Disclaimer: i am NOT stephenie meyer..i DO NOT own twilight or those crazy twilight kids, although i DO own twilight ticket stubs (yes plural stubs) and a red alabaster heart paperweight which was handmade in volterra, italy (thanks to my vamptastic beta) which i'll cherish forever and forever and forever.

Author's Note: So I hope all of you had a great holiday season. I know I did...or at least I tried to with having to work on Christmas Eve and Day in the lovely "I'm not sure if I want to rain, well I guess I want to rain" weather here in California. Sorry, I didn't get a chance to update over the holidays...but I was uber busy as was my beta. :D We're both sick now and it sucks...winter sucks...the cold weather sucks...oh well, at least you have a new chapter! yay!

BPOV:

Breakfast at Christy's, yet again.

It had been the usual two weeks since we've met for breakfast. The past two weeks have been an emotional roller coaster for me. Scratch that, the past month has been an emotional roller coaster. Between Rosalie finding out she's pregnant, the non-existent baby, my emotional break down, I was a mess.

I sighed as I swung the glass door open, the little bells attached to the handle jingled, and I scanned the dining room. Sure enough, all the way in the back corner sat my best friends. I took a deep breath and headed towards the table. I told myself I wouldn't linger today. Order, eat, pay, and get out. In that order, nothing more.

"Bella!" Emmett exclaimed throwing his hands up in the air, startling Rosalie half to death. Alice snickered as she took a sip of her orange juice.

"Here, sit down Bells." Jasper said scooting over in the booth. I smiled taking the place next to him.

I glanced across the table. Sitting straight across was Edward. He never once acknowledged my presence. He sat there his head in his hands with his fingers running through his hair every once and awhile. He looked like horrible. I could tell he wasn't getting very much sleep.

"Morning, Bella. The usual?" Angela, the waitress that always waited on us, asked as she appeared at the table. I looked up at her and smiled.

"Of course." I answered.

"Everyone else? The usual I'm guessing." she asked looking around the table. They all gave her a single nod.

"Wait, Ang, actually…" Rosalie said, stopping Angela before she walked away. "Could I actually get an order of biscuits and sausage gravy? Oh and some eggs, scrambled, and a some toast please."

"Um, sure Rosalie. No problem." She looked a little skeptical, but just smiled as she walked away.

I watched as my friends stared at Rosalie. I knew the cravings had kicked in. Here was Rosalie Hale, every other Sunday she would order a side of fruit and some toast. This morning, it was biscuits and gravy, eggs and toast.

Way to play the pregnant card smoothly, Rose.

"What? I'm looking for a change. Can't a girl order something different without her friends giving her a hard time?" she said as she rolled her eyes.

"Of course not, Rose. Do what you need to do. Just know I'll be there for you when you can't finish all that." Alice smirked as she placed her hands over her stomach.

The table grew quiet as we waited for the food to come. I couldn't help but notice Emmett and Rosalie's small conversations with each other. Rosalie's attention was to her phone. She would casually tap Emmett to show him something and he would nod his head 'yes' or 'no'. Alice and Jasper were too into each other, carrying on their usual quiet conversations with each other, to even notice the awkward silence around them. While Edward still made no attempt to acknowledge my presence. Is this what really had resorted to? He just sat there playing with his knife, spinning it around and around on the table, like it was a bottle in game of spin the bottle.

I cleared my throat in hopes to break the silence and get everyone's attention. Rosalie looked up at me from her phone, smiled and then continued to type away. Emmett looked at me curiously waiting for me to say something.

"So, Alice, Jasper have you two decided what you're going to name the baby?" I asked. Alice looked over at me, a smile on her face.

"We're still throwing some names around. We're open to suggestions." Alice said as she looked around the table. Emmett's face lit up.

"I have a suggestion, name the baby Emmett!" he boomed. Rosalie looked over at Emmett and smacked him lightly on the arm.

"What the hell, Rose?" Emmett whined rubbing his arm.

"Emmett, they are not going to name their first born son after you." Rosalie exclaimed. Emmett's smile dropped.

"Er, thanks anyways, Em, for the suggestion." Jasper said.

"Fine what about…" Emmett pondered. "Jebediah!"

Alice's eyes went wide and Jasper choked on the coffee he was drinking. I could help but laugh.

"Emmett, honey, why don't you let Alice and Jasper choose the name they like." Rosalie cooed rubbing his back. She looked over at me with a "Help me, my soon to be father of my child is crazy" look.

"How's Leilah?" Edward whispered as he lifted his head up.

"Whoa, and he speaks!" Alice exclaimed throwing her hands up in the air.

"Shut up, Alice." Edward spat.

"Gee, someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed today, Eddie. What's got your panties in a bunch? Not getting any?" Emmett asked.

"Whatever, Emmett. I'm fine, there's nothing wrong." he said as he ran his hand through his beautiful head of hair. "Bella?" he looked over at me, flashed me that crooked smile that always melted my heart. "How's Leilah?"

