Chapter Seven: First Confrontation

Meredith instantly did a hundred and eighty degree turn in the corridor and began to walk away but that didn't stop Derek from walking up behind her, placing a hand on her upper right arm and directing her to the left into an empty patient's room.

The instant they were inside, Derek shut the door and removed his hand off her before quickly pulled all of the blinds shut to give them some privacy.

Derek turned around and faced her. Instantly Meredith backed away a few steps when his deep blue eyes stared at her, full of pain and uncertainty.

"Why Meredith?" was all he said but his voice sounded so lost and miserable that Meredith couldn't believe it. "Why do you have to go through with the transfer? Or even feel the need to have applied for it in the first place?"

She felt her heart begin to slowly beat faster as he stepped toward her.

"Dr Shepherd…"

His face flinched at her using his professional name but still he slowly stepped closer to her.

"C'mon Meredith, it's Derek…"

She blinked at him and continued as if he had not spoken.

"Dr Shepherd it is none of your concern that I'm transferring to…"

Meredith tried to continue her sentence but Derek suddenly stepped towards her and stood directly in front of her.

Looking her directly in the eyes, his face was one of absolute anger and Meredith tried to take a step back away from him again, slightly fearful at his sudden change in moods.

But before she could even move Derek quickly placed each hand on both of her arms and gently pulled her closer to him.

"It is all of my concern Meredith." He said seriously, looking into her green eyes with his 'McDreamy' look.

"Dr Shepherd. You are not my boyfriend anymore so please take your hands off me." she asked, keeping her tone flat to try and remain expressionless.

But it wasn't working. He would not let go.

The feel of his hands on her skin made her pulse race and the close proximity was making words become increasingly difficult to form.

All she could see was his blue eyes, his face, and his lips and start to become overwhelmed by the smell of him. The aroma of aftershave, disinfectant and the musky manly smell that only he had.

As she looked up at him and he looked back at her, Meredith felt her iron-will against him slowly begin to form cracks.

She was at a loss what to do.

Derek looked deeply into her eyes and he saw what he had suspected.

She did not want to go.

He was the reason she was going.

But she just would not tell him that.

"Meredith why do you have to go?" he asked, his grip on her arms softening even further. "Why can't you just stay here?"

Meredith felt the tears begin in her eyes as she felt his arms begin to move up her arms, up her shoulders, caressing her neck until they were on her jaw and…

NO!

Placing both hands on his chest, Meredith suddenly pushed him away and stepped back.

She looked at him with anger on her face while he looked back at her with surprise and hurt.

"Why do you do this?" she asked quietly, her voice full of anger and sadness. "Why did you have to come and find me even when the Chief had told you to stay away?"

Derek took a step forward, opening his mouth to talk and lifting his hand up in the air to place on her arm when suddenly the door opened and Addison walked in.

Derek's hand flew back to his side and he looked at Addison in surprise.

"Hello Derek."

"Addison." He said quickly.

"Would you mind leaving my intern alone?" Addison asked warningly, her voice clearly telling him to back off.

Derek, knowing that now was not a good time to talk to Meredith, nodded before glancing at Meredith one final time and walking straight out of the room.

Meredith did not look as he left but she felt his eyes on her. She listened to his familiar footsteps leave and the door shut with a loud 'bang'.

"Grey, you ok?"

She could not turn to look at Addison for fear of what she might see, but Addison already knew that.

"Meredith?"

Addison watched Meredith slowly turn to her and when she saw the tears in Meredith's eyes, Addison felt her heart weigh heavy.

Derek was obviously not over Meredith, but Addison knew that Meredith could not see that. Even though he had wanted to work at his marriage, Addison knew deep down that Derek's relationship with Meredith had not been a mere fling to get back at her.

Every time she saw Derek look at Meredith she saw love in his eyes and she knew how he felt.

That's how it had been with her and Mark…

Derek did not know that. And did not need to.

But this was not about her and Mark, this was about Derek and Meredith and now Meredith was standing in front of her trying her best to remain composed in front of her but Addison could see her having difficulty.

Meredith was at a loss how to feel.

"You ok?" Addison asked again.

Meredith gave a small sniff and wiped her eyes quickly before plastering a small fake smile on her face.

"Yeah…um…just give me a minute and I'll be ok." She replied, still wiping her eyes and trying her best to pull together her emotions.

Addison nodded with a sad smile and said, "Ok. Take your time Grey. I'll see you out in the hall."

Meredith nodded gratefully and Addison left her alone in the room by walking out of the door and closing it behind her.

She knew it had been going to happen sooner or later. It had been foolish to think that maybe she would have been able to successfully avoid him.

Karma had seen to that.

