A/N- Thanks to hiseask17, bdfm fan for life, and julia. for reviewing. I'm glad you guys understand my issue with school and stuff. Sorry this chapter might be a little repetitive with both POVs. I wanted to get Rose's and Dimitri's head in the story and be consistent with my style so far. Anyway I'm going to set a deadline for myself. If I don't get the next chapter up by midnight, you guys have the right to nag me about the next chapter.

Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters or the world of VA at all. It all belongs to the wonderful Richelle Mead. (What would happen if I forgot one of these?)

Chapter 6: What Do You Want Me To Do?

Rose POV

Ugh! Dimitri was being annoying, as always. He always wanted to bottle things up. Well this was me, Rose, his love, I think so anyways. It wasn't like we were around anyone else. I could feel his gaze on the back of my head.

"Roza don't be like that. You know perfectly well why I'm tense." Dimitri said. I knew he had good intentions on this subject, but so did I. We were out alone together for the first time over night, I just wanted to have a good night with him. Just one night, you would think being a guy that Dimitri would take advantage of this situation. But of course it was Dimitri, he never did anything like he was supposed to, except kiss me I suppose. He made it seem less than what I had pictured. I wasn't really mad. I didn't know what I was feeling at that moment. I just kept quiet.

"Roza…" he pleaded. "You said you wanted to talk so talk." I stayed silent. "Please Roza, don't be upset, I just want what's best for you." 'Best for me,' there goes that excuse again. He uses that every time I want to do something and he stops me. He didn't get to decide what the best thing for me was. I did, and I thought the best thing right now was a good dose of Dimitri, unfortunately Dimitri always seemed to think otherwise.

I turned around and I saw Dimitri's face light up for a second. I didn't want to give him that satisfaction, not after everything he's done today. "It doesn't matter" I told him and his face fell, "Just go to sleep Guardian Belikov." I said as I turned my back to him again.

"Roza..." he pleaded again. I felt some pressure on my shoulder, I guess he reached out to touch me. I didn't want him feeling shitty too. "I'm not mad…" I told him. "I'm just..." I still didn't know what I was talking about. I wasn't acting like myself either. Normally when I got my feelings hurt I screamed, I fought. But right now I was curled up in bed feeling sad, this was Lissa's thing not mine. "I'm just disappointed right now is all..."

"Well what do you want me to do Roza?" he asked. I didn't know. I just wanted it to be like it was me and Dimitri, two people that love each other, or even just were friends. Not the way it was now, awkward, stiff. His question surprised me a bit. He never asked me something like this. Maybe it was the mood and feeling of being alone with each other in bed. Or maybe I was imagining all this and we've both gone to sleep. Maybe I was just having another break down from what had happened with Mason. "Stop acting like my teacher." I told him.

"Oh Roza you know I would love to be anything but... If you would just wait until graduation. Patience is a virtue." Dimitri told me. He was a guy, of course that was the first thing come to his mind. I didn't mean it like that. I was annoyed that he only thought of me that way. I rolled my eyes and wiggled my shoulder till his hand fell off. I wasn't asking Dimitri for anything, to tell the truth if the man held my hand that would do it for me. He always seemed to jump to bigger waters, plus I knew at graduation Lissa would become our issue. We can never get our happy ending. I started getting fidgety, my hands touching each other and my hair. It was a rare Rose Hathaway thing to see.

"Please Roza... Anything but that." he pleaded again. Did he still think it was about sex? This had nothing to do with sex. It was just Dimitri being an ass. He started stroking my hair, it felt nice, like I was being loved. Before I even realized it I had tears rolling down my cheeks. Only Lissa has ever seen me like this. No one else. I bit my lip to keep quiet, I didn't want him to know I was crying. It would hurt him so much.

"Roza...Please don't be upset with me Roza." he pleaded again. It hurt me to hear the sadness in his voice. I didn't mean to make Dimitri sad. These were my own problems I was crying to. I knew if I didn't answer he would keep on begging. I tried to mask my voice. " I'm- not. " my voice choked. " I promise..."

Suddenly I felt him shift in bed. "What are doing?" I asked curiously. Was he going to leave? I didn't look back at him, afraid to see what he was going to do, but soon I could tell from the moment of the sheets he was getting closer. He put his arms around me and hugged me. It felt right so right. My hands moved on their own and found his hands to hold too. I tried so hard to lie and tell him I didn't want this, I was still hurt about Dimitri's assumptions. "You don't have to hold me Dimitri..." I muttered as one of my hands wiped my eyes and the other held to his knuckles. "I know you don't really want to."

"But I want to..." he said, sounding sincere. Accepting his response, I finally relaxed and leaned into him. "Okay." I was happy. I wasn't sure if I he was though. I didn't know if he was just doing this out of obligation or not, but I was beyond happy with just his arms around me. I whipped the now dry tears from my cheek. I don't think Dimitri saw my tears. I knew that sometimes cuddling like this could lead to other things, or at least that's what almost happened with Jesse and Mason. Dimitri wasn't a regular guy though, he could control himself, even if he couldn't control his mind. I rolled over in his arms and looked at him. We made easy eye contact. I frowned for a second hoping my eyes weren't red.

