Amy's POV
I lay in bed, pretending to sleep. As much as I wanted to sleep I couldn't, there were way too many things on my mind. I was furious, I was so mad! Ben! How could he sleep when he knew that I was in so much pain, he knew that his "wife" was having a baby! Then, when he finally gets to see me, he says that he needs to study for a biology test, at three in the morning! Who studies at 3 a.m? I turned back onto my back and stared at the ceiling.
"Is there something wrong?" He asked.
"Too many things." I said tears started forming in my eyes.
"Want to talk?" He asked still cuddling John.
"I do, but you'd laugh." I said.
"I can't laugh at you, or what you would say." He said.
"It's Ben." I started.
"Hold that thought." He said. He stood up and shut the door. He sat back down in the chair next to my bed.
"There, now we have some privacy." He said smiling.
"I just can't believe him. First of all, he's sleeping. Sleeping! He's sleeping for hours while I'm suffering in here. I'm supposed to be his 'wife' is I not that important to him? Am I not good enough to stay awake for? Look at you; you stayed awake the whole time knowing that our son was going to be born. It is Ben's stepson! Shouldn't he care? Obviously he doesn't." I said tears started to run down my cheeks.
"Then, once he finally wakes up, he comes in here kisses me and says that he needs to go 'study' for a test. Who studies at three in the morning? Who?!" I yelled, now the hot tears were running down my face fast. "I don't think he cares anymore. I'm not good enough for him. I just had a baby! And all he cares about is some stupid test? A test is more important than his wife and stepson?"
I pressed the nurse button for her to take John. He was falling asleep and I think Ricky was getting tired of holding him.
He took my hand. "Look Amy, you can't assume that he doesn't love you. Or that you're not important to him. He's a little… weird. Just give him time, maybe parenthood hasn't hit him yet. If it's really bothering you that much, maybe you're better off without a boyfriend. He stresses you out too much, and it'll just make being a mother harder." He said.
She started to stop crying, she looked up at me.
"Thank you Ricky, I guess I just needed to talk to someone." I said. I hugged her, he gave good hugs.
"Your mom, dad, and Ashley went home. I'll stay with you if you want. I won't leave unless you want me too." He said.
"Okay." I said and fell asleep.
I woke up to find that Ricky was looking at me. Kind of creepy, but comforting at the same time. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful day, yet I was stuck in my hospital room.
"Ricky you can go home, take a shower, get changed. Whatever you normally do, go home and do it. My mom will be here soon. I'll be fine, I promise." I said.
"Alright I'll be back in an hour. "He told me.
He left the room. I pressed the nurse button, so I could see my son.
"Morning Miss Jeurgens, I assume you'd like to see your son?" She asked.
"Yeah," I said quietly.
"Alright, but first the doctor would like to come in, and just ask a few questions." She said and left the room.
"Hello Amy." My doctor, doctor Hightower said when she entered the room.
"Hello." I said.
"How are we feeling today?" She asked.
"I'm good, just a little tired." I said.
"That's normal." She said.
After more questions she left and the nurse brought John in. I held him in my arms.
"If you need anything just press the button." The nurse said and left.
I looked into his eyes and smiled. I heard a knock at the door. I saw Ben holding a box of chocolates. He sat down in the seat where Ricky had been sitting this morning.
"I thought you were going to school." I said.
"Nope, I took the first half of the day off." He said smiling proudly.
"Why? It's not your baby." I said and he frowned. "Oh, I didn't mean for that to sound rude." I said.
"I wanted to spend time with you." He said kissing me,
"Here hold John." I said smiling as I held John out for him to take.
"No, it's alright." He said, I looked at John and then back to him. Why didn't he like John?
"Okay then…" I said.
Ben kept talking to me about something. I wasn't really paying attention. Ricky came into the doorway.
"Hey, I came as fast as I could…." He said. He looked at Ben.
"Hi, boy you were right, it's exactly an hour." I said smiling.
"Well I told you I would." He said.
Ben glared at Ricky. Gosh what was wrong with him?
"Hey Ben, don't you have biology first period?" I asked.
"Yeah why?" He asked.
"No reason, just wondering." I said. God he's a jerk! Avoiding me now! So he just used studying as an excuse.
Ricky looked at me and smiled. He then walked into the waiting room. He probably didn't want to be in a room with all of this stress and anger.
"He's so clingy…" Ben mumbled.
"What?" I asked.
"Nothing. I didn't say anything." He said.
"Yes you did Ben." I said angrily.
Then it hit me! Ben didn't like John because he was both the son of me and Ricky. He won't go near Ricky, he hates when Ricky's around and he didn't want to hold John because he's Ricky's son too.
"What do you have against Ricky?" I asked, it was a stupid question. I even knew the answer.
"What do you mean?" He asked.
"Don't try to hide it Ben, your secret is out." I said
"I don't like him Amy, its bad enough that you two have a son but now he's going to be around all the time." He said.
"Why won't you hold John? Why do you care if Ricky's around? If you really trusted me then you would realize that I don't like him." I said.
"I'm sorry but John is Ricky's son. I care because I'm afraid that he's going to trick you, he'll use you." He said. He didn't even look at John.
"So you're going to 'marry' me but you won't go near my son? You dated me while I was pregnant, and you knew then that Ricky was the baby's dad! Ben get out of here. Don't ever come back, we're done! I don't ever want to see your face again! We are sodone!" I screamed.
Ben glared at me and walked out of the room, I looked at John. How could anyone not like him, he's so adorable. I rocked him in my arms while I cried. I cried for many reason, for my son who was disliked because of his father, for me who broke up with a boy who lied to me while I was pregnant, and for Ricky who was secretly hated by his 'friend' Ben. This baby had a rough start; I will do anything to make sure that my son has the best and happiest life ever.
Author's Note: Hey everyone! Okay I know that it's only two chapters that i've posted, but before i go any further I'd like to hear what you think. Is this fanfic worth continuing? Would you like me to write a different fanfic? or should i keep writing this one? Thanks so much, i can't wait to hear what you guys think!
- Manda :)