She had tried to be sneaky and avoid him and it had come back and bit her in the ass.

Karma was a bitch.

Or maybe it was fate.

Either way, Meredith knew she was officially in trouble with Derek because she knew he was going to try and talk to her again.

She knew that her confrontation with him was just the beginning and that she was going to have to be careful the next two weeks.

She knew he had more to say to her and Meredith could only hope with her whole being and soul that whatever he was going to say to her was that he wasn't going to try and make her regret her decision and change her mind. Meredith didn't know if she had the will power to withstand him if he tried enough to do it.

All she could though was try and be strong no matter what happened next.

Meredith sighed deeply before putting on her 'happy face' before opening the door and walking out into the corridor.

Addison, true to her word, was waiting for her and Meredith immediately showed her Sarah Pebbling's ultrasound.

After a quick study, Addison did indeed confirm that it was clear of complications and that she would go and tell Sarah and that she could be discharged.

As Addison started to walk down the corridor, Meredith immediately started to follow but after taking just a few steps she suddenly experienced a chill down her spine.

She sensed that she was being watched.

Quickly turning around, within seconds her eyes locked with a set of bright blue eyes right at the end of the corridor.

He was standing there, his arms crossed and his white coat on. His hair was slightly askew today, the obvious result of running his hands through his hair so often since the morning.

Derek looked at her with such intensity that Meredith felt her heart speed up again and melt under his eyes. Warmth spread through her entire body and she found it slightly difficult to breathe.

He had only looked at her like that a few times and that had only been when she had caught him looking at her when they had been together. Those few times she had caught him looking at her like that, it had always resulted in her asking him 'What?' and him just coming over, swooping her up in his arms and carrying her up to her bedroom where their sex had been so intense she felt like she could happily drown in him and never leave the bed.

It had been when she had first seen him looking at her like that had she realised that she was in love with him.

And now that same look was directed at her again and Meredith could barely stand it.

As she looked back at him, Derek could see the love so clearly in her eyes it hurt him but he needed to know something and he spoke to her silently in that look.

'Can we talk about it?' it said, 'I need to know why.'

He knew she got the message when she blinked several times quickly at him.

All he had to wait for was to see if she would reply.

He nodded slightly at her and he waited, hoping against hope that she would nod back.

Meredith sighed deeply and she knew, she knew that if she didn't nod back he would hunt her until he got the whole story out of her. He knew he was the reason and she knew that he needed to hear it from her, from the horse's mouth to be precise.

What was the worst that could happen?

Sighing deeply, she nodded slowly back at him in reply.

Turning away, Meredith watched him walk away and immediately she felt her heart begin to beat again.

Soon.

That had been his message in that look and Meredith had answered with a simple nod.

Single handedly she had sentenced herself to now living in fear at knowing what she had done.

He was now expecting her to talk to him and explain herself to him.

Oh god, what have I done?!

A part of her strongly revolted against her agreement and to go back on her word but her heart shut down that part of herself. Her heart knew that if she did explain then at least, at least he would know and there would be no loose ties.

This conversation that was to come was going to be their last and Meredith knew that she was never going to talk to him again after that.

All she had to see was if she was strong enough to let her love for him allow her to walk away from him forever.

A/N: Hey guys. Sorry I'm behind in answering reviews (That'll be fixed in next chapter). This confrontation is much smaller than I first wrote it but I've saved that material for a later chapter rubs hands gleefully . Thanks.

DeniseSB: The Chief knows all.

Malu Snape Rickman: Hey again Malu Snape Rickman. That is so cool you're a second year med student! I have a good friend who is doing 2nd year med too and he loves it. I hope all goes well for the year and I hope you'll become a great Nazi…er I mean a doctor…someday XD lol. Well McDreamy is in the next chapter so I hope that will alleviate the McDreamy craving. But I must admit that I had to put him in the next chapter because I was craving him too. Lol. Oh yes, there will be pain. :)

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Liz86000: I'm gonna need rewrite some chapters because I was stupid and misunderstood what Addison would really be like. And yes we do know it won't save their marriage by Meredith leaving. Lol. I actually didn't get to see morphine Meredith so I will have to check that out when I get series 3.

MissRe: Meredith will always be a threat to Addison no matter what really and no it's not wrong. I need to rewrite some chapters because I looked past the fact that Addison would definitely see her as a threat. Glad you liked Bailey though.

sweetgreuy: hey, thanks for reviewing EVERY single chapter! And they were very interesting to read. :) Yeah he's losing her and yes he is going to mope, just like he did all series two. But I'm gonna add a chase to it. Hehehe. But trouble is going to come. I hope you continue reading it and I hope that you continue liking it. Thanks again:D

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