Well, I'm back once more. I know, it has been more or less a month, but what can I say? Life got in the way. I'm moving cross country and it involves a lot of planning, traveling around and packing and sorting through stuff. However, I came back with some new inspiration and here is the new chapter.

And on a side note, I won't keep up with cannon happenings from here on. I'll try and include as much as possible, but the war and everything just will play out differently. I hope you don't mind too much.

The being said, here is the new chapter:

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TRIS POV

I breath in and out, in and out. This could be the best thing that have happened to me in a long time, or it could be completely pointless.

I take another deep breath and knock on the door. Two times, pause, another three times. It is some secret signal Tobias developed with his mother. I think it is a bit childish, but it is effective, so I won't judge.

The journey here has been an emotional roller-coaster ride. That night when Tobias told me of Evelyn's fate, I couldn't quite believe it. He never told me that his mother is alive! I freaked out, I have to admit that. But what was I supposed to do? The death of his mother was one of the sad but firm truths I believed in. And I couldn't understand why the hell she would leave her son alone with his sad excuse of a father.

I know it was stupid, but for the rest of the evening I had decided not to talk to Tobias again. I know, I know. I do regret it. He however, was very sweet about it and apologized over and over again. He even brought me to the train tracks the next morning. And helped me to hop on and gave me another hug.

I still haven't told him what's going on and his reason for sending me to his mother was purely to get me out of Abnegation. But I can't leave, as much as I'd like it, I can't. For one, there's Liz and there's no way in hell that I'll leave her alone. But also, I gathered some crucial information from Eric and I'm determined to find out what's going on.

If the Erudite really plan a war on Abnegation, I have to do something about it. I know that the government system may be corrupt, seeing as it's leader abuses his own children, but attacking and starting a war surely isn't the answer. I agree that reforms probably need to be made, but I have come to learn that violence never is the answer.

The idea of the papers that Erudite released actually sounded good to me. Discussions need to be stirred up and changes need to be made. Still, an Erudite ruled government won't be any better, I believe.

Well, it's ironic, isn't it? How I came from simply saving my sister's life to thinking about changing the whole government?

However, right now I have to talk to Evelyn. She commands over quite a force of factionless and if I want to gather any information, she is the one to ask for help.

I step into the room and see a woman sitting by a desk, going through some paperwork. She looks up at me and I immediately see the resemblance to my dear brother. Her face holds the same features and her posture is similar to `Four's´.

"Beatrice, come on in", she says in a voice that's carefully neutral and void of any information. I realize very fast that I won't get any comfort from this woman.

"Tobias told me that you are in quite a predicament, something about staying in Abnegation to save your sister?" She asks rather carelessly and fury comes over me in hot, burning waves. I have to grip my hands tightly and remind myself that it took weeks to arrange this meeting so that I would go unnoticed. I can't blow it up now in a matter of seconds. Calm down, Beatrice!

Still I can't believe this woman. How can she make it sound like I'm so naive for staying and protecting my sister?! Well, she wouldn't know, she did leave her son, right?

"And now you've come to regret it and ask me to help you change that?"

"No." I seethe through clenched teeth. "I don't regret it at all. I do what is necessary and that's not why I'm here."

"So?" She asks with raised eyebrows. "Then why are you here? So that we both can whine over our sad, sad fates over a cup of tea? Sorry, I can't give you that. No tea."

"I also don't want that. A few weeks ago, someone told me that the Erudite are planning an attack on Abnegation, whilst working together with Dauntless. Ever since then I tried to acquire more information. Still, not many new development have been made. People in Erudite usually don't really talk about it and I have to be subtle. No one can find out what I'm trying to do.

But I really need more information and then maybe I can get rid of Marcus while the rest of the faction doesn't have to be harmed."

"Ah, well that does sound interesting. But why come to me about it?"

"Well, all the information I can gather, I'm gathering during my appointments with Marcus's associates. Many won't tell me anything, since I'm just a slave to them and could go and tell my dear step father. I have gotten some friends of mine, who work as prostitutes, to help me. It's all a lot of fun for them and they have their ways of getting men to talk.

You, however have a force of many, many factionless. Together, we could form a network of informations, that would make us a force to be reckoned with. You know, most people have some dirty secrets, and most would do nearly anything so they don't come out."

„And what's telling me that there is an actual threat? You ask me to collaborate with you against a threat that I don't even know is real, since you can't show me any evidence, can you?"

