I did not turn on the radio. It would just add to the distraction that was sitting in the seat next to me looking like a god. He was staring out the window and had been for the last ten minutes. His fingers tapped out an unknown beat on his leg. I thought I heard him humming softly but I could have been mistaken. This was the perfect time to ask him questions but I could not bring myself to break the silence.

My headlights cut through the darkness like a knife as I took a sharp turn. I tried to keep my eyes on the road as much as possible but I could feel myself watching him through my peripheral vision. The silence, which was normally welcome, was deafening to me.

"What are you doing here?" I blurted out. I couldn't stand the silence anymore. I glanced at Edward as he turned towards me. He sighed.

"I'm riding in your car on my way home." I felt my eye twitch in frustration.

"You know that is not what I meant." I whispered dangerously. I turned my eyes back to the road so I wouldn't touch him. It was a tossup between punching him in the nose or kissing him and either would end up in a car accident. He sighed again and looked back out the window into the black night. I thought he decided to ignore me and was about to rip him a new one when he replied.

"I wanted to make sure you were ok." He still did not look at me. I could not tell whether or not his words were mocking or honest.

"That's preposterous." I shook my head but his words just didn't sit right. I saw him turn towards me with my peripheral vision and his eyes seemed to glow. I felt myself blush for no reason but I refused to return his gaze.

"Why is that so preposterous?" I was my turn to sigh.

"Because Tanya is the one who said those nasty things. If you choose to spend time with someone like that I can't help but question your integrity." His eyes narrowed slightly.

"Tanya's thoughts are in no way my own. That is the preposterous thought, Bella."

"Oh really? And how is that? Most psychological studies prove that people are attracted to others like themselves. The old 'opposites attract' theory was booted out a million years ago. If you are attracted to Tanya in any way it means there are similarities between you. Therefore it is not outrageous to say that you have similar thoughts." Edward was silent. I didn't want to be right but I believed my own argument. Proven fact, end of story.

I pulled into city limits and I felt myself relax slightly. This would soon be over. A small part in the back of my mind cried out at the thought of Edward leaving.

"You can park wherever you usually put your car. I can walk back to my apartment." He said in a monotone as we neared our neighborhood. I pulled into my parking space and felt my sadness deepen. Edward had never said anything hurtful to me before, I shouldn't be treating him this way.

"Wait, Edward." I called to him as we climbed from the car. He looked at me wearily but there was still a spark in his eye. My eyes pleaded with him to understand my frustration. His eyes pleaded back with me, but I didn't know what he wanted.

The next part happened too quickly to comprehend. I remember taking the first step towards him and that seemed to be all the invitation he needed. He rounded the car in seconds. His hands were in my hair pulling my face up to his in a mere instant. Our lips crushed together and for the first time that day I felt better, whole. Our tongues dueled as I pushed him against my car. My arms were wrapped around his neck trying to pull myself closer.

We broke apart for a second gasping for breath. Our foreheads leaning against each other.

"Can I come up?" Edward whispered. He looked slightly scared as he left the decision in my hands. I didn't think.

"You better." He smiled a beautiful smile and slid an arm under my knees. Before I could hit the ground I was in the air resting precariously in his arms. I slid my tongue up his chin and bit his neck as he walked across the street. He paused at the door. He shifted his weight between his feet. I could tell what he was thinking by the smirk on his face. "Edward Cullen if you kick my door down I will retract my invitation."

"Well where's the fun in that?" He chuckled. His eyes lit up again a second later. He slid me down to my feet and I whimpered a protest. He backed me against the door and his very capable hands snaked into my pockets. My head dropped back and I felt my mouth open as his hands caressed my hips. He wrapped his hand around my keys and pulled them out after about a minute. Again I protested the loss of contact. He just smirked again.

He grabbed my hips and threw my over his shoulder fireman style. I laughed and screamed at the same time as he stuck my key in the lock. As he walked up the stairs I was given a beautiful view of his perfect butt. I couldn't help myself. I reached out with both hands and they each grabbed a cheek. He froze and then quickened his pace.

When we finally reached my door he set me down again and captured me in a cage of his arms. It was my turn to tease him. I slid one of my hands into his pocket and let it explore as he fumbled with my keys. His eyes were glowing in the darkness when my door finally opened. He growled and picked me up again pulling my hand from his pocket.

Maurice scrambled out of the way as Edward stumbled around my apartment. He tripped as Maurice crossed his path a second time. Edward turned his body so he took the brunt of the fall with me landing on his chest. His breath rushed out and I immediately rolled off of him. I knelt on the floor next to his head making sure he was still alive when I started to laugh.

I leaned over pressing my lips to his again and he seemed to regain his strength. Maurice rubbed against my ankle but I ignored him as Edward ravished my mouth. His hands snaked up my sides 

catching the hem of my dress and pulling it up. I felt a wave of nerves when my dress was pulled over my head leaving me in just my underwear while Edward was still fully dressed.

