Silence ,

Silence was all that filled the large apartment for what felt like forever to shizuo. The only sound that could be heard was izaya's soft sobbing.

The ex bartender didn't know what to do other than hold the informant and rub soothing circles into his thin frame and stroke his else could he do? He'd never seen izaya cry or show any emotion before now for that matter. To all the sudden see him show so much shizuo was at a loss for words.

All he knew was that he loved izaya and now that he has him he'll never loose him . No matter what happend he wanted to be there for everything even these heart wrenching moments like now.

He planned to do just that no matter what happend the cost. Izaya was going to be his. He had to be with him, had to hold him , had to make him smile and take his worries away

IZAYA's POV

izaya Layed on the blondes lap sobbing and trying to comprehend he had gotten here in the first place .

1: that pointless chase and then kissing shizuo

2: finding shizuo at that restraint and giving him a blow job instead of walking out at that moment

3: denying the emo had for shizuo since they met in high school 9years ago and letting it build up to this

" what am I supposed to do now?" I said aloud without realizing it at the time.

" stay with me, side by side forever izaya" shizuo said softly into izaya's ear startling the raven.

" Shizuo-chan things aren't that simple have you even thought this through? The change that would bring, the dangers we would constantly be in because of our relationship ? Think about it the two most powerful people in Tokyo, dating. " izaya said sitting up and turning his crimson gaze to the honey eyes in front of him.

" I don't care about Anything besides being with you. I love you and I want to be with you. Anyone who has a problem with that can go crawl godzillas ass. " shizuo said beginning to smiles as he took the smaller males hands into his own.

"Godzillas ass, Shizu-chan seriously? Well anyways if your this persistent about dating then sure we can give it a try but this better not be some sly trick to kill me or I'll hunt down your family like animals staring with you. " Izaya said flatly as he stared at the bodyguard, noticing his eye twitch at the mention of his family.

Shizuo leaned in ignoring that family remark and tilted izaya's chin upward and kisses him softly . moments passed before Izaya made any attempt to respond.

They kissed softly until Shizuo pulled Izaya onto his lap and lick the others bottom lip asking for permission to the that enveloping warmth that was izaya's mouth. Being granted entrance Shizuo plunged his tongue in and quickly began playing and fighting for dominance in the others mouth. A battle with he won quickly and proceeded to explore every corner of his mouth. Forcing Izaya to moan into the kiss and wrap his arms around shizuo's neck, pulling him closer.

Shizuo then slipped his hands under izaya's black v neck and felt the smooth skin underneath. Then he proceeded to remove his shirt completely and Layed him back onto the long couch. Then removed his own shirt and leaned down to suck at the soft milky flesh of izaya's neck. Which made izaya moan loudly and lean his head back giving his blonde lover more access.

Right at that moment there was a loud knock on the door, signaling that someone was about to die for interrupting. Izaya slammed his head into the sofa then moved to push shizuo off of him.

Shizuo reluctantly moved and placed another soft kiss on the others lips before grabbing his shirt and vest and bolting upstairs.

Izaya went and got the door to find shinra standing there with a rather worried look on his face. " hello Izaya I just came over because I was worried about you. You haven't returned any of my calls and I began to think you were in Trouble. " as he finished he walked into the apartment and sat down. "So are you alright? I've heard nobody had seen you in two weeks and your looking rather pale. Have you spent all that time cooped up here? At least tell me you've been eating properly. Izaya we can't have a repeat of what happened last time, I was barely about to stop your body from shutting down completely. " the small underground doctor said as he looked at the raven seriously.

Izaya wanted to kill him. He really didn't need this right now and then shinra's eyes seemed to notice something because they went slightly larger than usual.

"Izaya is that a hicki?" At that moment izaya slightly had a stroke on the inside.

authors note : I'm so sorry it took so long. It hasn't been very good for me right now my life is slowly dalling apart but ill try to update faster I promise guys please lol low and review