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Chapter 6

Host Club POV

The host club was all gathered on the top floor talking about how to go through how they were supposed to handle Haruhi. They were worried but there was no smashing or loud music or dead silence for that matter. There was clattering of dishes. They all walked down stairs to see the table set, Ranka bringing a box up from the basement and Haruhi flipping pancakes like a pro chef. It was shocking what was going on. Neither Ranka nor Haruhi noticed the host clubs sudden appearance. Ranka shuffled through the both "Haruhi what time does the grave yard close?" "I believe around 10pm." He nodded.

Grave yard? The whole host club thought, what about a grave yard? Haruhi finished this huge stack of pancakes. Mori walked towards Ranka "need help?" He nodded "thank you Takashi! Yes I would love some help I'm collecting some things for today's event." Everyone looked at each other pondering what exactly was going on. "What's going on today?" the twins asked in unison. Haruhi turned to look at them all, she didn't look as sad as yesterday. But something was clearly weighing her down. They looked at Kyouya who they expected to know he shook his head no.

"Todays the anniversary of my mother's death." Everyone froze her mom's death? Ranka shook his head "Kotoko, 13 years gone." Tamaki had never known anyone who had died, Kyouya just remained silent wondering what to say, Kaoru felt terrible, Hikaru felt like crying for her, Honey was actually crying for her. Mori was the only one who did something. He nicely patted her shoulder not so sure himself what to do. Haruhi forced and a smile and it was noticeable.

They watched as Haruhi walked down stairs to do something. Kyouya decided they needed more information "just how close was Haruhi to her mother?" Ranka thought about this then came up with an answer "As close as Hikaru and Kaoru are… it just wasn't right a girl without her mother. Imagine one of the twins without the other." Hikaru thought about it, A life without his twin, his knees got weak, he wouldn't be able to do it, he wouldn't be able to get out of bed or move or love anybody ever again, he would never open up he would be frozen forever. He would die of heart break it wasn't possible.

Though Kaoru was the more independent twin and could last not being with his brother for short periods of time his life without his twin wouldn't be a life at all. Who would he confide in, who would be there and know he was having a nightmare before he even woke up. Hikaru was the more outgoing one he was louder. Kaoru without his twin would just sit with his brothers T-shirt and just not move from his bed. Remembering his brother's scent, he would never get over it the thought wasn't right neither of them had thought about it before. And thinking about it scared the crap out of them.

The twins looked each other with mutual understanding they wouldn't move on they would die from heart break. They suddenly admired Haruhi all more now she managed to work her way out of bed every day and live one when they could have never done that. Ranka smiled down at the picture he was holding "took weeks before Haruhi could eat again… She lost a lot of weight in that time period. At this time of year Haruhi may as well not be Haruhi she's someone I don't recognize. Someone I wish I didn't have to see. You will come to the grave right?"

"Yes of course, we must pay our respects to her mother." Tamaki answered. Haruhi came back upstairs, she had makeup on, a black dress, and her hair was pinned up. Clearly they were getting ready to go to her mother's grave. They couldn't believe that's what Haruhi was wearing though. She never wore stuff like that… but it was a special occasion. She sat down at the table and took pancakes "are you guys going to eat I made some for you too." She didn't look up; she kept her head down eating her pancakes. She drowned them in syrup then whip cream then blue berries on top.

No one had ever seen someone put such a thing on pancakes but it looked good. They sat down honey added pancakes to his syrup and whip cream since he had so much of it there was barley pancake. Everyone else did the same as Haruhi except for Kyouya who was writing something in his little black book. It was awkward in tell Ranka burst out "Haru~hi!" "Yes dad?" He hugged her from behind his arms snug around her shoulders since the chair was in his way.

Everyone averted their eyes to the 2 family members. "Your just like your mother you know that." Haruhi's cheeks heated up and she stared down at her food with a shy smile. The host club was shocked no one had ever made Haruhi do that. So she liked being compared to her mother hmm.

"Thanks dad but I used to be not anymore." "Please your just like her, strong willed, determination from hell, smart, very pretty, blunt very blunt, you handle me well I don't know how you and your mother do and did it but, your just like her. YOU WERE BOTH IN WEIRD CLUBS ACTING AND DRESSING LIKE MEN AND I DRESS LIKE A WOMAN!" Haruhi burst out laughing her laughter like bells. "The… zuka club… and…. Host club HAHA!" she said between breaths laughing. It was actually funny to think about.

