Let Me Love You
Let Me Love You
Chapter Twenty Five
During the past two weeks, with Bella gone, I was left with a truck load of free time since I wasn't a fan of Alice's day-plans. I would do nothing but sit at my piano playing out the time, or even just listen to my iPod.
Everyone was either concerned for me, or simply annoyed with my lack of life. Especially Esme, who would repeatedly come see me and tried getting me to talk things out with her until she eventually gave up for the time being from my short responses. Carlisle visited me a couple of times but caught on that I just wanted to be left alone at the time being, and let me be.
Emmett eventually got annoyed with the sound of my piano and just up and lifted it and my bench—with my still playing on it—and brought it to my own room, where I could "sulk all I wanted, as long as I couldn't damn hear it anymore". His words, not mine.
Currently I was sitting on my couch, the remote to my grand stereo system in hand, as the speakers pulsed with a song that seemed to match my mood at the moment. (Lose It by Atreyu, but you don't have to listen to it if you're not one that's into rock music, you can just look up the lyrics)
I then heard a knock on the door, already knowing who it was judged by their thoughts. "Come in Alice."
"Hey Edward," she chirped, pouncing into my room like a basketball.
"What is it that has you blocking my mind?" I sighed, secretly wanting her to leave as soon as possible.
"Well, if you're going to be a grouch, I won't tell you—okay I'm lying, I can't hold this type of information in. That's like not warning a kid that their dog was going to get run over if they let it run free without a leash—"
"Okay, I get it," I growled.
"Oh right, okay, I just wanted to remind you that we're going to California for Bella's first concert during her tour. I already bought the plain tickets so you don't need to worry about that." My eyes widened. I completely forgot that I-I mean we, would go to see her for her tour. All this time I spent mostly blocking the outside world out that I'd lost track of time.
"When are we leaving," I almost breathed, due to the shock I was still slightly in.
"Tomorrow morning. I suggest you start packing—wait, never mind, you don't have as much stuff as I do. Just pack an hour before we start heading to the Seattle airport, for our flight. Carlisle took the week off from the hospital so he and Esme are coming along again.
"Oh, alright." I still couldn't wrap my mind around the idea of seeing Bella again. It had only been two weeks but it felt like two centuries. I called her back but she didn't pick up her phone and she never gave me a call or message back, leaving me a broken man, seeing as how she was probably with Shane on another one of his days off.
The thought maddened me, but I tried reassuring myself that she was too busy and didn't have time for him even if he did have time off.
When I finally boarded the plane, nothing still seemed real, as if it were all just a dream. Too bad dreams weren't possible for my kind, aside from Bella of course.
It only seemed minutes before we were already at our hotel rooms.
"Come on, hurry up Edward! We only have a few hours to head to the beach before the sun comes out! Get your butt out here before I send Emmett over!" I sighed. Couldn't she just accept that I wanted to stay inside by myself?
"Coming Alice!" I called, then mumbled "crazy pixie" under my breath, before heading to my suitcase to get my trunks to change in.
"I heard that!"
"I don't care!" I replied.
I heard her "humph" before her light footsteps faded as she got into the elevator to head down.
As I started down to the lobby, I got stares from the female population ruining my comfort zone. I only had my swimsuit on with a towel around my neck since our hotel was right by the shore, and the thoughts didn't lighten anything up.
The first thing my sister saw as soon as the elevator doors opened was my vicious glare, but she ignored it and tugged me by the arm along with Rosalie. The rest my family just followed along, laughing at my expense while I was dragged by the two to my doom.
Two hours. Two hours of being dunked under water so many times, I almost felt like I was drowning at one point. Not that I could run away with having to keep up the pretences in the time being out in the public eye.
Thankfully Alice let me off when she realized the time and shooed us to get ready for the concert. Then my mind started traveling in the opposite direction. I realized my nervousness of my state when I thought of getting the chance to see the love of my life again.
"Ugh, calm yourself, Edward; it's not a big deal or anything. She still thinks of you as a friend," I winced at the last word, "she was just too busy to call you back, yeah that's it." I tried to convince myself this over and over again.
