Me: Hi! People of earth and beyond:)
The Poll!!
Sauske... 14
Gaara... 11
Naruto... 9
Itachi... 8
Shikamaru... 6
Neji... 5
Sai... 5
Sasori... 4
Kiba... 4
Haku... 3
Shino... 3
Zaku... 3
Deidara... 2
Kimmimaru... 2
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto because it belongs to Masashi Kishimoto. This my idea:D
-A/N:Alot of people are saying that Sakura should of some how done the England thing... but you guys don't know is that she just might:) How? Well I can't tell you! It's a secret... hehe... but it might not happen. You'll just have to wait and see. So Sakura may or may not go to England you'll all have to wait for the answer.
...EnJoY Everyone...
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Clean Up The Act
I left the office in a hurry. Why? Because I so don't want to deal with anymore of this. I have to say it... I officially hate High School. This is not what I signed up for you know? I don't want to be ch-ch-cheerleader?! I don't want to worry about England. I don't want to think about me finding a tutor. I don't want to have all of this stress right now! I don't want deal with all of this. I have a huge head ace. The number one thing I can't get out of my head is: How do I tell them? I can't just say Hey guys! Guess what I'm going to be cheerleader! In a happy and excited voice. With a smile on my face along with keeping a serious face. You know something? I'd rather go to England! Than face being a preppy!
Come on cheer isn't that bad... I mean your mom and sister did it maybe you should-
I'll tell you this IS if you finish that sentence your so dead!
Chill. All you have to do is do a few jumps, cart wheels and rhyme. Okay you'll be f-
Do not. I repeat do not. Say fine, because I will not be! I draw the line at wearing a skirt, twirling around and rhyming!
Okay why do you have such a problem with being a girl?
I have no problem being a girl. I do have a problem being a girly-girl!
You know what. Whatever I'm out of here.
You can't leave! Hey wait! IS!
With that she left. That's what I hate. She leaves when I need her. I guess I was yelling wasn't I? Besides I forgot IS was all girly-girl material. Hm... where can I go? I look at my watch 10:55 a.m. Classes are still in session. I guess I should go in right? Exactly! So I turned to walk to my next class but stop where I am. I just realize something!
I can't go! Why you may ask? Well let's see... I have Baka 1 and Baka 2 sitting next to me! They are so noisy! Who are they? Naruto Uzumaki and Kiba Inazuka! They want to know what happen ever single minute. They are great and all it's just I hate that factor of the two. So... where do I go? Hm... let me think... I can't go to the south wing of the school 'cause of the hall monitors... I can't go to west wing... outside they have P.E. classes going on... hm... think Haruno where to go... bingo!
The 4th music room! No one uses that room anymore. I wonder why no one does. I mean there's a huge grand piano in there! It one the wide stage they have in the room. Shikamaru says that the piano is in really go shape to be played. The view isn't that bad in the room really. Aside the curtains usually closed when you open it the whole room is lighter and the view is the big green field we use for soccer.
I walked farther down the hall's till I reached 4th music room. I open the doors by the golden like handles and the first thing I see is big black grand piano on the stage. I walk down to it and grab a seat in the black leather chair and closed my eyes and just let my fingers hit the keys.
I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood
You know what? I hate that I have to do this. How will the guys even react? I mean after all the times I made fun of the preps... I'm going to have to be on! My life sucks. I have to do this for so many stupid reasons and I have to take it all.
I bet you one things for sure Ino's celebrating right now. You know why, I think that? Because she want me to be a cheerleader ever since we were young and now she gets it. She wanted me to be one of her colons... you know what... I aint going to be... I'll be the tomboy cheerleader for all I care.
If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love
And I, I will
I can just see Kiba and Lee's dream come true... haha... Kiba has always want to see me in a cheer uniform and see me chant and twirl and have my hair up being a "GIRL." Lee on the other hand has always want to have a cheerleader for a best friend. I guess he's going to have his wish you know?
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way
I kind of feel like I'm going to have to be like Johnny from Outsiders. He had to run away because he killed a Soc and Ponyboycomes with him to help keep the secret. Some how I'm going to have to run away not literally but something close to that. I'm going to have to not tell the boys that I'm not a cheerleader/prep yet. I know it's going to hurt one of them some how.
