I felt weak and I didn't know why I whimpered because; my wrist and the scars started to hurt this action had woken Aria who called the nurse as soon as I had woken up, when I looked at my arm I noticed the tube in it wasn't clear but red following it up my arm I noticed the bag had some sort of red liquid. When the room door opened I noticed the nurse come in but I shied away from her as if she would hit me like my ass of a father used to before my mom found out and I began to hyperventilate because; of the memory and the pain that came along with it, it's part of the reason I like girls and why the opposite sex scares me.

Aria

I had caught the ambulance to the hospital with Hanna I couldn't leave her or rather I wouldn't leave her Emily and Spencer wanted to come but I asked them to stay and get our work from the rest of our classes as well as told them to keep Hanna cutting to themselves the reason being she doesn't want anyone to know her sexuality choice hell neither of us do, the only one who knows is Alison and that's on;y because; she tortures us until we tell her some friend she is. Alison likes to be the center of attention even when something has nothing to with her especially on someone else birthday and it sickens me on how much she teases Hanna I've come close to punching her a few times but Hanna always stops me saying 'she's not worth it' though Spencer, Emily, and I disagree, we all know she deserves to be punched and so much more though, I wouldn't hit her when Hanna was around I would slap her once class was over so the whole school could see it while Spencer and Emily keep an eye on Hanna because; I'd noticed she stopped wearing anything sleeveless and it worried me. So, to find out she had been cutting all this time had scared me especially when she tried again in the girls bathroom at school while I was texting Emily and Spencer it didn't pan out too well cause as soon as I saw her I yanked the blade sideways and it cut her anyway, she was bleeding and badly when Spencer and Emily came in the bathroom I tried to rush to her side but Spencer kept me back while Emily tried to stop the bleeding as she called an ambulance while I sat in Spencer's arms screaming at Hanna to stay with us.

The ambulance arrived shortly after Emily had made the call while she was doing compressions to get her breathing again, when the EMT said they couldn't work on her here I was the first to volunteer to ride with her in the ambulance and told the girls I would call if her condition changed and that one of them should probably call her mom because; she might be worried if the school called her and Hanna wasn't here I also told them to keep Alison out of my sight because; if I see her I would beat her senseless they quickly agreed but they also, wanted to know why Hanna had cuts all over her arm so I had no choice but to explain as we ran alongside the gurney Hanna lay on. Once, we got in the ambulance the EMT'S set to work trying to revive her and cleaning the scars and actual cut as well while all I could do was watch helpless as they worked to save the girl I loved, yeah you heard right I am in love with my best friend Hanna Marin and I am quite proud of it though my mom has no idea that I like girls which I hadn't planned on telling her anyway because; I didn't know if she'd be happy or disappointed in my sexuality so I didn't bother but something tells me she knows. Upon reaching the hospital the EMT'S took her out of the ambulance and began to wheel her inside with me right next to them things seemed to slow down it felt as if we were moving in slow motion as if music were somehow playing in the background two nurses took hold of me as I screamed at them to let me go as I called for her as I called her name HANNA!

You said you'd wait forever

But I blinked

And the world was gone

You wade through the water

Slowly your hands grow numb

I wish you felt me falling

I wish you'd watched over me

You said you'd wait forever

But I blinked

I continued to struggle just as Spencer and Emily came through the door and rushed toward me Spencer having grabbed my waist and pulled me away though i never stopped.

And the world was gone

And the world was gone

And the world was gone

Kicking and screaming is all i can remember and two set of arms hugging me as i cried. I wish i had known i could have done something to stop this right in it's tracks.

I run through your head

Loud with a nightmare

Brushing your skin with my breathing

Turn out the light

And every nightlight

Run you can run you can run

I blink and the world was gone

I blink and the world was gone

I blink and the world was gone

I didn't hear her mom enter nor my own all I knew was that it wasn't Spencer or Emily hugging me this time it was my mother that held me close trying to soothe me though I wouldn't have it.

You said you'd wait forever

But I blinked

And the world was gone

You wade through the water

Slowly your hands grow numb

I wish you felt me falling

I wish you'd watch over me

You said you'd wait forever

But I blinked

And the world was gone

And the world was gone

And the world was gone

I stood there with my mom crying for how long I don't know I had lost track from all the crying til I finally had cried myself to sleep against my mother I hadn't been sleep long and nobody knew about this except all of us here but that didn't matter apparently to the bitch who absolutely adores attention. I'd woken up to the sound of Alison and Spencer's voices:

"you shouldn't be here Alison" said Spencer, I sighed thankful for Spencer trying to get rid of her.

"Oh nonsense Spence I am just here to check up on hefty" she said, in a sweet voice though I knew when she was mocking and had enough!

I got up from the chair next to my mom and Mrs. Marin I walked right up to Alison and punched her square in the face making her fall back on her ass as soon as she fell I climbed on top of her and began punching every part of her I could reach, I was thankful Spencer didn't stop me either though with each blow I landed I said every word I wanted and meant them.

" . . .BITCH! . . .YOU!"I screamed.

Hearing the commotion my mom as well as Hanna's had woken up and came to try and pull me off of Alison as I kept punching when they couldn't budge me alone Spencer and Emily grabbed me off of her as I looked at Alison with pure venom while I spoke.

"You think it's funny to tease her about how much she weighed you dumb bitch it's not! You have one more time to call her hefty Hanna and I will beat you within an inch of your miserable life" I said, in a calm tone.

"is that a threat you little runt" she replied.

"bitch it's a promise now leave" I said, with twice as much venom as before.

I watched as she left the hospital doors I was pissed, when the doctor had finally come out I whirled around as he and Hanna's mom talked I was glad the blood drive we had let us know our blood type and it just so happened Hanna and I share the same blood type so when I heard she needed a blood transfusion I agreed to give it because; I loved her more than enough to do this so when the doctor told me to follow him to the room where Hanna was I realized that we would be connected by more than just emotion but by blood but that was alright by me because; the doctor had given me a choice to either do the transfusion lying down or sitting in a chair next to her bed I chose the latter option I watched him hook me up to the machine and then watched as he hooked up Hanna and I sat in wait until she woke up and I would tell her how I feel about her.