„Well, if you work with me and get knowledge of everything that's going on in the offices of the faction officials, you'll get all the evidence you wish for. But for now, you'll just have to trust me. Me, as a girl that had the same fate as you, or me as the sister of your son."

Her cold eyes scrutinize me closely and she seems to come to the conclusion to trust me - for now.

„So you're planning on keeping this situation in check by blackmailing all the officials?" She gets back to the original theme.

"I did not think that you could come up with something brilliant like this. The factionless certainly have the numbers and whilst we're having a lot of contact with the factions, no one really ever notices us. Perfect spies." She muses. I keep quiet and wait until she has it figured out.

"And how do you propose we coordinate that?" She finally asks and gets all business. I feel relieved that she is willing to work with me. She isn't the most pleasant person and I have a faint feeling that she is going to abuse the network for her own good at times, but it's the best chance that I can get and I wouldn't be able to pull this off without her.

I tell her that usually, as part of keeping up the facade of a good Abnegation I do volunteer work in the factionless sector. There I can be found and we can trade information. Also, by now I live in my own house, since initiation is over. On the plea of Marcus, I was assigned a job as his personal assistant. It is a position that gives me access to a lot of information he has acquired so far. He trusts me completely, or rather thinks that I'd never work against him, since he has Liz as leverage. It indeed is a thin line I'm walking on.

On the other side, he has a lot of control over me and no one is going to ask questions when I'm going to visit other factions or spend a lot of time in his office…

My house is actually the one bordering on the factionless sector, so people could slip in and leave information.

I'm also thinking about initiating a factionless care center of sorts, which would be a central building in their sector where they would have access to clothing, food and even health care.

I would give myself a reason to be in their sector more often, but then again, I think that the other factions would probably have a problem with that- since it would make the factionless stronger as a community and maybe one day they could be seen as their own faction. That's not what they want. And anyway, right now I'm in no position to propose it.

We agree that both she and I would be the heads of this network and information would always be immediately given to each other. She coordinates the factionless, while I coordinate my little group of prostitutes.

This is the beginning of what we hope will make us a strong party that will give us the right to fight for what is worth fighting for - fairness, truthfulness, selflessness, bravery, friendliness and the pursuing of knowledge, instead of power. Those at least are my ideals and I really hope that they will win out in the end.

As I leave Evelyn's office and make my way back to my house in the Abnegation sector, I think about the irony of the whole situation.

In the end, it was Eric that gave me new determination and a new goal to work for. It was that very first and so far worst appointment, that sparked something in me.

Having sex with disgusting men is not even a little less worse than in the beginning. It still kills me on the inside and I know that if I could choose between taking Liz and I to Dauntless this very second or revolutionizing this city, I'd choose Dauntless without the bat of the eye. I'm not selfless like that.

I see and feel how I'm getting colder by the day. I have two lights shining inside me, two lights that keep me warm. They are for Liz and Tobias.

I see Liz now more often again, as she has to go by my house to get to school and back. Sometimes she comes in and we talk about everything. We both know what's happening but we never talk about it. And I'm so grateful for it.

In those moments alone with Liz, it's just the two of us and the rest of the world with all it's problems doesn't exist. I treasure those moments and these memories are a constant reminder, why it's good that I'm doing what I'm doing.

I also see my brother from time to time during my trips to Dauntless. I still refuse to tell him anything, but I have a feeling that he at least suspects something. When he first asked about my meeting with Evelyn, I tried to keep vague and evasive, but of course he noticed. He still tries to be there for me, but my stubbornness and my silence makes it hard. He thinks that I don't trust him any longer. In truth, I don't want him to get involved in this dangerous ridiculousness. However, I know that I should probably tell him the truth since protecting by keeping someone in the dark never actually works out. But I also feel ashamed and dirty. And somehow, for some odd reasons I myself don't quite understand, I want to stay as his innocent little sister to him.

Yet, those light get buried deeper inside me with every passing day, with every appointment I have. I still remember how in the beginning I had to build a facade behind which I'd hide my feelings in. Now, it's no longer necessary. The coldness is no longer a facade. It's the real me. My feelings are hidden end enclosed in a tiny space with two lights and surrounded by thick walls that keep them hidden and protected.

What do you think? Many stuff happened, I guess. Personally, I'm excited to write some factionless-network stuff. Reminds me a bit of Sherlock. :D

Any thoughts? Tell me!