Chapter 12

Haruhi's POV

Haruhi…Haruhi…HARUHI "HARUHI!" I stirred and groaned "waat?" I opened one eye to see the blurry host club in front of me. I reached on my night stand for my back up glasses. They weren't the same as my old ones. They were now girl styled. I groaned "What do you want?" Honey smiled "Its 11am Haru-Chan!" My eyes shot open "What?" I looked up and looked through the window above my bed. Sure enough grey out and rainy. I always woke up late on days like today.

I looked on my bedside table and rummaged through one of my drawers. I pulled out a pill bottle and popped out 2 pills. Kyouya grabbed the bottle "Anti-Depressants?" He questioned. I took a big gulp of water along with my pills "Yeah 2 a day." I sat up out of bed.

It set in, it was raining. I took a deep breath I was going to be fine. I got out of bed and stretched "Why did you guys wake me up?" I yawned. Hikaru and Kaoru smirked "We don't know how to use the oven to make break feast." I glowered "Can't you order it I'm so tired. It was a long day for me yesterday." Tamaki clung onto me "My poor daughter!" I shrugged him off "Fine… Fine I'll make break feast." I was annoyed. These damn people couldn't at least order food they had to wake me up especially on a rainy day.

I trudged up the stairs and into the kitchen. I was drowsy I stumbled around the kitchen "Want fruit salad?" I asked. They nodded I sighed and began cutting fruit. Mori came beside me "Can I help?" He asked. I nodded "Please." I handed him some apples "Cut them up into small pieces please." He nodded. I looked up at him, my heart fluttered a bit. He was very handsome and really nice. Mori was like a protector to me. Though little did they know I was the one protecting them.

I started dicing them. I could see from the corner of my eye Mori watching me. I was trying not to blush. Which I found very strange for me, I had a crush on him at Ouran, and I guess I kind still have. I put all the fruits into a bowl and sprinkled sugar on them. I started the coffee maker. Days like today were usually inside days. But I didn't have many movies.

I placed the fruit salad on the table and coffee along with sugar and milk. I stared at the rain pelting down on my window with a cup of coffee in my hands. My mind was elsewhere. All I could think of was 3 ½ months from now.

In a month and a half they host club would return to Japan. 2 months after I would break all contact disappear once again. I would do it to keep them safe this time. The Gang that had picked me were more dangerous than The Shadow Gang. They were lethal the real thing. They would have no problem killing my friends especially since they didn't have such an influence and they would do it in such a way that we wouldn't be able to know nor stop it.

I accepted this, but I didn't know if they would. Would they hate me forever? Would they go after the gang? Would they ever know what happened? Or think about me again? Would they come back just to find me gone? I looked over at them and decided to memorize this moment forever.

Tamaki exclaiming to Kyouya about something who was shaking his head writing in his book acting like the shadow king. But if you looked hard enough you could see the satisfied smirk on his face even he was happy at this very moment. Honey was adding fruit to his sugar; Mori was observing the whole room silently making sure nothing was to harm anyone. The twins were pressed together eating fruit talking about something. I smiled, almost all the people I cared about were in this room. Besides my father he wasn't here.

I let out a breath and turned to face the rest of the host club "Do you want to rent movies?" They all turned. Honey jumped up "YEAH, YEAH!" Hikaru and Kaoru gave me thumbs up "Sounds good" They agreed. Tamaki smiled "YAAAY MOVIES WITH MY BELOVED DAUGHTER!" Dear Jesus I would not be sitting beside him. I looked through the fridge "I'm going to run to the grocery store… You guys are going to stay here I will be right back. Alright?" I asked.

Kyouya nodded "That won't be problem rainy wealth doesn't appeal to me in the slightest… I'm assuming no one's going to try to escape with me here." I cracked my knuckles "Thank you Kyouya… I best to be getting ready." I put on some skinny jeans and a big baggy grey sweater. I changed my glasses over to my contacts. I was going to put on some makeup but then I remembered it was raining and my makeup would run. I tied my hair into 3 braids and then braided the braids. I discovered this a while ago when I was bored it looks freaking awesome.

I grabbed my phone and headed up the stairs. Everyone was indulged in some sort of conversation. I climbed onto the counter dad hid money on the top shelf in the crack between the self and wall. I reached there and grabbed 120$. Then I lost my balance I started teetering back and forth. You think my training would come in handy or common sense would save my ass. Nope. I gave out a small cry as I began to fall back. I was waiting for the impact of the floor but it never came. But you want to know what saved my ass. Mori did. Mori caught me before I made impact with the ground.

