Hi All! First I just want to thank everyone who favorited or added this story to their story alerts. I really appreciate the support. Special thanks to everyone who reviewed this story. I really appreciate reviews, they make my day. Please please please review with any questions, comments, or suggestions. On an unrelated note: I have decided that this story is set in late February I have no idea if this is correct with where it would be in the show but I don't think there is any indication in any episodes of where it would be. Also, there is not spring break in my story. There wasn't a spring break episode so I am saying that WMHS doesn't have spring break. Last thing; if you have a tumblr and you would want to follow me on there my url is goldstarsandlightningbolts. Now, onto the story...
The next day Rachel woke up thirty minutes before her alarm was to go off. Deciding she wasn't going to be able to sleep any more, she pushed the button on her alarm to turn it off. Lying back down, she stared at the ceiling. She let her eyes follow a crack on the ceiling. She had lived in this bedroom her whole life, she knew every crack and bump. She remembered lying on this bed freshman year, tracing cracks in the ceiling when she was trying to hold in tears. Those were the days when she let bullies get to her. She remembered clenching her teeth, repeating to herself that tears made her weak and Rachel Berry was not weak.
She lay there for a couple more minutes before she felt her stomach toss over. She was up and running to the bathroom before she could even process what was going on. She puked up her guts for a good 15 minutes. Once she was fairly sure she was feeling better she cleaned herself up as quickly as possible so not to wake up her dads. She then headed back to bed and allowed herself a couple more minutes of precious sleep. There goes her perfect record of never skipping a work out session. When it was absolutely vital that she wake up or else she wouldn't be early, which Rachel felt was very important, she got up and dressed herself in a cute blue sweater her favorite yellow skirt with green socks her daddy had got her. She found herself trying to stop from looking down at her stomach as she got dressed. Looking at the clock she realized she was really behind where she should be in her morning routine so she pushed things into a faster gear. However, she still found time to text Quinn after brushing her teeth (again), washing her face, and applying make up.
Thank you so much for everything! You are a life saver!
Quinn grabbed her phone and slid the screen to stop the buzzing. Text from Rachel. She let her lips curve into a small smile. She liked how Rachel used correct punctuation and spelling. For some reason, text talk had always been a turn off for her. For example, she hated the way Puck would text her luv u babe... c u home. And don't even get her started on Finn. She quickly tapped out a reply.
No problem, Rach. This sucks. I know. We need to talk. Glee is first today- come early.
Rachel expertly slid her finger across the screen and smiled at Quinn's quick reply. While Rachel in general was feeling a mixture of crushed and lost, she had to admit that she was quite excited to spend time the blonde. And it really did feel good that Quinn cared so much about her.
As she was finished getting ready for school, she grabbed her things and walked down stairs to find the kitchen silent. Her dads must be asleep. She grabbed something it eat and glanced at the time. She decided to get to school even earlier then Quinn was expecting because she just couldn't face her dads. She scribbled a note to them and headed out the door with the guilty feeling that comes with telling a lie.
Quinn dressed in one of her baby doll dresses that conveniently covered her baby bump and applied a bit of mascara and eyeliner to her face. After a quick check at her reflection in the mirror she walked into Puck's room. Puck was a pretty heavy sleepier so Quinn didn't proceed quietly as she entered his room. However, after days of Quinn going into his room in the morning his body woke up at the sound of her footsteps.
"Hi babe." he murmured into his pillow.
"Hi Puck. I'm going to school early so I'll see you there... 'kay?"
"mmmhmmm. Is everything okay." he asked as he turned over and went back to sleep.
"Yes..." she lied. But didn't matter, he was already asleep. "See you soon." she said to the air in the room.
Rachel arrived at the school and made her way immediately to the choir room. She often got to school early so she wasn't put off by the darkness or the emptiness. She actually enjoyed the peaceful moments before school started when school was safe. She sat in one of the chairs and put her bag down. She leaned back in the chair and looked around at the room. It was a familiar room, she had been it a million times, but it was different empty. It was like the glee club and the music made the room glow and without it, it was just an ordinary room.
At the slight vibration from her bad, she reached in and fished around to find her phone. Somewhen under neatly organized folders filled with sheet music and homework she found her phone, adorned with a pick case with sequins formed to show stars on it. She light up the screen and found herself looking at a text from Jesse.
Hello my fellow star! Would you like to do something after school?
Rachel panicked. She wasn't sure she would be able to keep up a normal front in front of Jesse especially if her started asking her questions. So she did one thing Rachel berry hates doing and typed out a lie.
Busy.
Quinn closed the door to her car and looked up at the sky. It was late enough for the sun to be up so it was right in her eyes. She squinted a bit before turning her head down. She noticed at teach she had had freshman year. She had somehow gotten Quinn through AP US History and Quinn was forever grateful. She really respected the way she commanded a classroom and got everything done. She smiled at the teacher who smiled a half smile in return before glancing at Quinn's belly. She sighed. A couple of months ago a teacher who used to call her gifted, and talented was now looking at her like she was disgrace would have made her cry. Now she was numb and used to it. Brushing off the teachers look she heading inside the building and navigated herself automatically to the choir room. She walked inside to find Rachel sitting waiting for her.