I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood
I know that tomorrow I'm going to go to cheer practice and all that... how would I do that? I have a problem with that. You know what it is? The guys have practice that day! I going to have to cheer right in front of them... how would I do that?
I would go back on ever promise I made Naruto and Sauske... ever Gaara and Shikamaru. I promise Sauske I would change. I promise Naruto I would never be a prep. I promise Shika I would always put the band first. I promise Gaara... that I would never go down that path... yet I am!
If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love
And I, I will
I was eventually going to change.
I was going to be a prep and not want to be one.
I was going to have to ditch the band on certain days to go to practice.
I was going to go down that rode!
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way
How would I even look at them with out feeling guilty about doing this?! Why didn't Tsunade let me chose to do something else?! Why did I care so much? Why am I putting so much thought into this?
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way
I can't even figure out the answers to this. Like they say in Breaking Dawn in book 2 Jacob... There Are No Words For This. It's so true. I have no answers for all of the questions that are poping in to my head right now. I have know idea how to do this!
Who was going to be my Ponyboy? The one that would keep my secret and come withme to runway? Who would be the Dally from Outsiders and keep their mouth shut right in front of the cops about what was I doing? Who? Who had my back?
...I had no idea...
and I was going to find my answers...
I climb, I slip, I fall
Into your empty hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood...
I heard clapping. I looked up and instantly look down. You know why? Cause he was here. The one of the guys that was on my mind!
"That was good you know," He said walk toward the piano and sitting down on the chair.
"Thanks... what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be in class?" I asked taking my song journal but it was taken away by him and I looked at him with an annoyed look. He chuckled and looked through the pages.
"I should ask you the same thing Sakura... so 'Until Tomorow' huh?"
"Yea... it's just something I wrote when it was... um... bored you know," I answered.
"Not bad but your keys are off you know Sakura," He said flashing me a grin. I literally laughed out loud. He always says this because he's supposedly the best at playing the piano.
"Whatever... you show me then Mr. I'm-better-than-you-at-playing-the-keys," I challenged. He took my bluff and set my journal down on the piano. He pretended to crack his knuckles and began to play. I shook my head at him and fallowed along in my head as I watched him play.
Funny...
What are you talking about now?
I mean the minute you speak of one of them... they just apear as if the were called...
Ha... ha... very funny missy but I dout it
...Explain please
You know how most of the boys... they just show up when you need them.
and this boy?
Shows up... when he feels like it? idk
please IS... don't IM talk me right now
And why not?
Because I don't want to hear, see, speak or do anything related to a preppy
You know your really taking this too far. I see no big deal about being a "preppy"
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O.o
wat with the face?
...You...are...so...just...uh!
Wow! Someone seems mad
No, I'm jumping up and down with happiness
Are you being sarcastic?
Yea... no I'm not. I'm being totaly truthful
Okay can u stop that!
Stop what? What are you talking about?
Yea you know what? I'm blocking her out now. For now one... I will not hear this inner speak and if she does then I will not pay attention to her at all. "So tell me..." Those are the words that got me out of my thoughts and arguement. Why? Cause... that voice had that tone that I for one didn't like at all... not one bit.
"What?" I replied not meeting his eyes and just staring at the keys on the piano.
"Why are you here? What about class with the two idiots?"
"I didn't want to go to class... besides I was in the office."
"Got in trouble? or did you just go there for fun?"
"I went there for fun."
"Uh huh. So why did you get called in?"
"You didn't hear did you? I hit a cheerleader."
"Why?"
Then I told him. Everything that happened. Subtract the becoming a cheerleader part. He doesn't need to know right now. Or at all. I need to talk to Inoabout not telling anyone about me joining her team, plus making her make the squad shut their trap about me being one of them for the rest of my school life. Really do you think everyone should hear about it from the gossip squad... I mean cheer leading squad when this was about me? I don't think so. To my surprise he was listening playing witha piano key ever so often. He would nod and start to say something but knew I wasn't done so he keep his mouth shut. At the end I was smiling and then went quite looking at him waiting for him to speak. He cleared his throat but then... nothing. What did I say?
