Disclaimer: i am NOT stephenie meyer..i DO NOT own twilight or those crazy twilight kids, although i DO own twilight ticket stubs (yes plural stubs) and a red alabaster heart paperweight which was handmade in volterra, italy (thanks to my vamptastic beta) which i'll cherish forever and forever and forever.

Author's Note: Hope you guys had a great Thanksgiving. I still have left over pumpkin pie in my fridge and it's calling my name! So, I was glad to hear that ya'll welcomed our dear Rosalie's pregnancy with open arms. I was also glad to hear that most of you enjoyed the movie, I know I did. For those readers who've yet to experience the EPIC-ness that is twilight...you're in for a real treat (at least I think so). Just try to keep in mind that they put 500 pages into two hours, remember that! :D

I better stop rambling before I get out of hand. Here's the next installment guys. Shall we take a glimpse into the lovely mind that is Edward freakin' Cullen?

EPOV:

It was Tuesday night, it had been almost two weeks since I signed my divorce papers. I walked into Emmett's kitchen, setting my car keys on the table as I took a seat at the table. I ran my fingers through my hair. I spent the last forty-eight hours working, the previous twenty-four with Bella. The past two days have been horrible. All I could think about what Bella. It threw my groove off at the hospital so much people started to notice. I felt a little bad. Here I was getting off work early, yet again, and going home. Instead of heading to Bella's like I usually would. I couldn't help but keep thinking back to last Tuesday night.

I quietly set my things on the floor of Bella's room as I walked in. I glanced at the clock, it was just a little after midnight. I got off my shift a little early and headed straight over. I smiled at Bella's sleeping form lying in her bed. She was so peaceful when she slept, when she wasn't sleep talking that is.

"Edward…" Bella's soft voice muttered. My head glanced over to the bed. Bella turned in the bed, the covers rustling.

"Bella?" I whispered taking a step towards the bed.

No response.

"Don't leave me." her voice said clearly. I bent down to her sleeping form.

"Never Bella, this is where I belong. Where else would I go?" I whispered kissing her forehead softly. She turned over again in the bed and I sighed.

I decided to take a shower before hopping into bed with Bella. When I walked into the bathroom I didn't expect to see what I saw. There sitting in trash were empty pregnancy test boxes. I picked up a box on the top, and lying right underneath it were a few positive tests.

Could it be? Is she actually pregnant? Why did she do this alone, by herself? I would've been there for her, if she would've just told me. She doesn't need to do this by herself.

I decided the best thing to do was to not even mention the tests to Bella. She would tell me when she was ready. Although it killed me that she hadn't mentioned it and she was thoroughly surprised to find I got off early. Bella quickly rushed into the bathroom the minute I slipped into bed that night. Since then, I've been physically there. Mentally, well that's a different story. I couldn't stop thinking about the positive pregnancy tests that sat in her trash can in her bathroom.

"Edward?" Emmett's voice boomed through the house. I groaned. I was hoping he would just stay over at Rosalie's tonight so I could be alone with my thoughts. And figure out what I'm going to do.

"Kitchen." I said burying my head in my hands. I heard Emmett's heavy footsteps as he entered the kitchen.

"Whoa, why the long face, Eddie?" he asked. I picked my head up and looked at him.

"I, um, I'm at a loss." I answered. Should I tell him? Do I tell him?

"At a loss? At a loss for what?" he questioned as he opened the fridge grabbing two beers. He popped the caps off of them and handed me one.

"Can I ask you a hypothetical question?" I said as I looked up at my best friend who was casually sipping on his beer.

I can't tell him but I'm going crazy keeping this to myself. I need advice, help. Although I'm going to the wrong person for advice, Jasper should be my first choice, but I have to take what I can get.

"Of course. What's on your hypothetical mind?" he said sarcastically.

"Let's say this guy I know is dating this girl…" my voice trembled.

"Alright, so Edward is dating someone that he wants to remain nameless. You don't have to hide her from me, Eddie. I'm curious to see who's sparked my best friend's eye. Where'd you meet her? What she look like? Is she hot?" he questioned. I rolled my eyes.

This is exactly why I didn't want to talk to him about this.

"Emmett…" I said sternly. "…hypothetical remember?"

"Right…" he dragged on. "Continue."

"So let's say this guy found positive pregnancy tests in this girl's bathroom. They're exclusive so there's no doubting that he is the father, but she hasn't said a thing, and this guy said it's been about a week. What should he do?" I questioned, pinching the bridge of my nose. A smile appeared on Emmett's face.

God, I was stupid to ask Emmett for advice.

"Well, well, well, little Eddie has a girlfriend. Eddie has a girlfriend, Ed-" he started to sing. I glared at him, allowing a slight growl to escape my chest.

Where did that come from?

"Sorry, sorry. Anyways, your friend, has a girlfriend. Whom he could've possibly knocked up…" he paused to look at me and smirked. "Way to go man! Honestly, if it were Rose and I. I would hope she would tell me right away. I would be thrilled. Actually, I would be scared shitless, but still thrilled. If it kills you that much that she hasn't told you, talk to her. I don't know who this mystery woman is or how serious you guys are, but things are about to get a little more serious." he rambled. "Are you gonna be okay, Edward?"

I glanced over at Emmett. In a way he was right. For once, Emmett was right. I needed to talk to Bella, there was no way she deserved to go through this alone. She didn't have to. I would be there for her every step of the way.

"I'll be fine, just need some time to think. Thanks, by the way." I said, giving him a sincere smile.

For the first time in the past few days I embraced the fact that Bella could be pregnant. Pregnant with my baby, our baby. It made everything worth it. The image of Bella sitting in a rocking chair in the corner of the nursery looking out the window, while our sleeping angel was safe in her arms flooded my mind. To see Leilah's face light up with joy when she finds out she's going to have a brother or sister, someone to play with.

My dreams of having a family were slowly becoming a reality.

I know, I know...it was really short, well shorter. Poor Edward right? I promise the next update will be a bit longer than this one. I should have it up with the next few days..I promise! :D

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