Relief flooded through me, "You should be careful that was dangerous." Mori said. I looked up "yeah thanks… dad thinks that's the best place to….hide…money." I got caught up in concerned look on Mori's face as he looked down at me. My heart sped up with me realizing I was still in his arms. We sat there for a moment staring at each other. "HARUHI!" and the moment broke. Damn Tamaki.

I stood up and fixed my appearance. Then someone touched my braid. I flinched only to see Kaoru holding my braid staring at it. He scared the crap out of me. He inspected my braid "This is amazing I cannot figure out how you did this… What did you do? Like what kind of super braiding is this?" I laughed "I braided my hair in 3 braids and braided the braids. Not that hard but it looks cool." He nodded "defiantly, Hikaru do you think mom would like this as a hair style?" Hikaru came over and nodded "I've never seen it and Mom likes new and funky." I turned around "Let me make this clear I'm not modeling." They both pouted and retreated to their seats.

"Okay I'll be back." I got on my shoes and a rain coat though it wasn't big and yellow it was black. I opened the door and a gust of wind hit me. "Holy crap… screw raining cats and dogs it is raining horses and cows." Tamaki ran over "ITS RAINING COWS AND HORSES." I pushed him back "No Tamaki you idiot it's a metaphor." Kyouya stated pushing up his glasses. Thank god for the shadow king.

I started on my way to the store. I was trying to decide what to make them for dinner they ate allot expected from 6 teenage/adult boys. He, he, he, bingo. I was going to make them tacos. Simple easy and you can make A LOT of it. The rain was making me nervous I was waiting for a random thunder storm to come out of nowhere. I was trying to make best of our time but I didn't know what exactly we were supposed to do. I was trying but I really didn't know.

I finally reached shelter of the store and spent like an hour gathering food. I got stuff for tacos, milk, chips including my favorite which will be off limits, candy for Honey, cake mix for Honey, some fruits, and other little foods. Sadly the rain had not died down by eh at all. The rain if anything was worse. Back out into the rain I go. I can practically feel myself get sick. Thankfully my house was close to the store so I wasn't completely soaked.

I came in with some grocery bags that thankfully Tamaki took for me. I did not want to carry them anymore. I was still tired, and I was getting cranky. I put everything away and I could feel them watching me as if I was some unknown species. I grabbed my chips and held them up "You see these." Nods all around. "You touch these even have one I will murder you," I threatened. Eyes went wide "don't doubt me, you've seen my work with a gun and a knife I will kill you." Hikaru laughed "Good luck trying to kill Honey and Mori." I smirked "Who knows I could have poisoned your coffee. Who says that was sugar I put on your fruit. What if I mixed something with the sugar? Everything got suddenly very quiet and no one touched their food or drinks.

I smirked "No I didn't but seriously don't touch my chips." Everyone nodded, well now that we were clear on that. 1pm was the time. "Who wants to go get movies?" I asked. Of course all of them did and Kyouya was already calling a car. We all got into the car and now I stuck in the middle between Kyouya and Tamaki. Then suddenly Thunder Rolls by Garth Brooks. Thunder rumbled in the back on the song. I froze "okay who's the smartass." I rolled my eyes. Tamaki went to get the driver to change the song I grabbed his arm "Its fake thunder I'm okay."

They all looked a little shocked. It was true I'm still the same with thunder but fake thunder never fazed me. Then finally we arrived at the movie place. We immediately broke into groups looking for our own style. Kyouya want for biographies, and non-fiction. The twins went to comedies. Tamaki to romance. Honey and Mori went to action and adventure. I went to teens/young adults, as well as fantasy. I saw a particular movie and started grinning like an idiot. What did I find...? Magic Mike (I LOVE that movie). I hid the movie I was holding. The Host Club did not need to see that.

But what woman didn't love male strippers :P. The twins tried to see what I had in my hands. But then Kyouya grabbed it and read it. He had a smirk across his face "Ah I see… well I don't care." I shook my head "I don't want to watch it with you guys… Plus I've seen it 100 times." I put it back and continued to scan. Hikaru smirked suggestively "why don't you want to watch that movie with us Haruhi?" I rolled my eyes. "What is it even about?" Kaoru asked. I had a sly smile on my face. "Male Strippers." Kyouya said bored and like it was the simplest thing ever. I started to laugh. "NO MY DAUGHTERS INNOCENCE!" I started laughing harder and handed them the cover. Tamaki dropped.

We ended up choosing 3 movies, Jackass 1, a horror movie and some fantasy action romance movie. We were all talking about something when suddenly my ringtone interrupted. "Are you brave enough to let me see your peacock, don't be chicken boy stop acting like a bioch." I smirked. It wasn't on vibrate. My ringtone was Peacock by Katy Perry (mine actually is). I checked the caller ID. Harley… I answered it and put it on speaker.