"That's it, right?"
"Well, ya pretty much. So, what do you think?"
He pondered fro a second and didn't say anything until... "Well, so what's going to happen now? Is Tusnadegoing to call your parents? Are you going to leave?" I looked at him shocked. He said this all in one sentence and with no emotion. How could he be so calm? This was my life about to go down the drain and he was clam?! Then again... he wasn't going through this... but he was my friend! For kami sake! How could he not seem to care?!
"What?"
"You hear me," He said pushing a piece of hair that was in my face behind my ear, "What is going to happen now? How you going to get yourself out of this? Hm?"
"I... I... well... um... you see... uh... hm..." That's all I said. Nice going Sakura! You're acting like a star struck fan girl that's stuttering! I honestly didn't know what I was going to do. I was all out of words. Me. Sakura Haruno was out of words can you say... amazing. He was having this amused look on his face. "What are you looking at?"
"Oh... nothing so? You haven't answered my questions yet," He replied slyly. I looked up for a clock hanging on the wall. Found it. Guess what. Class was going to end soon. You know what that means? It means time to make my escape! Ha ha... I'm very funny. Not... but seriously I need to get out of here. I don't need to answer him when I already have nothing to tell him. Jeez, does he's suppose to be super super smart? Shouldn't he found out I have nothing to say? "Sakura. You know you've been acting all strange today."
"Well..." What to say? "I have my reasons." Nice job Sakura... really nice job... not.
Not helping inner... not helping at all.
Did I say I would help?
As my inner... you should be helping me.
I object! I object! In all good names of all inners everywhere! I object to this unholy-ness! Not all of us inners are suppose to-
"Sakura. Your spacing out again." He pointed out. Does he always have to do that? I signed and nodded my head. I grabbed my bag and began to get off the piano bench but he stopped me. By grabbing my wrist at the most. I looked at him and he looked at me. An unspoken language was happening right now. This instant. No one would understand. It may just look like we were staring at each other but there was more to it... He let go of me and got up too. We walked off the stage with no words to each other. What was there to say? He couldn't understand right? There was only one person I could tell and they would understand... Lee.
BRRRRIIIINNNNGGGGG!!!
Time for class.
"See you later Sakura..." He said and walked down the other side of the hall. I went opposite and said nothing till he was out of view.
"Bye Shikamaru..."Little to late... I know but it's for the best to say it so he doesn't hear my throaty voice. I don't cry. I don't do crying. I don't sound sad most of the time. I don't do sad. I don't do those kind of girly emotions much... but for now... I'm going to hold myself together and walk straight to my next class.
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I could only tell Lee. You know why? He maybe weird but he listens. 'Sides it's like talking to a girl when you think off it. So why not say it to him? I bet my parents already got a call from Tusnade about me 'joining' the ch... ch... che... chee... chee... cheer... leader! Thank's IS... I think... See I can't even say it? So can I even do it? Answer: Invalid. or If this was a question on a test it would be E. None of the above. Ptf! Either that or I'd skip the question and get it wrong... but this isn't a test. This real life. Therefor I am stuck with trying to use my head to get out of this. Can't I just get in trouble one more time? That way I leave this country for one whole year and come back a 'new' person.
The next question is it worth it? Think about it... all I wanted in the first place was to stay here and not leave. Now I change my mind? What's up with that you may thing... well the answer to that question is: 'cause this is cheerleader damn it! Sorry for my language. I mean if you were in my position you wouldn't want to be a cheerleader right? right? right? right? Yes! Of course! Uh huh! Definitely! Really... we alread have a cheerleader in my house why do we need another one? Ptf... I have no comment for that.
I am currently walking down to the cafe. By myself. No Sasori. No Shikamaru. No Sauske. No Neji. No Naruto. No Sai. No Gaara. No Kiba. No Shino. No one at my side. Though I guess it's for the best. I feel really emo right now. No offence to all fo you who are or who are in denial. I just mean... I feel down or something. Man... I need a song by blink 182 or sum 41 to get me happy again. I take a deep breath and close my eyes, I stop in mid-walk and just 'try' to clam myself. Key word try. Yes I tried to do so but how can you when all of a sudden a someone grabs your arm and you turn around all of the sudden.