"You know you sound like a douche when you talk to yourself like that." I jumped and whirled around in a fright. I had been too absorbed in trying to persuade myself with pep talk that I didn't hear Rosalie's thoughts of coming into my room.
"I was just uh…trying out my acting skills?" it sounded more like a question then an excuse.
"Pfft," she snorted. "Please, and I'm ugly." I rolled my eyes, always the egotistical self-absorbed one.
"What do you want?" I was too annoyed to bother going into her thoughts at this point.
"Just came to see if you dressed yourself right, and it's a good thing too. Who are you trying to impress, a hobo? You wore that shirt once three months ago, and don't even get me started on those jeans." She glared at the denim I was wearing with so much hatred, I was scared for it even if it wasn't actually alive.
"But Alice bought it for me." I pointed out.
She rolled her eyes. "Well something's going on with that little pixie because those are soooo last fall. Where the hell did she even get those?"
"Uh…" I turned and checked the tag on the back, "Armani?"
Her face twisted up as if she ate a sour apple. "Ew, must've been in the 'For Sale' section."
"So?" Her point was? It's not like it mattered, we only wore everything once and then it went straight to the donation pile.
"So you don't wear something unless it's the latest style that's come out for the season. Jeez, you're older then I am, you'd think you'd be smart enough by now to know that." Dear god, was she serious?
"Honestly, Rose, I really don't care." Straight to the point and blunt. No reason to not just cut around the corners by now.
"Uh of course you do! You can impress Bella this way after not seeing her for what, two weeks?" My face dropped completely, all my annoyance disappeared. But would she even care? It's not like she looked at me as more than just a…I couldn't even finish the thought.
I must've zoned out a bit because the next thing I knew, I heard, "This has got to go," before Rosalie quickly yanked my shirt off.
"Okay, starting off with the top…" she trailed off, rummaging through my suitcase for another shirt.
"Uh Rose…" I instinctively brought my hands slowly up to cover my…nipples from view. I feel so exposed, I mentally whimpered.
"Shush, it's not like I'm seeing things that I've never seen before. Besides, we just came back from swimming, so stop your whining you big ba-A-HAH! Perfect!" she threw a black button up shirt at me. I sighed, before sliding my arms though the sleeves and buttoning it up. She walked over to me, when I was done. "Now, for the pants." She reached down for my jeans before I reflexively pushed her hands away and jumped, nearly hitting my head on the ceiling, to the other side of the room.
"Whoa, whoa whoa! Can't you just pick me out some jeans and I'll change in the bathroom?" you could hear desperation when I said 'bathroom', obviously hinting that that was way out of my comfort zone.
"Fine, I don't see why its such a big deal, its not like you're going commando anyway." She rolled her eyes.
"Uh…" her eyes widened.
"Oh OH! Okay I'm, uh, just give you the jeans and you change in the bathroom," she shuddered, not wanting her mind to wander anywhere it didn't want to. Then she rushed to my suitcase again and threw me a pair of dark-wash jeans before shoving me into the washroom, yelling (although she didn't need to), "Don't forget to lock the door!" through the other side.
I wasn't really going commando, but she didn't need to know that. I just wanted to change in privacy, which sometimes felt impossible when my sisters were determined on something.
Walking out, Rose clapped her hands in approval. "There you go, now you have that 'Dark and Mysterious' look. This is going to be perfect for-wait never mind I said too much."
"What? 'This is going to be perfect for' what?!" I was long past suspicion, my anger flaring. She quickly blocked her mind which only added more to the flames.
"Uh, oh would you look at that? IthinkIhearEmmettcallingmebye!" and she zoomed right back to her room before I could stop and interrogate her further.
"Damn siblings. Don't know how to not annoy the hell out of me." I mumbled, walking down to the lobby after I grabbed the VIP pass Alice had given me earlier. I was going to head over myself, needing time away from my whole family's loud chatter.
I drove slower then usual, not sure if I was as excited to see Bella as I should be, still not over the lack of contact between us. Apparently I was driving a lot slower then usual, because as I pulled into a parking spot, I saw my family's cars already there.
Looking through their thoughts, my breath caught in my throat. They were already talking to Bella.
I could clearly see her dazzling smile and hear her harmonious laugh echo through their minds as Emmett told her an awful joke he'd found on the internet.