"Haruhi?" he asked from the other side of the line. "Yeah…? What do you need?" "Jake was attacked." The phone nearly dropped out of my hand. Jake was our 5th strongest. "Repeat that?" I said still in shock. "Yes I needed it to be repeated too." I growled "By whom?" "The same gang you were but he was stabbed." This time I did drop my phone… stabbed? I quickly picked up the phone "How is he?" "He had to have surgery." I growled "shit…" I looked around at the Host Club who looked shocked and traumatized. Though they had never met Jake?

"Why was he attacked?" I asked. "They wanted to know your location and different things. Jake really looked up to you remember so he wouldn't give it." I rubbed my forehead "so this is my fault?" Then something clicked, they know where I live. "No it's theirs they picked the wrong fight." I thought back on my fight with them. I sighed "Alright I caught some things about them when I fought them. Tell everybody." "Yeah… What?"

"There not fast, plus their weapons adds more weight. They rely allot on weapons but they're strong. They aren't stealthy were the stealthy gang try to escape in less there is around the same number of gang members with you. DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT face them head on." "That's what Jake did." "Yeah see that's why he lost. Their weapons are decked out in extras I tried facing them head on and I was losing right away. If it wasn't for the weapons I would have probably won." "Hm… good."

"What is your plan?" "How did you know I had a plan?" "Well you called me for a reason." "Were going on the offense now no more of this being attacked shit. We're going to fight them and you are coming." I felt as if I should hang up on him. But I didn't. I'm so nice. "No I'm not." I responded. He scoffed "like hell you're not."

I growled "they know where I live and they know that Jake wouldn't betray me there egging us on so I go and fight then they can turned everything on me and then I'm screwed." I figured this all out when he stated why they attacked Jake. Harley was silent for a minute "GODDAMNIT WERE PLAYING RIGHT INTO THEIR HANDS!" I sighed "Look I've got to go… alright?" "Yeah and thanks for being smart." I laughed "Yeah. If these attacks continue I will fight." And hung up the phone.

I dropped my phone in my lap and let my face drop into my hands. I rubbed my face and then let my hands drag my face down slightly groaning. I huffed annoyed "Little bastards. Can only attack one of our members at once cowards. I cracked my knuckles. I looked around and saw the Host Club looking at me funny. I chewed on my thumb nail, this was really bothering me. I called the hospital asking for information on Jake. I must admit they gave it up to easy.

He wasn't in critical condition anymore. But by the time I was off the phone I was at my house. This gang was asking for it. But for now I pushed it out of my mind. As soon as we got out of the car I began to make tacos which at the least was eventful. Tamaki trying to use a cheese grater, the twins trying to stuff the tacos, Kyouya burning the hard taco shells, and Honey trying to cut a tomato and then getting mad at it. Once that was done we went straight to movies.

Watching the others watch horror movies was hilarious. The twins and Tamaki were huddling with pillows and each other crying. Honey was clinging to Mori and Kyouya beside me was like me unfazed but he oddly seemed fascinated. Jackass was funny I killed myself laughing along with everyone including the shadow king and Mori. But during the romance movie called 'Trouble with the Curve.' Everyone stayed awake in tell the actual ending of the movie. Everyone was out cold.

I looked out the window and decided I needed to do some thinking. It was still pouring rain but I didn't care. I grabbed a sweater and started walking to the beach we went previously. By the time I got there I was soaked but I didn't care. I sat down at the end of the dock and watched the huge waves and rain. It's like the sky's knew what was about to happen and were crying the tears I couldn't.

I gave the gang in 4 months in November that I would come to them. Just give me that time and I would come to them. I knew that meant probably dying because I would never joined them. Or I was to be a slave to them which is just as bad. It wasn't positive I was going to die or get hurt. It wasn't that I was giving up or wanted to get hurt. I wasn't a masochist. Everyone saw me as Haruhi brave invincible. But it was all a lie, all a mask. Why was I doing this?

I knew why. It was my biggest secret. Why I always risked my life and body for others. I could never lose another person in my life. Another one of my friends could ever die before me. I lost my mother who at that age was my best friend. I was destroyed and I would never be able to feel that way again. It would kill me. I would rather die first. That was my biggest fear my biggest secret. I was afraid of losing anyone ever again. I laid down width way on the dock watching the waves and the water.

The sound slowly hushed my eyes closed. I was freezing but I was tired. I don't know how long I laid there thinking. But finally I fell asleep. Right here on the dock. I closed my eyes and dreamt of a place that no one ever died. A place where I never had to lose anyone ever again.

Okay guys the KaoruXHaruhi story is also being written. SO as soon as this story is done the new one will be out and I literally mean the same day.