"Um, she, I, er…" I stuttered. What the heck is wrong with me? I can't let him do this to me.

"She's fine as always. Thank you guys again for all the presents. She loved them." I managed to blurt out.

"Anything for the little squirt! When can I come by to blow up those sock-em-boppers I got her?" Emmett questioned.

"Whenever Emmett, you're always welcome. I'm sure Leilah would love to have you over."

"Oh, Rosie can we please? Can we go to Bella's after breakfast?" Emmett said bouncing up and down like a little kid in a toy store.

"Bella, you have no idea what you just did. Sure, Em we can if you want to." Rosalie chuckled.

I glanced over at Edward. He looked relieved.

"You should come by and see her too Edward." I added. "She asks about you."

Wait what the hell am I doing? Inviting him over is just asking for it?

"Maybe." he answered returning back to his knife twirling.

Angela brought the food to the table and we started to eat. I didn't pay attention to the small talk going on at the table. I could do was pay attention to Edward. He was quiet the entire time. I didn't know how much longer I could stay away from him. There was no doubt about it, I belonged with him. I needed to overcome my issues and just get over it. Edward belonged in my life.

I finished my French toast. Okay, I need to get out of here now. I pulled my wallet out, grabbing enough money to cover my meal and a tip.

"Sorry guys but I have to get out of here." I set the money on the table and looked over at Emmett. "Em, if you wanna come by just give me a call. Make sure I'm home."

"Will do Bell-la-la." Emmett's voice rang, his mouth full of food.

"Emmett McCarty, don't talk with your mouth open." Rosalie warned. Emmett swallowed his food.

"Sorry, Rosie." he apologized flashing her an apologetic smile.

"Well, it's sad that you have to go so quickly." Jasper said placing his hand on my shoulder.

"Yeah, well, um, Charlie has something to do and I have to pick up Leilah earlier then usual."

"Okay, hope everything is okay, Bella." Alice said concerned. I knew at that moment the subject of my abrupt leaving wouldn't be dropped, not with Alice at least.

"Everything is fine. I'll talk to you guys later." I exclaimed getting up, waving bye to them.

I rushed out of the diner and straight to my car. Shutting the door with a bang and slumped into the driver's seat banging my hand on the steering wheel.

I was beginning to break down. The "Bella" that needed to be alone to figure things out was slowly disappearing, being replaced by the "Bella" that yearned to feel the touch of the man she loved.

Stuffing the key into the ignition I started the engine. The soft purr of the engine erupted and I pulled out of the parking spot and sped towards Charlie's.

"Mommy!" Leilah exclaimed running to me as I walked through the door. I swooped her up into my arms.

"Hey, sweetie. How was your morning with Grandpa Charlie?"

"Good, we watched the game. Grandpa taught me all about touchdowns and field goals." She explained. It looks like my dad might've found someone new to watch his games with.

"Bells, you're back early." Charlie said as he walked into the hallway where I stood.

"Yeah, I ate and left."

"Hey Leilah, why don't you go grab your stuff from the living room?" Charlie told Leilah. She nodded her head and ran into the living room.

"Bella, what's wrong? Is everything okay?"

"Cha-Dad, everything is fine. I'm just a bit tired that's all." I lied.

"Well, then my idea couldn't have come at a better time. I've been thinking and I think that you need some 'Bella' time. I talked to Alice too…"

"Dad! You called Alice?" I exclaimed.

"I wanted to see what she thought of the idea. She agreed with me. She said you've been down in the dumps the past week or so. So I've decided that on Thursday when I have the day off I'm coming by and picking Leilah up. I'll take her out, maybe into Seattle or something. She'll spend the night with me too."

"Dad…"

"No Bella, there's no options for this. I'll pick Leilah first thing up Thursday morning. You have the whole day to yourself, do something exciting." Charlie said sternly.

"Whatever Dad." I rolled my eyes. I didn't need him meddling in my life. "Leilah, honey, ready to go yet?"

Leilah's little feet came shuffling into the hallway.

"Yeah, mommy, let's go!" she smiled and ran to hug Charlie's legs. "Bye, Grandpa!"

"Bye, sweet pea. Take care of your mommy, okay?" Charlie said.

"Come on, mommy let's go home." Leilah said grabbing my hand dragging me out the door.

"Uncle Emmett might come over later." I announced as we got in the car.

"Really? What about Uncle Eddie?" she asked her eyes beaming with enthusiasm.

"Um, I'm not sure about that one, kiddo." I responded. I watched as her face dropped and a frown formed on her face.

"Oh, I miss him mommy." she whispered softly folding her hands in her lap.

"I know sweetie. I miss him too." I sighed.

Don't we all miss him? Yes we do! :D Now if only Bella could get over herself...if only.

Well like I said before, hope ya'll had a good holiday. Anybody get any exciting presents? :D If I could I would box up the Cullens and send them out to each and every one of you. I really would, if I could. :D

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