Spun
By Liz Wyatt
A/N: Thanks dulcesweet for the support!
Chapter Three: Can't Take It
Can't close my eyes
I'm wide awake
Every hair on my body
Has got a thing for this place
Oh, empty my heart
I've got to make room for this feeling
It's so much bigger than me
Weightless in love...unraveling
For all that's to come
And all that's ever been
-"can't take it" by Imogen Heap
Rogue woke with a tired heart. She felt the sting in her eyes from her crying the night before. She felt like she had never cried that much in her entire life.
After taking a shower Rogue looked in the foggy mirror and wiped it quickly to reveal her pale form.
She wished that it had been her.
Wished that she could have saved Jean.
It hadn't even occurred to her until last night that with her powers she could have stopped Jean. It might have killed her, but that was a small price to pay. People missed Jean. She was the center to the school. Rogue was…no one.
Refusing to cry anymore Rogue got dressed in her low riding jeans and black wife beater that let a little skin show above her jeans. She had never wore such exposed clothes before at the school, but she knew that she needed to show people that she was not ashamed to be cured.
Walking down the stairs to the dining room she could see Bobby sitting at a table with Kitty. She was rubbing his back to comfort him. Jubilee was also at the table, facing towards Rogue's entrance. She was looking bored until she looked up and locked eyes with Rogue. Kitty raised her head and turned around to see where Jubilee's vision was going. Upon doing so Kitty's hand stopped rubbing Bobby's back and he looked at her questioningly only to look around and see Rogue. He pushed his chair away from the table and came rushing towards her doorway. She backed out of the doorway and stood away from the dining hall. He came out and looked her with a huge grin on his face.
"you came back!" he said in a happy voice. Rogue was confused at how happy he was. Wasn't he the one avoiding her before she left?
"yeah. I just had to figure some stuff out is all."
"I thought you would have talked to me about it before though. I mean…I am your boyfriend right?" he asked as if her answer defined their relationship and Rogue narrowed her eyes on him.
"I don't know Bobby. I mean, do you still want to go out with a normal human girl or are you more into cats?" His smile left his face and he dropped his eyes.
"Rogue…Kitty and I just friends. I would never cheat on you. Ever." He had a serious tone.
"I know Bobby." She sighed. "I know you are a good guy who wouldn't WANT to hurt anyone."
"yeah, so I just don't understand why you're getting so jealous of Kitty. I thought we all used to be friends."
"we used to be friends with John too, but look at that." Rogue watched his jaw clench at John's name.
"Well Kitty didn't betray us and turn her back on her friends to go play some bad guy's bitch."
"Hey! John wasn't Magneto's bitch. He chose a side Bobby."
"why are you defending him? He's gone. Dead. End of story." Rogue had never heard him say things in such a hate filled manner.
"He's only dead because you let your personal feelings get in the way and YOU left him there to die." Bobby's face showed the shock coming through his body.
"Don't make me feel guilty for leaving Pyro there. Like you said he chose a side Rogue…Why are we even fighting about this? We shouldn't be fighting at all."
"We shouldn't, yet we fight more and more it seems." Rogue looked tired and Bobby was pissed off.
Kitty chose this moment to come out of the dining hall with Jubilee at her side.
"Hey Rogue." Kitty tried to have a genuine looking smile. Rogue was still upset with Bobby, but she smiled at Kitty none the less.
"Hi Kitty. Jubes." Jubilee smiled at Rogue and then looked at Bobby and Kitty and then rolled her eyes. Earning a silent laugh from Rogue.
"listen. I should go. I need to take care of some things today. Maybe I'll see you guys later." Rogue turned and walked down the hall. Away from a still fuming Bobby who stormed down the opposite hallway alone.
"wonder what they were fighting about." Jubilee said eyeing Kitty.
"me?" Kitty asked innocently. Jubilee nodded. "No…I mean Rogue and Bobby are going out and he's…you know a great guy. She wouldn't…"
"Well they weren't fighting about today's breakfast and that's all I know."
