.
"There how much better is this", Leah stated.
Gabi had to admit it did look great and somehow very elegant. Leah had changed her drapes and had made her father go buy her lamps and little accessories to match her room.
"Yeah, it's great, can I eat now?", Gabi asked clearly frustrated.
"Yes let's do that", Leah giggled.
"Soo....", Leah began, as they made their way along the Pier, towards the diner.
"Any cute guys?"
"Yeah, they ain't to bad, but they're all kinda surfer dude, which is just sorta gay",Gabi stated.
"Ugh your so picky", replied Leah,"...plus surfer dudes tend to have great body's."
"Fair point", Gabi agreed, as there eyes lingered upon the men on the beach.
"So if your not into guys who surf, then who are you?"
"Ehm...the more athletic kind", Gabi replied.
"Oh like soccer players?", questioned Leah.
"I was thinking more basketball", Gabi mumbled to herself.
Ahhh...I'm soo sorry.
I know this is terrible and bears absolutely no relevance to anything.
It was kind of a filler chapter.
I have decided that the next chapter will be about Troy so we can have an insight into his life because as things stand he has bearly even been mentioned.
So I'm sorry again...this will get better, I promise. Just bear with me.
Anyway, please review...even if it is to agree with me and tell me this is rather terrible.
Lauren xxx