A/n: Didn't expect it did you?! Haah tricked you guys, you thought I was never gonna update again huh? Well guess what you were wrong! I won't hold you because I know you're excited like me so enjoy!
Shepard felt shots of worry strike her heart when she awoken to the familiar sound of a heart monitors beeping. Her vision cleared up once she blinked the fuzziness away, as she guessed, she was in a hospital room. Sudden relief washed over the blonde when she realized she hadn't just fallen asleep with Miranda in her arms in her hospital room as if something bad had happen to her.
But what was she doing here? What happened to her?
Shepard sat up only feeling a slight pain in her arm that the IV had been in. The only thing she could even think about was Miranda. Where she was and Was she okay. She also couldn't help but feel really relaxed at the same time, she had just gotten the best sleep she's had in a solid month, save for the moments she had slept with Miranda and even then with Shepard suddenly waking up or Miranda talking in her sleep and crying she still slept alright, Miranda would always apologize for how silly she was being for having to have Shepard calm her with kisses or singing to her till she feel asleep again. Of course, Shepard would always tease her about it but she secretly found her girlfriends "sleeping problems" adorable.
Girlfriend. Could she even call Miranda anymore? Shepard's heart sped up along with her heart monitors. Miranda broke up with her. Or so that's what Shepard remembered at least. She wondered if Miranda knew about her being in the hospital, then again did anyone know she was in the hospital?
There was a faint knock at the door, before Shepard could answer the door was already opened.
It was hannah, she had a look that was made of stone and it shook Shepard to the core. She looked as if she hadn't slept in days, it scared Shepard. Badly. If she hadn't slept in days that means Shepard has probably been passed out for a couple days or maybe even a week. Hannah walked closer and pulled up a seat next to shepard's bed, she didn't take her eyes off the blonde for a second not even uttering a word.
Shepard's eyes filled with tears, not because she was sad, mad or anything but just because she was so tired. Tired of always worrying, worrying all the fucking time. It had been the first emotion she had felt since she had woken up and that was the only emotion she had felt in a while. Anxiousness. Anxiety had taken it's toll and it showed, her hair became pale and lifeless and her eyes became milky and dead. She just needed a moment to breathe, looking back on everything that happen in her life, her dad, jack and the trial, dept. nought, MIRANDA, Miranda and her cancer and the possibility of her being pregnant and let's not even call it a possibility because the way Shepard saw it with her luck Miranda was probably pregnant with twins! Not to add her mom wanting her to move England and go to the fucking military! Shepard was on fucking death row for fucks sakes! And no one even knew all this! Except her, Miranda and Oriana.
Hannah reached up to wipe away the waterfall of tears but Shepard swatted her hand away.
"Let them fall. I'm fine. I need this." Shepard muttered.
Hannah shook her head, "Skylar you are not fine, you are never fine. Stop lying to yourself. You're so bull headed!"
"Mum, please don't raise your voice I und-"
"No you don't! That girl has got you going crazy!-"
"I'm not going crazy!" Shepard exclaimed.
Yes you are.
Hannahs face softened. Shepard ran a hand through her blonde locks, "I'm tired, okay?" Shepard shook her head, "Yes. I'm crazy mum, it's cheesy I know but I'm crazy in love-"
"Oh give me a break, Skylar. That girl is a bomb, she's killing herself and she's taking as many with her as possible." Hannah laid her hand on shepards, "And you're the one closes to it."
"No. She's the bomb and I'm a diffuser, I CHOOSE to be near her and be casualty. She didn't force me. I can save her even if it'll cost more than I can give." Shepard said.
Hannah sighed, "You're just like your father."
Shepard's eyes widened. "I am nothing like that-"
"Yes! Yes you are. Let me tell you what happen with your father." Hannah grabbed shepard's hand. "Your father loved you and I very much. So much that he'd go across the universe and back for the two of us, he told me that. I bet you tell Miranda that too…It was hard for him to provide for the two of us, but he still tried and everyday he would act as if he was fine, but I knew he wasn't. He told me that. I know you tell Miranda that too sweetie. I told him that I can't do it anymore it hurt me to see him in so much pain, we got into a big argument about how he was fine or if he wasn't and we had that same argument every night but that night it became too much for him and he snapped. Your father's heart was in the right place but his mind wasn't, he just needed a moment to breathe, he was tired. So tired Skylar."
Shepard bit her lip, "Obviously I need help, I am crazy. Just like papa."
"No Skylar, you just need to breathe. Calm down. Just trust that everything will be fine, because it will be." Hannah patted shepard's hand. "I worry about you, so does Miranda and Karin because we love you, not because we think you're crazy. Everything's fine with chemo Miranda will live for sure and you will win that case I promise you."