"Hello Quinn" Rachel greeted with a sad smile. Quinn hated to see the sadness in her eyes. Even when Rachel had been slushied her eyes had contained nothing more than the look of anger or disgust. She hated that the trademark Rachel Berry smile had disappeared from her face.
"Hi Rach. How are you?"
"Physically or emotionally?"
"Both."
"I'm fine physically, quite a bit of nausea which is not exactly enjoyable, but I'm a mess emotionally." Rachel felt she could be comfortable with Quinn. She didn't need to lie. It was funny, she was so much more confident with a girl that used to make her life a living hell than her own boyfriend.
"Yeah... That doesn't really surprise me..."
"So, why did you ask me to come here?" Rachel bit her tongue as soon as the words came out of her mouth. She realized after they had escaped from her mouth how they sounded as if she didn't want to see Quinn. Which was not true. At all.
"I just... want to talk to you." Quinn mentally hit herself. You are Quinn Fabray, she thought. Stop getting all nervous around Rachel Berry.
"Oh" They sat in silence for a couple of minutes. Rachel noted that it was the same kind of silence she had experienced before Quinn came, a comfortable silence. After some time passed, Quinn turned to look at Rachel. She had something she needed to say.
"About what you said last night, about Jesse, if he doesn't stay with you... don't worry. You'll always have me. I promise" Rachel wondered if Quinn knew how much those words meant to her. How just those couple of words made her heart burst. Quinn wondered if Rachel knew how much she meant those words. How, even though they were barely friends, Quinn cared about Rachel more than she had cared about anyone ever. Except for maybe the little baby growing in her.
"Thank you, Quinn." Rachel said with a small smile, "You have no idea how much that means to me."
"But Rach... I really think you should tell Jesse."
"I... I can't." Rachel muttered, "If I do, and he leaves me, he'll go back to Vocal Adrenaline, and we could beat them if they don't have him." Now it was Quinn's turn to have her heart burst, the nerve of some people who dared call Rachel selfish, she would give anything for this team. "Can't we just pretend every thing is normal for his week and then I'll start to deal with this?" Rachel requested.
Quinn thought about it. It's what she had done. But instead of Quinn in Rachel's position she had told her boyfriend. But of course that didn't work out too well either. Quinn realized that maybe there is no perfect route to take in this situation. Maybe every path leads to a little bit of luck and little bit of misfortune.
"Alright but you should make an appointment after school with Dr. Wu, he's my OBGYN. Okay?"
"Yes alright." She was about to ask Quinn something when Jesse walked in. The comfortable feeling in the room seemed to rush out. The room became tense and fake. Quinn turned to the front and placed her hand on her growing bump. She felt the little baby kick, she could tell little Beth didn't like Jesse any more than she did.
"Hello my little star!" the boy in question said with a big smile and a kiss on Rachel's cheek. He sat down next to her and put his arm around her possessively.
"Hello." Rachel muttered in response and leaned forward so his arm wasn't touch her shoulder. Jesse was naturally very surprised. That wasn't like Rachel at all, to not be chipper and greet him with matched (or more) enthusiasm.
"Is something wrong?" he asked nervously. He didn't really care for an answer, Rachel though. He just wants me to be his happy girlfriend who goes along with everything. Even losing her virginity.
"Oh... No!" She shot him a great big Rachel Berry smile. Maybe she wasn't all that thrilled with Jesse at the moment but she needed to keep up her normal personality or everyone, not just Jesse, would realize something was off.
"Okay!" He said with an equally bright smile but she could tell he was unconvinced. He glanced at her one more time with a look that was much more confusion that worry.
The rest of the Glee Club filed in. Santana and Brittany were first, clearly they had just come from ridiculously early cheerleading practice that Sue insisted was neccesary becuase they're hair was a bit wet and their face read. They took advantage of their boyfriends's absense but sitting next to each other and holding hands. Quinn was pretty sure she was the only one who knew how much Brittany and Santana loved each other. She thought it was cute even if it was secret. She had never felt like a third wheel with them, even when she got pregnant. Sure she didn't really hang around with them at school but that was okay. She knew Santana's obsession with her popularity came from her being scared of what would happen if people found out about her feelings for Brittany. She respected that and didn't want to either of them to lose street cred by being friends with the pregnant ex-Cheerio. She still hung out with them on weekends and it was the same as it had always been. It takes more than a teenage pregnancy to break up the Unholy Trinity.
Rachel, a couple of seats away, tried to continue her conversation with Jesse about Regionals but when Puck came in she was immediately distracted. Puck walked up to Quinn and kissed her cheek in the same way Jesse had kissed Rachel. He sat down next to her and laid his hand on top of her stomach next to her own hand. He felt Beth kicking and smiled. He was blocking Rachel from seeing that Quinn was not looking at Puck but was looking at her.
Rachel couldn't stop herself from looking at her own stomach. She tried to picture her and Jesse doing the same thing. She couldn't. For some reason she kept picturing Quinn. Rachel decided she must be going crazy.
"Hi babe." Puck greeted Quinn
"Hey Puck. I have to tell you something." Quinn whispered into Pucks ear. Puck looked nervous.