Two days later Rogue hadn't really talked to Bobby or Logan. Bobby had come looking for her a few times. One time he even knocked at her door and although she was inside she said nothing. Rogue didn't know what to say to him. Eventually she would have to face him, but for now she was fine being by herself.
The one thing she found to be the light in all that dark was her friendship with Jubilee who sat with her in the common room and gossiped about everyone. Jubilee loved to talk and Rogue was fine not saying anything. Along with Jubilee, Peter had been working with Rogue in the danger room. Her power never really helping her to fight before, she was still learning how to defend herself in a fight. He helped her learn how to make her body into a weapon all itself. Rogue expected that some day Logan would be down there, but as of yet he hadn't come. In fact she hadn't seen him around at all.
After walking out of the elevator with Peter, Rogue was laughing at a joke that he said and then she saw Bobby walking with another boy. Bobby immediately saw her with Peter and he left the boy at his side to come over. Peter noticed this.
"well I should go. Good luck Rogue. See you later maybe."
Rogue looked down, waiting for Bobby to say something as he approached.
"Hey." He said in a small voice.
"Hi." Rogue looked up into his eyes. She saw that he was having a mental fight behind his blue eyes.
"Rogue. I'm sorry…about everything. I was a jerk and just…upset about you leaving."
"I know."
"you know? so why were you avoiding me these past days?" She sighed and slowly tried to gather her thoughts.
"Bobby ah want to be completely honest with you."
"me too Rogue."
"I know that you like Kitty."
"Rogue..."
"no. let me finish. I know you like her and I also know that you still care about me. It's okay, but honestly Bobby I took the damn cure. We can finally be completely together and yet, you don't want to be."
"Rogue…it's not that I don't WANT to be…it's that I'm afraid to be. We've gone so long and…then there is the fact that you are human now. I figured you would want some normal kind of life or whatever and I'm not normal."
Rogue smiled sadly. "I never wanted to be some plain human Bobby. That's not why I took the cure. I wanted to be able to hold your hand and be able to wear tank tops and not be freaked out, to get all those voices out of my head."
He eyed her with a furrowed brow, "I'm so sorry." She nodded slowly and was surprised when he stepped forward to hug her.
Kitty and Jubilee just happened to be coming down the hall and Kitty's face dropped. She caught Rogue's eyes and she walked away quickly. Instead of that "I win!" sort of feeling Rogue felt saddened. Bobby never denied liking Kitty and on some level she knew that two hearts weren't getting hurt anymore, it was three.
A few days later Rogue was working in the Danger Room alone. She was fighting some random guy that Peter had programmed to have certain skills. Rogue side swept her attacker and quickly jabbed into the man's neck with a sucker punch. She threw him a punch across his face and he grabbed her arm to flip her onto the ground. She swung her foot towards her head area and hit the man straight in his nose. Then she rolled backwards up and punched him in the stomach as she flew up into an attack position. He delivered a punch to her face and Rogue could feel a bruise forming on her cheek. She round house kicked him to the ground and smacked the back of her heel into his face to end the fight. He was out cold and Rogue ended the session.
She walked upstairs with her black zip up tied around her gray sweatpant capris. Her sneakers squeaked on the shiny floors as she went into the elevator and she could feel the back of her high ponytail hitting her sweaty neck.
When she got up to the main floor she could hear the thunder and see the lightening through the large common room windows. No one was awake because it was a little past midnight and as she walked by the front door she saw that it lie open and the wind was thrashing it about on the hinge. She looked around to see who had left it open, but she saw no one. Thinking nothing of it she walked towards the door and closed it.
Immediately she felt the hairs on her back stand up and a wet hand grabbed to hold her around her waste and another hand went over her mouth as she tried to yell. She could tell that the person had been in the rain because the back of her tank top was quickly soaked with water as the person's chest was in her back, arching her while dragging her to the elevator. Once in the elevator she saw the hand around her mouth press a number for a floor and before she could get her yell completely out the hand was back on her face.
The elevator doors shut and the shiny mirror reflected a man behind her. Her eyes went wide as she realized her attacker was none other than John Allderyce
Author's Note: Should I continue this story? I have some more written, but the response hasn't been on here. I need to know if I should invest my time on another story. So please let me know.