"You don't know the entire story mum, it's Miranda. We-we…we had erm…you know, sex and well-"
"You think she's pregnant." Hannah frowned, "And why I'm very disappointed and this does not help to the situation the way I see it Miranda only has to live eight months for her to have that baby and while she still must do chemo to live-"
"You're saying Miranda or the baby? Aren't you?" Shepard said getting slightly defensive.
"Yes. But-"
Shepard yanked her hand away, "As far as that goes even IF Miranda is pregnant it should be her call not mine yours or anyone elses."
Hannah furrowed her brows. "But that's your child! And Miranda might not even make it!"
The room got quiet. It was time to start to thinking realistically, even though shepard's mom just fed her some encouragement about how it'll all be fine Shepard was pretty sure she was just lying for the sake of shepard's health.
"I know." Shepard swallowed. "But I have faith, these have been the worst days of my life, so you know it has to get better. Let's just get off the subject."
Hannah nodded, even though she wanted to argue further she decided to give it a rest for her daughter's sake. "You've been out for a week…you can go home tomorrow if you feel like you're ready or if they don't find anything wrong."
Shepard huffed. "Good. I hate hospitals." She wanted to ask about Miranda so bad but she highly doubt her mother knew where she was. "…"
"Miranda's fine." Hannah smiled. "She's been here this entire time waiting on you to wake up." Hannah nodded her head over to the chair that sat close to her. "She's slept there all week." There was a little leather notebook that laid in the chair. "She uh…" hannah shook her head with a smile as shepard looked at her with curious eyes.
"She kept a diary from the time she got here and she did an entry for everyday you were out. She said that she would read it to you woke up." Hannah snorted. "Just like that movie…what's it called? Oh darn she just told me."
"The notebook." Shepard smirked happily. Shepard picked up the notebook, the smell of Miranda's perfume feeling her nose.
Entry one:
I was so worried. I was already at the hospital, talking to jack, I'll tell you why later, I heard one of the doctors say your name from outside jacks room, immediately I thought I was just going crazy when I heard it but something told me to look. I saw them rushing you down the hallway and my heart stopped, I automatically thought the worst had happened under the circumstances that we have really bad luck even though we're good together. I followed you but the wouldn't let me see you so I waited and waited and they finally let me see my angle, that's you of course. You looked terrible, you reached out toward me and said, "I love you Miri." I told you to shut up and rest for once in your bloody life, I love you too you idiot. And you fell back sleep with a smile on your face. After that I watched you sleep, wondering when you'd wake up. I'm sorry Sky I didn't mean what said I was just scared. I'm the idiot.
Shepard closed the book, unknowingly having a stupid grin on her face. "Where is she?"
"She's at Karin's getting some clothes for you to come home, that was about an hour ago though." Hannah said.
Shepard furrowed her brows, "Where's auntie then?"
"Getting some food."
Shepard nodded, "So what happen to me?"
Hannah frowned, "You began hyperventilating, lack of oxygen, coma."
The door opened, revealing the woman of the hour.
Miranda smiled with tears filling her eyes. "Skylar." She mouthed unable to talk. She dropped the duffle bag full of clothes and walked over to shepard's open arms.
"I'll give you two a few." Hannah said leaving. She closed the door behind her and the two began to talk.
"Skylar I'm-"
Shepard grabbed the back of Miranda's head and kissed her subtly, softly but tenderly. Taking in the smell of her lovers sent, trying to ignore the embarrassing fast beeping of the heat monitor, that made her cheeks burn red. She hoped Miranda would ignore it but she knew she didn't by the way she was giggling and smiling into the kiss.
She pulled away giving Shepard one more lingering kiss.
"I'm sorry." She whispered as she ran a hand in shepard's hair.
The blonde licked her lips unconsciously, craving more of Mirandas taste. She smiled her dimples showing more than ever. "I know… idiot."
Shepard waved the little leather notebook in her face.
Miranda gasped. "You weren't suppose to read it!"
"You didn't say not to." Shepard smirked. "Besides I only had time to read the first entry. You can read me the rest. Alright?"
Miranda pouted, but smiled unable to be sad under shepard's eyes. "Alright." She snatched the book. And reread it her smile fading with every word she read.
"What is it?" Shepard bit her lip.
Miranda pressed her lips together. "Just um…a sinking feeling. I uh…I'm going to read you entry two…"
Shepard nodded and brushed a strain of hair that hung precariously, behind Miranda's ear. She watched as her girlfriend flipped the pages as if she was skipping something.
"Ah here we go…" she said. She cleared her throat.
Entry two:
So when I tell you this, I want you to know that you shouldn't worry. I went to my doctor and they were going to give me a cat scan, they asked me was I pregnant and I said, "maybe." They laughed but I didn't, it was awkward as you could imagine. They gave me a pregnancy test and well it came back… positive. I'm uh…twelve weeks pregnant.
A/N: baby names? baby genders? I know I already ask but this is the real deal! I really like Wolff Greyson Shepard for a boy