Let Me Love You

Let Me Love You

Chapter Twenty Four

After finally being able to leave Alice's room with only a manicure, I headed to my grand piano. I just felt the need to release and relax with a little music that was in my total control.

At first, I was playing something I've memorized from one of my many composition books, but it gradually started traveling into the direction of Bella's lullaby as my thoughts drifted to her. I didn't need to worry about my family overhearing it since they were either out, or in Alice's case, blasting pop music while she put away her new purchases.

While playing the lullaby, I started thinking about that song I had made with simple instruments I had found lying in the basement. The reason why I couldn't give it to her was because I didn't feel it as something that would show her how I felt, rather then a song meant for Him to take advice on. I didn't realize until I actually sat down and listened to it, that I had been taken over my anger at his actions and was only focusing on that alone instead of my feelings for Bella.

As I thought about it more, I laughed lightly to myself for being so stupid and wasting my time on something meant for someone as unworthy as him. At least I through it out, and hopefully Esme took out the trash today so I would never have to even lay eyes on that CD again, let alone listen to it.

When I finished the lullaby and couldn't stop daydreaming about the beautiful angel that wasn't more that a couple miles away from me. I was so into my thoughts, I nearly jumped as I hadn't even realized my involuntary elbow leaning down on the piano and the hand I was going to use to rest my chin slipped onto the ivory keys as well. The sound actually scared me senseless—no matter how hard it is to believe, being a vampire and all—but I was more shocked at what notes it hit than anything. I took my hands away from the keys quickly, looking at what I had pressed down on, before pressing down on them in the same order again. It sounded…almost good.

This could work…was running through my thoughts as I continued to press down on random keys to find something. Don't get me wrong, I knew how each note sounded, it was just the fact that something so random was played on accident merely brought on the possibilities of what could lie ahead.

I made the first verse, writing it down, after several tries and comparisons of what would go better with what, when, after several hours.

Closing the top of my piano, I began heading up the stairs before Alice appeared in front of me.

"Hey Edward."

"What is it Alice?" I sighed, shuddering as I accidentally took a glance at my now girlish fingernails.

"Bella just wanted to let us know that she just got a call from her dad, I mean Aro, that she's got a tour coming up for a couple of shows, since schools out and summers in and she has more time. So she said she's going to busy with rehearsals and stuff for the next couple of weeks. She said something about us not being allowed to come along because she wanted to surprise us at the show and blah blah-"

"Alice." I growled, a little ticked that she wasn't giving me all the information.

"Okay," she rolled her eyes. "Anyway, she sounded like she was just crying on the phone, do you know why?" she actually looked concerned this time.

"No, and why didn't she call me herself? And wasn't she supposed to be informed about tours at least a few months ahead of time?" Worry etched its way onto my face at the prospect of Bella crying.

What happened?

"Oh right," Alice hit her forehead, remembering something. "she said that you weren't picking up."

"Huh?" I swear I would've heard it if she called. Confused, I picked up my cell and flipped it open. Dead. I groaned. "What about the tour thing?"

"I'm getting to it." she said exasperated. "For your second question, I asked that same thing too. She said that she knew about it, but it kind of slipped her mind with everything going on, whatever that's supposed to mean, and that she just remembered about it when she got the call." She frowned, showing that she had no idea what Bella meant, but her thoughts spoke otherwise.

This is going to work out perfectly.

"What's going to work out perfectly?" I raised an eyebrow, daring her to lie.

Shit, did I just think that?

"Yeah, you did." I glared, letting her know that I knew she was up to something.

"Oh heh-h-heh, I was talking about…" she racked her brain, still forgetting to block her thoughts from me. "your outfit for tomorrow?"

"Alice." I nearly snarled.

She sighed in an almost defeat, but not quite. "Do you trust me?" I stared at her, my gaze not wavering as I looked into her pleading eyes. Grudgingly, I nodded. "The trust me when I say that things will work out in the end. I can't tell you how, but they will."

"Okay." I sighed, hugging her as I hoped she was right.

Bella's POV

My thoughts were going at unimaginable speeds at the prospect that might know. Were we really that loud? Were me and Shane that obvious about our relationship troubles the last time he visited?

My eyes widened in horror. Did the whole family hear our fight? I didn't want Edward to get caught up in my problems, let alone his family. He didn't deserve to be in the middle of it, he was too good of a being to be.

The sound of my phone distracted me from the predicament at hand. It was my dad. He reminded me I had a tour coming up and that I had rehearsals. I was grateful he'd called; I had too much going on in my mind to care enough to remember.

Then I realized Edward might come along with me to the rehearsals. I was racking my brain for an excuse for him not too, I don't think I could handle seeing him without-

Stopping my thoughts, I shook my head for letting them stray in that direction at a time like this. Although what I was doing right now hurt me more then I could have ever imagined, I couldn't let that happen, at least not until I can sort myself out. There was too much stress that I needed to let to die down at the moment.

I quickly picked up my phone, pressing one for speed dial on Edward's number. It rang a few times before it went straight to voice mail.

"Hey, this is Edward, I can't get to you right now, so leave a message right after the-BEEEEEP" I groaned in frustration before closing my phone shut.

I decided to call Alice instead, and I was thankful that she picked up on the second ring. "Hey, what's up Bella?"

"Um, I just wanted to let you know I had a tour coming up and I'm going to be busy with rehearsals for the next couple of weeks. And uh…" Crap, I forgot to think of an excuse.

"No worries, I already know why we can't come along to watch. I'll make up some excuse for Edward for you." Guilt immediately came back to me at the prospect of me lying to him, even if it wasn't technically me lying, I was still keeping the truth from him, and not seeing him for a while just made the idea worse. "Hey, don't guilt trip yourself. I'm sure he'd understand if he knew. Just think things through and everything will work out in the end. I promise." Although her words touched me, I still couldn't help but feel a little at fault.

"Thanks Ali."

"Don't sweat it. Now I'm sure you still need to get some sleep, so I'll leave you to it."

"Thanks—for everything." My voice laced with complete appreciation.

"No problem. Oh, and Bella?"

"Yeah?"

"I just thought you should know that Edward really cares about you." Was all she said, before I heard the dial tone.

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Okay, I was going to update yesterday, but I admit, I was slacking off a bit xD Hope this chapter makes up for it, and explains what Bella meant the last chapter without giving too much away. You'll find out I think next chapter, hopefully. Anyway my goal is to update this weekend since I'm done with my big Essay thing, and I think we're just taking some notes and watching movies and stuff for the rest of summer school until exam day which I'm guessing is this Thursday, maybe Wednesday. Oh yeah, is anyone going to the masquerade at Chapters in Toronto for the release of Breaking Dawn? I'm planning on going, but I have to figure out how I'm going to get there first, since its late and all. I might end up having to beg my parents LOL. Anyway, just asking to see if I might see any of you there, unknowingly of course xD.

Anyway, imma go submit this now, bye! :)

PS: Thank you to all who wished me a happy (or belated) birthday, again :D