"Sakura! There you are!" Lee yells. Still holding my arm but then lets go when he sees my face. Is it that obvious? "What happened?" His voice is full of concern and such. I guess it is. I sign and point to the benches outside. He grabs me... again! And we run all the way outside. This is what you get with Lee. When something is up he rushes you to find a place to sit and tell everything he needs to know. No surpise there. This is Lee the guy who likes guys we're talking about!
"Sit! I'll shut up if you want! Just tell me already!" He yells and he pushes me on the cold hard bench. Don't you feel the love here? 'Cause I sure do! Note: Sarcasm here everyone. I mean of course I am going to tell Lee everything all he has to do is yell and I'll jump at his word. Surrre I will. Not. So? I can tell him about when I got home... or I can tell him about what I did to Ino and not tell him about what my parents told me about good old England. Or I could make something up to replace the England story... ya do you know were to start?
I sign. Were do I start? I'm repeating myself again... I clear my throat and say, "Okay... so, it goes like this alright..." Then I tell I am planing to tell him... everything. When I say everything. I mean everything. No lies. No forgetting stuff. No making up things. I tell him everything... and it sure is long if you ask me.
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It's quite. The only thing you can hear is the wind blowing through the trees. I look at Lee to see his face. It's like he's seen a ghost. Was it that bad? Was I not telling him something he wanted to hear? Did I miss something? If I did can someone please tell me so. Maybe I should have lied alittle? Maybe I should of forgotten to tell him something? Maybe I should of made something up? Maybe I shouldn't have told him at all and maybe told Haku or Kimimaro? They could keep they're mouth shut right? Um... maybe... maybe not...
"Lee? Lee are you there?" I wave my hand in front of his face. He doesn't blink. "Come on... I told you everything didn't I? So tell me what am I suppose to do?" I want to slap him... maybe then he'll speak to me? "Lee! Hello! Are you there? Or have you died before a shoe sale?"
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It's quite... again.
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Maybe I shouldn't have...
told. him...
great regret is happening...
right now.
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Should I scream at him or something? He's not even moving! He's not even blinking! Is he breathing? Um... yeah he is... so he's still alive. Did his soul leave his body or something?! Someone help! Someone get a Prado bag for this boy! Someone get so high heal shoes! Someone get some pink! Someone make him talk for me! What can you do to get a gay guy to talk? If you know please contact me at 1-800-HELP SAKURA HARUNO. The hot lines are open for anyone who would like to speak to me about my problem. The first three minutes are free. So call now! I mean it... now would be nice... really, really, really, really, really, super, super, duper, ni-
"WHAT?! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME EARLIER! HELLO! THIS IS GREAT! NO AMAZING! THIS IS SOOO... YOUTHFUL? IDK! BUT OMG! SAKURA!!!!" He yells while hugging the air out of me. Um... the line is now disconnected. Thank you for those of you who tried to call.
"Eh? Lee..."
"Ya?"
"Can you let go of me?"
"Sorry... but still why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"Lee... could you-"
"Oh mi gosh! We have to tell the guys!"
"Lee wait!"
"Come on Sakura!"
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He runs. He's running to the cafe. He's running to the cafe to tell the guys. The guys. The guys! There is only one thing to do. One thing must be done. What is it? Well... run after Lee to stop him, duh!
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Oh shit... So you know what I do next? If you guys think I am running like this is the last thing to do before I die... you are so right. "Damn it..." I curse as I run after the biggest idiot at the moment named Lee. Please pray for me...
Me: Sry! 4 the late update you know... I got skool and stuff. Well, I guess I won't be updating as soon as I want but I'll get it up as soon as possible! haha As much as I hoped I could get the story updated like I wished back then before started... I can't... (cries) Does my school ever think of giving me a break or something?
R&R! Flamers excepted! Any comments or request pls tell me:D
Ja Ne!