Trying To Survive
Chapter 5
Bella POV
I started a fire and burned Victoria. I went back to the clearing to see another fire. The pieces of Laurent. We all finished up and went back to the house. Nobody said anything. I went and took a shower, to get all the venom, and dirt off me. After that I met everyone in the living room. I sat down on a chair.
"Marie. How do you know Victoria?" Carsile asked. "I have a confession to make." I said. They all stared at me, while I took a deep breath getting ready for their reactions. "I know everything about you guys. Everything. I know that you killed Victoria's mate. And she killed Edward's girlfriend." I said. They all looked shocked. "How do you know?" Esme asked. "Because I really am Bella." I said. Edward stood up and yelled, "Here we go again. You are not Bella. I want you out of this house now." I started sobbing.
"God damn it, Edward. You and your stupid temper. I remember when we first met. I was your singer. You had always avoided me. But soon you gave up. I figured out you were a vampire on my own. You could never read my mind. Me and You were madly in love. Until my 18th birthday. We had a party, I got a paper cut. Jasper took a snap at me, and you became distant. Soon you told me you were leaving. You. Damn it. You left me." I sobbed out.
Everyone was really shocked except Edward. "You must have heard it somewhere. Cause I know my Bella." He said. I was furious. "Oh you really know your Bella! Well watch this!" I yelled. And changed into myself, except I still kept hidden the gun shot, and the bite marks. They all gasped. "Bella!" Alice yelled. "Hi Alice." I said. "You're a vampire?" Emmett said. I just nodded. "Holey crap." He said. I giggled. Edward still looked like he didn't believe. Ugh.
I embraced everyone except Edward. "Bella. Tell us what happened after we left." Carsile said. I took a deep breath and began my story.
"After you left I didn't eat, sleep, go anywhere. I stayed in my room all the time. I started to become suicidal." I heard Esme gasp. "I tried everything. But couldn't bring myself to do it. Because if I died it would hurt Charlie, Renee, and Phil. But the one time I-" I stopped. I was about to tell them about the bullet in my shoulder but I decided to save that for afterward. "What are you hiding?" Jasper asked. "I will explain to you after." I said. They all nodded.
"2 weeks later I went for a walk. Victoria found me and changed me. I woke up alone. I found that my abilities are to change my appearance, I am immune to human blood, and I can take other vampire's powers by touching them." I paused again. I didn't want to explain the whole newborn army yet. Jasper looked like he was about to ask so I said, "I will explain after." He nodded.
"I decided to move to Canada. But I had always wondered if I was in human appearance if I jumped off a cliff if I would die. So I decided to come back to Forks. I changed my appearance, and got ready to jump when Edward found me. I knew I couldn't give you guys my real name because you never wanted me so I told you my name was Marie. But Victoria did murder my parents." I said. They looked so mad, and sad.
"Wait. So is the black eye green thing? Part of changing your appearance? Or what you really said?" Alice asked. I sighed. "Neither." I said, and continued, "For this appearance I chose green eyes. It just so happens I havent hunted for a while." "How long?" Carsile asked. "About.. 5 months now." I said quietly. All their eyes widened. "But didn't you go before?" Emmett asked. "I never intended on actually hunting. I just needed to get away. I found Victoria, and Laurent. And we talked and I ran. That was why I was so jumpy." I said. They all nodded.
"When were you going to tell us?" Rosalie asked. "I have been trying to tell you. I kept trying then not feeling confident enough to do it. You must understand. Then I told Edward, before and he blew up at me. Saying I was not Bella. That is why I was so depressed the next morning." I said. We all became silenced and in thought.
After a moment Jasper said, "So what are you hiding?" I sighed. I hoped he wouldn't remember. I stood up and paced while I told them one of my suicidal days. "Remember how I said I was suicidal?" I asked. They nodded. "Well I actually did something. And it is still a mark on my skin." I said. There eyes roamed all over my body. "One day, Charlie wasn't home. But his gun was." All eyes widened knowing what would come next. "I possibly stared at that gun for hours. Debating what to do. I ended up pulling the trigger. But it hit my shoulder." All eyes now landed on my shoulder. "I drove to the hospital. Told them I was attacked in Port Angelus and that one guy had a gun. No one questioned my story." I said.
"There is nothing there?" Emmett asked confused. "I know. I made them disappear by changing my appearance. Are you sure you want to see it?" I asked. "Yes." Each of them said quietly. I focused on making it reappear. They all gasped. The shot was still has horrible as it was 2 years ago. They were all sobbing. I really didn't want to tell them this story. I sat down on the chair, closed my eyes, and pinched the bridge of my nose. I had picked that trait up from Edward. "There is more. Isn't there?" Jasper asked. I nodded. "When you moved to Canada?" He asked. "Yes." I spoke. I got up and walked to the window. I just looked outside at the wilderness as I said, "I had only been in Canada a couple of days before I was attacked. By Victoria and her newborn army." I heard gasps, but continued, "Before that I had acquired a shield, controlling the elements, and more strength from vampires I ran into. But I was alone in this fight. Victoria sat down and watched as I fought off the newborns. They were well trained. I am lucky I got out alive. But Victoria got away and I was too weak to go after her." I said.
"Whoa. So you killed all the newborn's by yourself?" Emmett asked. "Yeah." I said. "Wow." Rosalie said. "Bella. You are hiding something else. Why were you weak?" Jasper asked. "Jasper. You have bite marks on your arms." I stated. He nodded. I slowly made my arm marks visible. "That's not it." I said, sobbing. "I revealed the one of my neck, which they all gasped at. If the vampire had gotten any further, they could have ripped my head off. They looked at my scars. I was scared to show them the rest. I let my shield down. "I can feel your emotions." Jasper said. "I just let my shield down." I stated. "Bella. You don't have to be nervous." He said. I put my shield back up. "Hey!" He said. "Sorry." I mumbled. "That's not all the bite marks is it?" Carsile asked. I shook my head. And let the rest of them show. They all gasped. I was shaking with dry sobs.