Dimitri reached out to touch my face, whispering my name. I didn't say anything. I just leaned into him more. I knew what he wished and he understood what I wanted. I wanted to kiss him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and relaxed into him. Dimitri kept whispering things to me, but I paid no mind to them. I really wanted to kiss him. But kissing him would make this so much harder. "Now tell me, what you would like me to do Dimitri?" I whispered seductively.

Dimitri POV

Hearing what Rose said my heart dropped. I didn't want her to be mad at me, I just needed to respect academy lines until she graduated. She understood, didn't she? "Roza don't be like that. You know perfectly well why I'm tense." I told her gently. She just ignored me, staying quiet. It was very unlike Rose, I expected her to be ranting by now. The silence scared me.

"Roza…" You could hear the strain in my voice. "You said you wanted to talk so talk." I pleaded. She stayed quiet. "Please Roza, don't be upset, I just want what's best for you." I begged. I just wanted her to be happy. Why did this wonderful woman have to fall in love with me. There were so many other people that could do so much more for her.

Eventually Rose turned around. I gave her a light smile, I was glad to see her face. "It doesn't matter" she said angrily, "Just go to sleep Guardian Belikov." she told me turning back around. I frowned, she had called me Guardian Belikov. That really stung, she only ever used my formal name when she was really mad or she wanted to piss me off like that time at the ski lodge with Adrian.

"Roza..." I tried again this time reaching out to her shoulder. "I'm not mad…" she murmured quietly. "I'm just...I'm just disappointed right now is all..." she said dejectedly. Oh my Roza. All I ever wanted was to give her the best and it looks like I'm failing her at every road if she's disappointed. "Well what do you want me to do Roza?" I asked her feeling open to almost anything right now. I just wanted her to smile. This was supposed to be a happy vacation. It was supposed to take her mind off of Mason. Well I was doing a great job at that but I couldn't even manage to make her smile.

Rose stayed quiet while she was thinking. I hope she didn't want anything too crazy. I heard her take a deep breath, "Stop acting like my teacher." she demanded. I wanted to give in to her wants and needs. I wanted to so badly, but we really had to wait until graduation. Just being as close as we were, I couldn't stop remembering the lust charm, but it couldn't go that far again. Not yet. "Oh Roza you know I would love to be anything but... If you would just wait until graduation. Patience is a virtue."

Rose shook my hand off. I guess she was still mad. It was no consolation to me or her that the one thing we both wanted we couldn't have. I was itching to just be with her, it was testing me just by thinking about it. "Please Roza... Anything but that." I pleaded. My self control was getting shorter and shorter by the minute. I should have stopped this conversation when she said goodnight to me. Then we wouldn't be in this predicament. We would have just slept off our frustration and had an easy morning. I couldn't stop my hands when they started reaching for her hair, and I knew she loved it when I touched her hair. She told me that she loved it when I touched her anywhere. 'No Dimitri!' said the voice in the back of my head. 'That sounded so wrong, you can't think about her that way'. She stayed silent once more. "Roza..." I started again. "Please don't be upset with me Roza." I moved my hands through her beautiful silky hair that I loved so much. "I just want you to be happy" I muttered under my breath.

As my hand moved down her back I could feel her shaking. Was she crying? " I'm- not…" she tried to say before her voice cracked. "I promise..." She was definitely upset, it broke my heart. All I wanted to do now was pull her into my arms and kiss all the tears away. I made a decision, if we could be in the same bed we could control ourselves for a night. I just wanted to comfort her and nothing else, I reasoned to myself. I started moving the pillows away from between us.

"What are doing?" Rose asked. She must have felt the bed move when I did. I didn't say anything. I was scared I would mess up what I was trying to fix. After getting all the pillows out of the way, I moved closer and reached for her. I put my hands around her waist and wrapped her in my arms. There, this was comfortable, I lay there contently with Rose in my arms. I think she was in shock at first, then she started to try to push me away, "You don't have to hold me Dimitri...I know you don't really want to." she said in a cold voice.

I was hurt. Wasn't this what she wanted? It was definitely what I wanted. Rose fit so well against my body in my arms. It was like we were made for each other, her head fit in the crook of my neck so I could nuzzle my face into her lavender smelling hair. I tightened my grip a little, to prevent her from pushing me away. "But I want to..." I say reassuring her. I really did, and I wanted to do so much more. I wanted to kiss her tears away and then worship every inch of her body. After that Rose didn't say anything. She just snuggled closer into my lap. I hugged her tighter. If I could, I would never let her go. The only problem now was the growing twitch between my legs… I was a man after all.

Some time later, she turned around in my arms and there we lay staring at each other. Even red faced, puffy eyed, and tear stained she was still beautiful. I thought she looked like an angel. I broke the silence, "Roza..." I breathed, reaching out to touch her face. I stroked her cheek, I didn't know what else to do. "Oh Roza..." I sighed... "I wish...I..." I didn't know what to say, but I had a feeling that she knew what I meant. There was so much more I wanted to do to her but couldn't. Rose put her arms around my neck put her mouth to my ear. "Now tell me, what you would like me to do Dimitri?" The words came out in a seductive whisper almost like a prayer against my skin. I stared into her eyes again. Her lips were getting closer and closer. I should stop this... I can't…

A/N- Cliff hanger! Don't hate me! Read and Review please :D

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