Jay wanted to run to the doctor and ask him how Erin was. Voight beat him to it. Voight came back to the team, "Nothing yet, she is still in surgery."

Jay nodded along with the rest of the team. They all took a seat and thought about how long they were going to be there. It could be hours or it could be minutes, depending on Erin's condition when she had gotten to the hospital. The team was silent, there were no words to describe how they were feeling, so silence seemed to be the best option.

Jay couldn't stand hearing everyone breathe anymore, "Voight," He looked to his sergeant next to him, "Can you tell me about Erin? I know some of it…but I would like to know all of it."

Voight was silent for a minute, "She can tell you about it herself when she gets out of here."

"And if she doesn't?" Jay replied.

"Then, yes I will tell you."

Jay nodded his head, Erin had always been so sealed off from the rest of the world.

They had been there for about an hour before the doctor came out. Once again, Voight was the first one to get to him.

The doctor said some things to Voight, and Voight broke down. Jay had never seen Voight so emotional. He didn't know if these tears were tears of joy or sadness. The team looked around, did they go over to Voight or let him come back to them? Jay took the first step to Voight.

Voight saw Jay coming out of the corner of his eye and turned back and walked over to his team, he shook his head, "She…she didn't make it. Her…" Voight could barely get the words out, "Her wounds…she…" Voight shook his head and sat in a nearby chair.

"Her carotid was hit when she was shot and she was basically dead by the time Gabby and Shay had gotten her here."

Jay shook his head. The woman he loved was gone within an instant. It took one shot and it was all gone.

Jay went to the Alec, "Can you tell me what happened, with Erin?"

"We did everything we cou-"

"Spare me the speech you give to everyone, Alec. When Jules died, you didn't want the speech either, so please."

Alec nodded his head, "She was basically dead once she got here, Jay. The doctor did everything he could, but she couldn't be saved. Gabby and Shay could only apply pressure in the ambulance while bringing her here. She had lost too much blood. We were able to repair her carotid, but she had already lost so much blood, and we tried a blood transfusion. But once two packs of blood don't circulate through her body, we had to stop. Her heart just wasn't pumping the blood anymore, Jay. I really am sorry."

Jay went back towards his team, but he kept walking. He had to get some air. It was like his whole world was crashing down around him. He took a back door out of the hospital and leaned against the cold bricks. He blamed himself. He was supposed to have her back. He slid down to sit on the ground and he lost it. He couldn't stop crying. Jay was always going to remember Erin for the strong girl she was.

From that day on Jay was never the same. He remembered every word he had ever said to Erin. From their first hello to their abrupt goodbye. The day she died he went back into the hospital. He wanted to see her one last time. He waited until the team was gone. He didn't know where Voight was but Alec lead Jay to where Erin's body was. There is where he found Voight. He didn't mean to eavesdrop, but he did.

"Erin…" Voight's voice cracked. "Erin, I love you. I guess that's all I can say. I shouldn't have made so many choices for you, especially when it came to Halstead. He loves you more than I do." Voight chuckled, "I didn't think that was possible. I wouldn't do anything different though. I tried to protect you…" Voight paused, "But I neglected to see that you weren't the one who needed protecting. You were my angel, Erin. You protected me. I will miss you more than anything. I never thought I would be doing this. I didn't think that I would be having to bury you and set up funeral plans for you." Voight chuckled again, "We always joked about how I was going to get myself killed. Oh Erin, I have to find Halstead. I promised him that I would tell him about you. I hope you don't mind. I think it will bring him some closure. I feel like I did this to you. If I hadn't had everyone stay down so I could push Jace against that cop car, maybe Antonio would have found you laying there a few seconds earlier, and maybe those seconds would have saved your life. Or, maybe I am just over analyzing it. But, I am so proud of you. You did great things with what used to be an awful life. You were dealt a hard hand, and you handled it with great dignity. I just wish you knew how happy you made me. You were destined for bigger and better things that I wish I could have given you. I would have given you the world if I could have. I don't have anything else to say. I just…I don't know how I'm supposed to survive without you."

Jay stepped forward and put his hand on Voight's shoulder, "I'm so sorry, Voight."

Voight looked up and nodded his head, "I thought you left."

"I did, but I wanted to say goodbye."

Voight stood up from the chair he had been sitting in next to Erin's body, "I'll give you some time, then I can drive you home."

Jay nodded his head, "Thanks."

Voight left and Jay took a seat next to Erin's body. It seemed unreal.

"I have no idea what to say, I don't know how I can top Voight. I don't even know if you can hear me…" Jay paused, "but there are some things I have to say to you. I love you, Erin. I have since I first laid eyes on you, and I will until the day that I die and meet you again in another life. I don't know if you loved me back or not. You said you did, but I also don't know how to read you. You are- were- so closed off. I guess I'll get to learn more about you from Voight. I can't help but feel like this was my fault. I should have had your back since I'm your partner, I know Voight blames himself, but the doctors said you lost too much blood too fast." Jay shook his head, "How did we get here? I just never thought we would have ended up like this. I thought we would be back at the station and I would finally have the courage to ask you out. Say 'screw Voight let's goes out and do what we want'. I never had the balls to do that." Jay laughed to himself, "I remember the first time that I saw someone get shot I didn't have the stomach for it and I literally threw up. You rubbed my back for a second and asked me if I was alright. When I said I was, you said, 'good now grow a pair and let's go fill out paperwork'. I loved you Erin." Jay shook his head, "I don't know why you had to leave me. But, I will always love you, and I will always be your partner. I guess, this is goodbye. This sucks because I never thought this would be happening." Jay just lost it, more than he had outside of the hospital, he couldn't breathe, and it was like someone had ripped out his lungs and heart at the same time. Voight must have been standing there for the whole thing or most of it because he was the one who put his hand on Jay shoulder.

"Jay, stand up."

Jay followed the orders of his superior and stood up. Jay wiped his tears to stand eye to eye with Voight. To his surprise, Voight pulled him into a hug, it was the start of something beautiful. Both Jay and Voight could feel Erin looking down on them, smiling her beautiful smile.

Jay and Voight continue to work together; Jay has basically become Voight's second in command. Each Sunday they get together and talk about Erin. They share stories and views on her life. They laugh and sometimes they cry. Voight loves talking about Erin and Jay loves hearing about her life and what shaped her into the woman she had become.

Jay knew Erin was always going to be in his heart, no matter what.

THE END.

Well this is it! This marks the end of the story. Thank you guys for being so supportive and commenting. You are the reason I kept writing and love to write. I hope you guys liked the ending, even though it was a little sad. I plan on writing another story, with a tad different storyline. But, thank you guys again, and I hope you will look for my upcoming story! :)