His eyes seemed to absorb every detail of my skin. I felt myself blush more under his gaze. His eyes flicked to my face and he smile encouragingly. He reached out and ran a finger down my face. I shivered.

I tried to stand with some aspect of grace as I lead him to my bedroom. I turned him so he was standing at the edge of my bed. I stood on my tip toes to plant a kiss on his lips. And then another. Slowly I worked my way down his chin and his neck to the top button of his shirt. I kissed the flesh as I undid the buttons. He just watched me with his eyes growing darker by the minute.

When I reached his navel he growled and pulled me to my feet from where I was kneeling in front of him. He gently ran his fingers down my arms and ensnared my wrists. He leaned down and kissed my sweetly. I felt my heart race as he turned us so I was next to the bed.

My head was having second thoughts but my body did not want these wonderful sensations to stop. Edward released my wrists and ran his fingers back up my arms so they rested on my shoulders. They danced along the nape of my neck and collar bone. Goosebumps appeared on my hyper aware skin as they continued their descent. They danced along the clasp of my bra and I inhaled quickly.

Edward paused.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" I stared him directly in the eye and kissed him. No matter how much this will hurt tomorrow I want to do this today.

"Yes." He searched my face for another moment before capturing my lips again. I was lost.

OOOOOOOOOOOOo

The sun shining on my face woke me the next morning. What a wonderful dream. I couldn't imagine a better dream. I froze as I stretched in delight. There was a note on my pillow. Did last night really happen? I shot up in bed and grabbed the note.

Bella,

I'm sorry I had to leave so early. You looked to peaceful to wake.

Edward

I felt all the blood drain from my face. I had sex with Edward. All horrible scenarios came rushing to my mind, but none could convince me it was a bad thing. I could get sucked into paparazzi drama again, but I have dealt with them before. I could cause Tanya and Edward to break up, that wouldn't be a bad thing. In fact, that became a good reason to repeat my actions. He could break my heart. There was no upside to that fact. Edward could completely and utterly destroy my heart. But I would rather have just this small piece of Edward than none at all.

My heart calmed as I accepted my possible fates. I lay back on my pillow and took a deep breath. It smelled of Edward's cologne. I stopped myself before I rubbed my face on it. That would be uncalled for. I climbed from my bed and walked to the bathroom with last night flashing in my mind.

A sigh, a whisper, a moan. It had been amazing, not at all what I had been expecting. I know Edward would be amazing in bed, but I never thought he would be so gentle and attentive. Every single one of my needs had been met and exceeded their limit as Edward lavished attention on me. I blushed thinking about how intimate we had been. I had expected hard, fast, and primal, but it had been soft, sweet, and amazing.

Maurice sat in the bathroom doorway watching me through slitted eyes. He did not look happy. I crouched down to pick him up and he moved out of my reach. He was upset that not only did I not pay him any attention last night, but he had not been allowed to sleep on the bed. I walked into the kitchen and served him breakfast. Immediately he forgave me and twirled around my legs as I scooped his food. The true way to a man's heart was definitely through his stomach.

I walked back to the bathroom. I needed to shower but I didn't want to lose the faint smell of Edward that clung to my skin. Hygiene was too important to ignore so I stepped under the spray begrudgingly. I would just have to invite him back or steal his cologne.

As the water poured over my body releasing knotted muscles and aches I thought about the night before so more. I had been so caught up in the moment that I could not remember which part of the night was real and which was dream. It had been far too good to be completely real therefore I had to figure out what really happened.

Edward lay on his side next to me. I was on my stomach as he lightly ran his fingers up and down my naked back.

"How are you?" He asked pushing the hair from my face. I smiled at him.

"After that a girl could be celibate for a lifetime."

"I certainly hope not. It was meant to show you how good it could be." He pretended to be offended.

"Well it was definitely that."

"What?" He cocked his head to the side as if he needed assurances that he was a sex god.

"Better than good. I would use the adjective 'orgasmic' but I think you got that part." I blushed at my bold words and he chuckled.

"You are quite amazing yourself Miss Swan." His fingers moved back to my spine. "But how are you?" I laughed.

"I wasn't a virgin Edward, why are you being weird?"

"I wasn't talking about that. I meant emotionally. Tanya said some nasty things." He looked concerned but I brushed it off. Tanya had no place in this conversation.

"That's great Edward. Have sex with me and then mention your girlfriend. Real smooth." My sarcasm was palpable as I went to move away from his touch. I wanted to hurt him since he kept bringing up what I wanted to forget.

"Bella." He refused to be side-tracked. I turned back to him and got lost in his emerald orbs seeing only concern.

"I'll be ok." He finally accepted this answer. He got a wicked grin on his face.

"Are you ready for round two?" He said flipping me over.

"What?!"

I wanted that conversation to be real desperately, but I didn't get my hopes up.