I forgot to say in the last chapter that I own nothing, nobody, not even twilight, new moon. Whatever I own nothing.
Chapter 2
Bella's point of view.
What was I doing sleeping in the couch? I felt really cold. What did I do last night, sleep with ice? I shivered.
I couldn't remember what had happened yesterday. All I could feel was that my throat burned, it felt so sore. I tried to talk "He--llo?" It didn't sound like my voice. It sounded scratchy. Ugh. I sound awful.
It all came rushing in. Yesterday, I almost drowned, Jake had saved me, I had come so close to being Victoria's snack. She was in the ocean. Something else.I felt like I was forgetting something vital. Oh, yeah, Alice had come back.
ALICE!
I look around the room trying to find her. Did she leave me when I was sleeping?
Oh. She was sitting with me. How could I missed her when she was right there?
"Good morning, Bella" She sounded sad.
Why did I do something wrong? Did I talk in my sleep about her? I probably made her feel guilty. "What's wrong Alice?"
"Nothing. Jasper called me, he said there was an emergency at the house."
"Oh." She could have come up with a better excuse. Shewas trying to ditch me. He probably told her to stay away from me. I was suddenly remembering the pain that I felt when Ed--he left me.
"Bella, don't cry." She was coming in to hug me, I flinched away from her. Mostly because if I touched her, it would feel like somebody else's touch.
I wasn't crying. I touched my eyes to confirm her lie, when I felt my eyes, they were watery. She was right. I cleared my eyes, trying to control the tears.
"I'm sorry Bella. I don't want to leave. But I do need to go back to my family."
"Fine. Bye Alice." I didn't want her to see my pain. He would read it from her mind, he would know that I still loved him. I didn't want to make myself look pathetic human that couldn't let go.
I closed my eyes, so that I wouldn't see her go. I was afraid that if I saw her leave, I would beg her to stay. To my surprise she hugged me and then kissed me on my forehead.
Which made me want to cry even more. He had kissed me on my forehead before leaving.
"Bye Bella." She sounded like she was crying sob-less cries. But I could have mistaken it by something else. I didn't open my eyes to see if she was really sad.
When I finally had the nerve to open them, she was gone.
I was alone.
The pain was over populating my body. I felt like I was falling apart on the sofa. Somebody was ripping me to shreds.
Before I knew what I was doing, I already had taken two pills. What had I done? Which pills did I take? Oh. They were sleeping pills. At least that was what I wanted. Sleep. To never awake, so that I wouldn't wake up to my dreaded, depressed world.
When I woke up it was dark outside. Maybe around one. I wondered what Charlie thought about me sleeping all day. He probably didn't notice me, with the funeral stuff.
My heart ached to go outside. What was outside, that was so important? Before I had time to think it through, I jumped on to a branch, in the three. I couldn't believe that I made it! I was feeling smug, but then I thought about the jumping off part. Darn, I had like five feet or so. I dangled there for a moment, trying to think of the less painful way to get down.
"Bella wait there, I'll help you" Edward said. I smiled at the idea of him coming here and helping me. What was I suppose to do, wait for eternity for him to come help me. Yeah right.
I decided that all the ways were going to hurt me, and I was already in pain, so what was the point. I jumped off with energy, to my surprise, I think I only hurt my hand.
I started running to the forest. That seem to be my way of life now, not thinking things through.
"Bella, don't go into the forest" What are you going to do, come out of my mind and lock me into my room. Yeah right.
"I want to." I told him mentally. I didn't want to sound like a nut, if someone was around. Why didn't he want me to go to the forest?
"Bella. Stop right now" He sounded really mad, but I didn't care. He was never coming back. I figured it out yesterday, when Alice had left.
So I didn't even bother to answer him. I just kept walking and walking, each step took me further into the forest.
I stop dead in my tracks, it sounded like somebody was behind me. I turned around fast.
"AHHHHHHH!"
"Run, Bella Run." Edward said in my mind.
I was frozen in place, somebody was coming and fast.