"Are you okay? Is Beth okay?" he asked with fear clearly in his eyes. Say what you want about Puck but he took care of the people he loved. And Quinn was a person he loved. And Beth, even more.
"Puck, I'm fine. We just have to talk." Quinn said with a smile. She liked that Puck was concerned about the baby. In her heart Quinn knew Puck was a good guy. He didn't always have the best judgement but he was a good guy. Quinn could love Puck. But she didn't and deep down she knew that.
"Rach? Rachel? Rachel!" Jesse said with varying degrees of worry. Rachel had been distracted watching Quinn and Puck. Clearly, Jesse was not impressed that Rachel was not listening to his story. Rachel didn't have to listen to the story to know it was about one of the amazing feats of Jesse St. James.
"Sorry. I got distracted." she said to Jesse's upset face. She turned her head so she was facing forward instead of facing him.
"Yeah, I sort of could tell." Before Rachel could reply the rest of the Glee Club joined them, followed by a very chipper Mr. Shue.
"Alright group! Good morning." the glee club muttered a quick halfhearted "Good Morning"
"This weeks lesson is Regionals! Guys, Regionals is in one week!" Everyone cheered as his scribbled Regionals on the board. Quinn wasn't totally sure why that was necessary.
"Mr. Schuester, if I may suggest some songs for the set list." Rachel said standing up and walking to the front of the room. Quinn watched her with a look of mild surprise and interest.
Glee club continued as it always did. Everyone rolled their eyes as Rachel suggested a third Barbra solo that she was sure she would be amazing at. Quinn chucked to herself, Rachel might be changing but Rachel was still Rachel. The rest of the day went as normal as Glee. But both Quinn and Rachel knew this was not a normal day.
The school day ended and Rachel rushed home to call Dr. Wu. Quinn however was sitting in Puck's car. She had taken a bit longer to get from class to his car. Her large belly was getting in her way and she hated haven't to push her way through in the hallways. She remembered how the crowds used to part when she came through. Not any more.
"Puck, I have to tell you something." Quinn said as Puck slid into the drivers seat next to her.
"Shoot" Puck said looking straight at Quinn.
"Rachel's pregnant." Quinn said simply. She knew it wasn't nice to drop a bomb on somebody and laugh at their reaction, but Puck looked so shocked that she couldn't stop herself. She kept the laugh quiet and she was pretty sure Puck didn't even notice.
"What?" Puck asked, his jaw seemed to have actually dropped like in a cartoon.
"We're the only ones that know. I'm not even supposed to tell you. I just want someone watching out for her. When I can't. You can't tell anyone."
"I won't. I'm just surprised. Who's is it?" Puck looked like he was ready to punch who ever it was. Rachel might be annoying but she was his Jew bro and nobody messed with his Jew bro.
"St. Asshole's" Quinn said through gritted teeth.
"I hate that guy."
"Yeah. I need you to help me. We need to look out for her and help her, okay?"
"Of course. Is she gonna tell him?" Puck asked. His hands were gripping the steering wheel and his knuckles seemed to be getting whiter. He hated that guy for doing the same thing he hated himself for doing.
"After Regionals. I think."
"That's gonna be a fun conversation." The two sat in an uncomfortable silence as Puck put on his seatbelt and began to drive. He turned on some radio station that played top 40s music that Quinn had told him multiple times she didn't like. It was a good fifteen minutes before he broke the silence.
"I just... Never thought Berry... She really seemed to be going somewhere." Quinn nodded. Eyeing the tears forming in Quinn's eyes he quickly changed the subject. However Puck, having little tact, brought up another touchy subject.
"You'll be three weeks till your due date tomorrow right?" Puck asked gently.
"Yes-" she said the hormones causing tears to flow down her face. She hated breaking down in front of Puck and felt embarrassed every time. However, he never seemed to be upset. Sure a little disgusted when she cried but never mad. "everyone looks at me different. They're worried, they hold my bags or pull out chairs for me like I can't do it myself. It's so frustrating!" She continued.
"I know Quinn. It'll all be over soon." Puck said. He had heard his mom say it to Quinn a couple of nights ago and it seemed to make her happier. But Quinn wasn't ready to end this conversation.
"Guess what! Mr. Schuester asked me if I might want to not compete at Regionals, you know because we have enough without me with Jesse St. Stupid!" She spit out the last two words like they tasted disgusting on her tongue.
"Quinn that might be a good idea you know. It might be good for the baby for you to rest a little bit"
"I know! And I'm not going to compete-" Puck smiled and looked relieved. That was not good he quickly realized and attempted to twist his face into a mix of frustration and concern, like the one Quinn had.
"But it's still so frustrating!"
"I know babe, I know."
Rachel, a couple of blocks away was lying on her back staring at the canopy top of her bed. She looked down at the phone resting on her abdomen. She picked it up and dialed the number Quinn had given her. As she pressed the call button she realized her hands were shaking. With as much professionalism as she could she made an appointment for Thursday. She put her phone down on the nightstand next to her. She rolled into a fetal position on her side. This sucks. It totally and utterly sucks.