Seeing Haruhi smiling and laughing lifted a weight off of every ones chest. But they knew it wouldn't help her for long. But she seemed to have opened up a bit more. "Haruhi I have another business trip to attend to my plane comes at 1am okay?" Haruhi nodded "sure dad… How long this time?" "A week maybe longer." "Okay," Haruhi looked kind of sad but then she snapped back into a stone face.

She stood up "get changed were leaving soon." She said towards everyone but herself. They followed orders as if she was drill Sargent. The host club broke up into their separate rooms.

Hikaru sat down and stared at the floor he didn't know how to support her it had only ever been him and his brother in his world. He was still selfish but he had matured some. But not enough to support the girl the only girl he cared about. Kaoru took his hand "Hikaru, I don't really know what to do either but who does. No one knows what to do in this situation right?" Hikaru nodded and sighed "we should get ready people will get the wrong idea." Kaoru laughed "as if they don't already,"

Tamaki buttoned the last button on his shirt "Kyouya!" he called. Kyouya came back into the room "mhm?" "What are we do Kyouya she looks so sad." "It's the day of her mother's death Tamaki when can we do?" "If you and I can't think of anything I don't think anyone can." Kyouya nodded "all we can do is be there." Tamaki nodded.

Honey finished putting his other cloths in his suit case. Mori lay on his bed he was already done dressing. "Haru-Chan is a ticking time bomb isn't she Takashi?" Mori nodded it was true she wasn't going to be able to hold her emotions much longer. Mori stood and swung Honey onto his shoulders "let's go."

When they all gathered downstairs Ranka and Haruhi were arranging a few flowers. "I called a car to bring us to the grave." Kyouya stated. Ranka smiled "thank you Kyouya." Haruhi flashed her host club smile trying to act normal "that was nice of you thanks." Everyone saw past the smile. She faking a lot lately but she was doing it well but they knew her enough to see she was lying to everyone and herself.

There was a beep outside and a huge limo was outside waiting. Haruhi plugged in her phone to the speakers and began playing Lullaby by Nickel Back. The host club was automatically in the music as soon as it began to play. The lyrics made them worry and look at each other than Haruhi whose hair was blowing in the wind due to her window being opened and her mouthing the words.

Everyone understood the song but why would she listen to it was she struggling that badly. She seemed so strong, there had to be something she was holding back during host club days because one doesn't just randomly have depression something triggers. Just as the car stopped Haruhi was out the door. Ranka shook his head "my goodness that girl." Everyone got out of the car and Ranka called "Haruhi I've never seen someone so eager to get to a grave." "Me either." Said a voice down the path.

The host club and Haruhi froze they knew that voice. Harley stopped down in front of everyone placing his hands in his pockets. Haruhi smiled "Harley," "Haruhi." Just like the time they met on the way to the beach they only said each other's name and stared at each other. But this time Haruhi spoke first "Why are you here?" Harley stated "short cut." Haruhi crossed her arms "are you going to tell me the truth now?" Harley smiled evilly "I'm serious just a short cut." Ranka cut in "who are you?" "I'm Haruhi's friend from school,"

Ranka smiled "Haruhi! You never told daddy that!" "Yeah well." "You have such good looking friends and there all boys!" Haruhi shook her head "dear Jesus." Harley smiled and put up the hood to his sweater "Well I'll be leaving Bye now." He walked past the Host Club "Host club." and began to jog down the path. Everyone watched as Haruhi picked a piece of folded piece of paper and stuck it in her pocket.

They got to Kotoko's grave (which had been transported when they moved if you were wondering). Haruhi and Ranka arranged the flowers on her grave, Haruhi smiled "Hey mom, it's been awhile but I brought my friends with me… Dads here, we bought you your favorite flowers. It's been 13 years mom but it still feels like it was yesterday." Haruhi still had the stone face going. But she was noticeably sad. "I wore a dress mom, it's been awhile." Ranka stepped up "Kotoko, We came to visit we miss you. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think of you." Tamaki stepped up "Mrs. Fujioka we came to pay our respects."

Hours later

10pm

Hours had gone by without a hitch and now it was time for the videos and pictures which were both displayed across the TV. Videos of little Haruhi and her mother the bond was visible. Haruhi was a tiny baby explained why she was so tiny now. She was born with hair and by the time she was 3 had a full head of long brown hair. She was adorable.