Summing up my courage, I turned the corner towards them. They were all there, but all I saw was Bella. She was already dressed with the little makeup they added to her breathtaking face to accent her features in a way that should be illegal. It could leave a blind man stricken with admiration for the beauty she possessed.
I couldn't move my feet, my memory of her didn't give her anywhere close to justice. When she finally averted her gaze behind Jasper, she caught my gaze, her expression turning from carefree to something else. Speechless maybe? But I doubted it. "Edward," she breathed, and I almost ran to her from the silk like texture of the sound. Her smile came back onto her face and my feet took on their own accord as they slowly brought me to her.
"Bella," I smiled, and my happiness overwhelming me, although I didn't let all of it show completely in my appearance, thinking it might scare her. That was the last thing I wanted to do.
"Bella! You're on in two!" One of the stage people called over.
"I'm sorry, I better get ready." She gave us all apologetic looks but stopped lastly on me, looking like she wanted to say something to me, and give me a message through her eyes, but I could decipher it before she already started walking towards the stage.
The show was amazing as always. She sang a variety of different songs from several of her albums. Halfway through the show, she had a break, since it was a human thing to do after already doing fifteen songs.
Jogging off the stage, she came straight up to me and surprised me when she put her arms around me and buried her face into my chest. "I missed you, Eddie." Her voice was muffled in my shirt.
"You know how I don't like being called 'Eddie'" I teased, although I really didn't mind it was she said it. She laughed and finally pulled away to look up at me.
"But really-"
"And now, we have a special guest to perform one of his own songs, give it up to Best-friend, Edward Cullen!"
"What?!" I choked, Bella's eyes widening as big as mine probably were.
"Alice." We both answered, although I sounded menacing while Bella just sounded like she came into a conclusion.
"Edward Cullen?" the announcer over the speakers called again.
Hesitantly, I walked to the stage, completely baffled as what I was supposed to do.
Come on Edward, sing that song you wrote for Bella. It's your chance now, so you better now screw up! Alice thought to me playfully.
Was she serious? In front of thousands? If I could, I would've hurled when I caught sight of all the fans, and then noticed it was being filmed as well. Not good…
I noticed the piano, and luckily for my being a vampire, all that stalling only took a second, not even phasing as any time wasted at all. Slowly I walked over to the bench with the microphone stand already posed over it.
Just think of Bella, Alice encouraged, and then I realized it was facing towards her.
"A-hem, I uh, never did anything like this before, so I'll do my best and give it a shot." Smoothe…
I took Alice's advice to mind and blocked everyone else out as I stared straight into Bella's irises, never taking my eyes off of her. "This is for you Bella." I said away from the microphone, knowing she could hear me clearly from this distance with the uproar of the audience.
(Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden, I say Savage Garden and not Cascada cuz its originally sung by them and Edward's a guy xD)
I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning. Yeah..
I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me.
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest powers. In lonely hours. The tears devour you..
I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...
Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes 'cause it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...
I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...
I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...
I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna live like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...
The audience burst into cheers, and I said I quick "Thank you," into the mike before nearly running off the stage, while trying to appear normal at the same time.
I gazed down at Bella, and realized this was now or never. "Bella…I can't even tell you how much I feel for you. You fascinate me every second, and you make me feel like I've never felt before. It's like you're my sun in that's lighten up my dark world. You've completely changed me into a whole new person, and you don't know how grateful I am for that, and I hope you feel the same way as I you. I love you."
She looked at my hopeful expression, "Edward, I-I can't, I'm sorry."
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Okay I know, I know, I said i was going to update like two weekends ago. I'd explain all my excuses but I'm sure you dont want to waste your time reading them and I want to post this as fast as possible because it took longer then it was supposed to to finish since I wasnt actually expexting it to be this long. So, long story short, since I wasted basically half my summer with summer school, I was trying to make the best of what free time I have and Breaking Dawn came out so i had to take time reading that too. PM if you wanna talk about it with me since I dont want to put my opinions of it on here incase I might spoil it for those who havent finished yet. Aiit, i gotta go change outta my PJs and go out for dinner for my Grandpa's b-day.
BYE!