Fitz came back out from Noah's room and sat back down on the couch. "What was it like?" he asked

"What do you mean" I questioned. I was very confused on what he meant by that

"Having Noah watching him grow up?" his eyes shot darts at me

I gulped before reminiscing on how our son was born.

Flashback

July 2009

"Are you sure you didn't have some young dream of becoming an actor and in turn, you memorize sweet lines to pick up women?" I breathed on his mouth.

"No," Fitz's tongue entered her open mouth.

I moaned into his mouth.

Fitz lifted me off of his lap and laid me on the floor. My legs wrapped around him as he was on his knees. He unbuttoned his shirt as he lifted my body up.

Fitz stroked my cheek and kissed my lips. I was cut off as Fitz slowly started to move his lips on mine. Our lips moved in time with each other and Fitz raised his hands up to my hair and tangled his fingers in it. His other hand pulled up to my face and cupped my cheek in his hand. I raised up his shirt and slowly started to feel Fitz's body. I moved from his lips to his neck thrusting my thighs onto his thighs. Fitz placed his hands on my lower back slipping one hand down the back of my jeans. I was in a total daze and all I cared about was how good it felt kissing him

"I - Love - You" Panted Fitz through the hard kissing and touching. I peeled off my t-shirt and pressed my chest against his, slowly running my hand over his growing bulge, Fitz started kissing my jaw line, he was leaning over me as he did so. He moved from my throat, down to my collar, then kissing my breasts and he moved is body to align with mine. I gasped as the cold metal from his belt buckle tickled my inner thigh. I pulled down his pants and he immediately entered me.. He slowly thrusted. My legs wrapped around his thighs.I screamed his name as he increased his speed.

"Look at me," he slowed down his pace.

I looked the opposite direction trying to hold back my tears.

Fitz stopped his movements, "Look at me."

I slowly turned my face to his as a tear rolled down my face I wasn't used to his size yet.

"Livi," Fitz muttered in a low tone. He grabbed me and pulled me towards him I . moaned while he was still inside me. I wiped the tear, but a couple more fell in its place. Fitz rubbed his hand against my face.

"Do you want me to stop?" Fitz kissed my right cheek.

"You feel so good to me, Fitz."

I love you, Livi." His kisses trailed from my cheek to my ear down to my neck and shoulders, and then down to my harden nipples. I moaned softly.

I bent my head back as his tbegan to pick up the speed again. I couldn't ounce a word. What he put me in was pure bliss I was in heaven. Fitz took one last thrust and let his juices explode into me, dripping down my thighs. My chest laid on top of his, we were both rising and falling at the same time. My head rested on his shoulder.

"I love you," I softly exhaled.

9 1/2 months later

"Push!" Abby yelled

"Don't yell at me or I'll rip your throat out and you won't make another noise ever" I screamed. I pushed and pushed. It felt like I was pushing forever when finally I heard.

"It's a boy"

A tear fell from my face as I watched them clean my baby off. He looked kinda big

" 9 Pounds 4 ounces" the doctor announced

"Gesh Liv what were you eating during your pregnancy?" Abby laughed

I laughed, I had no idea why he was so big. As long as he was healthy I didn't care. The doctor placed him in my arms. I was a little nervous because I was rusty with babies it had been a while since I last held one. I stared at my son, he was truly beautiful, he was a medium caramel color with a head full of black curls and his eyes they were a dark grey color he had the perfect little nose and he had my lips that gene was dominant in my family. He got a little fussy and the doctor said it was time for his first feeding and this is what really bonded a mother and child. It was one of the best first experience I had with my son.

My sister and team were here with me. I was so glad that I had my family for support. They all took turns holding him, it was almost the perfect night. I just wished that his dad could be here to witness this moment with me. As quick as the thought came into my head it quickly left. I new it could never be, Fitzgerald Grant could never no about his son. "Well what's his name?" My sister asked

"Noah Michael Thomas Pope" I smiled and kissed the top of his head. Just then Noah scrunched his little face and he turned a little red, I got worried but was quickly relived when I heard a little noise sounding like gas.

"Ew Livi he pooted!" my sister laughed hysterically and then she said "Imma call him Poots ahah, my little poots" she laughed

End Of Flashback

"He really farted?" Fitz laughed

"Yea that's were the nickname Poots came from" I laughed almost cyring

"HA, and 9 pounds Liv my god did it hurt?" he asked curiously

"Yeah, I almost had to have a C- Section" I sighed

"Why didn't you tell me?" he fired. I knew this was coming but I still wasn't ready to talk about it.

"Its almost morning time Fitz you should really go" I said

"Not until I get my answer, you really hurt me Liv, and I didn't expect that from the women I love and I thought she loved me" he shot

"I'm sorry" was all I could think of I didn't really have an answer for him other than I was trying to protect them both

"Sorry isn't going to cut it" he said icily

"Look Fitz what do you want me to say? I can't take it back, I know what I did was wrong in so many ways but I can't go back and I know it will be hard for you to forgive me but someday maybe you'll understand why" I half cried

No reply he was just staring at me, it was a look of disgust, finally after a few minutes he responded

"Yeah someday I will find it in my heart, but not anytime soon" he spit. My heart shattered my face dropped for a split second but I quickly composed it again not wanting him to see that his words hurt me.

"I should go" he said

"yeah you should" I said nonchalantly, he walked passed me grabbed his coat and opened the door but before he walked out he whispered "This isn't over and Noah will not be kept a secret any longer. I want him to come with me, Millie and the kids next weekend to the ranch". And with that he walked off without a goodbye or even a wave.

Fitz POV

It was a bad/good day for me today, I found out that I had a son that Olivia kept from me for two years. I got to meet him and he was simply amazing. Someone threatened me to resign or they would talk about my secret love child. I arrived back to the white house wanting to do nothing more but go to sleep. I walked into my bedroom and slipped off my jacket and shoes.

"where were you Fitzgerald?" her voice cold

"Out" I replied simply before attempting to get in bed and go to sleep, but she stepped in my way and next thing I know was I felt a sharp pain against my cheek.

"Lay another hand on me Millicent and it will be the last thing you'll ever do" I snapped at her

"Why Fitz, Why? What does she have that I don't?" she cried

"look Millie I don't feel like arguing with you tonight" I sighed

"No you owe me that much!" she growled out of anger I yelled at her

"She's beautiful, smart, good in bed, sophisticated, cares about others and not just her self, she knows me better than I know myself, everyone loves her, she's talented, and she's the mother of my child" I blurted Crap I didn't mean to say that I thought to myself.

Millie's face dropped "She's what?" she yelled

"Drop it Millie, I'm warning you" I fired I knew Millie wouldn't press it because she was weak and never really stood up for herself, that why I was very attracted to Olivia she was very strong willed. I don't know why I even married Millie. "I gave up everything for you, I had 3 children for you, I'm the mother of your children, I love you Fitz" she cried.

"I never asked you for any of it" I spit

She stormed out the room crying, I could care less right now after this crazy day I had all I needed was some sleep.