The host club and Ranka were stressing how cute Haruhi was, when Haruhi's gaze was locked on the woman she took after. Ranka sighed "please don't be mad about this Haruhi" Ranka said putting in a DVD. Haruhi stared at him mad "what?" "It's a video your mother told me to let you watched it when you were 18 and here you are." Haruhi looked fuming mad but nodded.

Than the screen flicked to Kotoko sitting in her hospital bed. Haruhi sat at a chair closer to the TV. Kotoko started to talk "Hey baby it's your mom as you know… at least I hope you know. Haruhi I made this because unlike you we know I'm going to die. Your 18 now Haruhi you're going into college. Hopefully have a boyfriend" "NO!" yelled Ranka behind the camera and in real life. "Just so you know if he's rude or dares to lay a hand on you or something I will haunt him for dear life. If he does anything either tell your father or you can tell my brother Leo he will skin him." Haruhi giggled.

The rest of the host club was amused this woman was awesome. "You are 6 now you're very smart, you are very pretty, stubborn god you're stubborn like a donkey." "DON'T REFER TO HER LIKE THAT!" Ranka yelled in the background. Kotoko rolled her eyes "good luck with this one." "HEY!" Ranka screamed. Kotoko laughed "he's a big baby who's loud but I'm guessing you figured that out. And Ranka in the future I
really hope you didn't lace the hell out of her wardrobe. I'm so sorry Haruhi, I really am. It's not fair to you.

"No child should grow up motherless especially a little girl, a motherless child that's how I'm leaving you and I'm so sorry. I remember the day you were born, you weren't crying when you were born. You were awake and alert, your father and I were worried. But 10 minutes later you were crying. That night you cried so much your father was panicking but it meant you were strong. And know I see that you are. That night when you fell asleep I made a whole bunch of promises to you Haruhi."

The Kotoko started to cry and she looked down "I'm not going to be able to keep those promises Haruhi." She said her voice shaky and she wiped tears from her face "I will never be able to Haruhi and I'm so sorry." Then another voice came out "no don't cry," everyone looked at Haruhi in her chair. She had tears trailing down her face and she looked helplessly at her father "I've never seen her cry dad." Ranka looked at her sadly "you are the only person she's ever cried for. The day you were born she cried of happiness."

Kotoko looked up at the screen "But the one promise I can keep is that I will love you forever. Even after I die I will love you more than my own life. Alright babe? Well there my video. Haruhi I'm sorry… I'm so sorry. I've left you alone and you know what there's not an excuse. But I love you." The screen flicked off.

Haruhi pulled her knees up to her chin and folded her arms over them. She let her head fall and let out a cry that I had been brewing for a long time. No one had ever seen her cry so loud so hard. But nobody dared to move. Hikaru had his faced buried in his hands, Kaoru had his arm thrown around his brother and his head on his brothers shoulder. Tamaki had his hand over his mouth he had his mother and everyone felt bad for him. Kyouya had a scowl but you couldn't see his eyes past his glasses. Honey hand silent tears fell down his cheeks. Mori had a worried look on his face.

Ranka collected Haruhi in his arms. "It's not fair!" Haruhi cried "I know, I know." Ranka replied to the broken girl in his arms. He rocked her in his arms tell the crying stopped and she fell asleep. The crying wore her out.

He laid her down in her bed and tucked her in, her mother's picture on her bed stand. The rest of the host club and him went upstairs. "Well we are going to retire for the night." Said Kyouya while stretching his arms. "Wait Mori!" Ranka yelled. Mori stopped and walked towards the man while everyone else went upstairs. Ranka took a breath "Haruhi isn't in a good state right now and her judgement tends to be clouded, I'm leaving my daughter in your hands which means I trust you allot." Mori was shocked but didn't show it.

"Her phone has a tracker don't use it in less you really need to because she will figure it out." Her phone has a tracker really? Mori thought, first he followed her everywhere now he had a tracker on her phone? Well it wasn't a terrible idea. Ranka handed him the little device "can I trust you Mori?" "yes." He answered plainly. Ranka smiled and nodded "thank you, you can go now." Mori took the little device and went upstairs to retire for the night.

The winner to who gets to be with Haruhi is... MORI

The stats are

Tamaki:3

Kyouya:6

Hikaru:11

Kaoru:16

Honey:3

Mori:17