Chapter 15

Jeff was laying on the floor covered in blood, a razor blade in his hand. He looked pale, almost like a ghost. Nick whipped his phone out of his pocket, and called an ambulance. After he finished that, he tried to stop the bleeding.

"If there is a God. Please, let them be okay. Take me instead. Do anything. Just don't take them."

"Why, Jeffy, why?" Nick whispered as he applied pressure to Jeff's cuts.

After the EMTs got there everything went by in a blur. Nick remembered getting in the back of the ambulance. He held Jeff's cold hand, as they worked trying to get enough blood back in Jeff's body for him and the baby. The next thing Nick remembered clearly was a nurse coming to tell him he could see Jeff after they got to the hospital. She also told him Blair would be okay. Apparently a little longer, and she wouldn't have made it.

So now Nick was sitting next to Jeff's bed waiting for him to wake up.

"Please, wake up Jeffy. I wanna see those beautiful eyes." Nick said.

"My eyes are nothing special." Jeff mumbled.

"Jeffy!" Nick, jumped up and hugged the boy, carefully.

"Where am I, Nicky?" Jeff asked, confused.

"I found you passed out in our room, Jeffy. You tried to kill yourself." Nick said, starting to cry again.

Jeff looked down as all the memories came back to him.

"Why, Jeffy?" Nick asked, quietly.

"I just can't take it Nick. Everybody leaves. I can't love someone knowing their going to be gone someday. I just can't get hurt like that again.", Jeff said crying.

"Jeff," Nick started, "knowing one day they'll be gone is what makes loving even more special. Every minute counts, and is beautiful. If you spend it with the people you love...it's perfect. You can't build walls to protect yourself from getting hurt, Jeffy, in the end it just hurts you. Braelynn wouldn't want you and Blair to join her just because you couldn't handle the hurt you were feeling. I know it hurts Jeffy, I know. But you can't keep it bottled up. Talk to me. I'm right here."

"I miss her so much." Jeff sobbed. Nick climbed up onto the bed next to Jeff, and held him. "It's all my fault. I got angry at Karofsky. I didn't protect her, Nicky. I'm her father, and I couldn't protect her."

Nick had started crying a while ago, but fresh tears started. "Jeffy, this is not your fault. You made a mistake, but Karofsky shouldn't have started it. Or he should've walked away. You did your best to protect her Jeffy. Sometimes you just can't protect the people you love. Remember when you were over at my house when we were six, and we were dancing on the couch, and my dad told us to stop?"

Jeff nodded. "I stopped, but you kept going, and you fell and broke your arm." he croaked.

"Right." Nick said, nodding. "He did his best to protect me, but in the end he couldn't. I know that example isn't the best, but it was the first one I thought of."

Jeff smiled, slightly. "I thought it was great."

"You can't blame yourself for everything, Jeff. Something's are just no one's fault."

Jeff yawned sleepily. "Thank-you, Nicky."

"Your welcome, baby." Nick said, placing a gentle kiss on Jeff's forehead. Jeff's eyes closed, and he snuggled into Nick's chest.

"Don't ever leave me, Nicky.", Jeff mumbled half-asleep.

Nick smiled down at his sleepy boyfriend. "Not until I have to, Jeffy."

"I love you, Nicky.", Jeff said.

"I love you too, Jeffy. More than anything." Nick said, and they both went to sleep.