Ch. 12
DISCLAIMER:all rights go to Kiera Cass for writing and owning the selection trilogy and to Taylor Swift for the songs/quotes I use! Also to Veronica Roth I use a character of hers and some quotes.
A/n
Okay quick notes!
For my next chapter I'd like to now who you guys prefer better... Josh or Theo.
you choose! Tell me in the reviews! Please! I really want to know for reasons coming on in this story. So please just leave a review and tell me!
Thanks!
(Also a little bit more of strong language in this chapter, but not much!)
Enjoy!
'What does that mean?' Repeats continuity in my head as I walk back to join the rest of the elite.
"Well goodbye!" Queen Amberly says sending the rest of the Royal Family on their way. I sneak one last glance at Josh as he walks towards the door. In the moment I chose to sneak that last glance, he's looking right at me probably having the same idea.
When I do catch his eye I can't help but notice the look of sadness spread across his face. Was there something I missed between us? I realize I need to speak to him before he's gone for good.
I decide I'm going to talk to him. Now. Oh I'm going to get in so much trouble.
I run towards the door and I see him approaching the car that will take them to their plane.
"Josh! Wait!" I yell starting to run down the first of many steps to the entrance of the palace.
"America! Stop!" I hear Syliva say behind me. 'America you can't do that!" She says a little louder than before.
I don't listen of course trying to make my way towards Josh.
"Josh!" I yell again, a bit louder. He still doesn't notice. I turn my head slightly to see Kriss standing there snickering holding something shiny. I don't take much thought to it. I also see Marlee there with a confused look. I shake my head reassuringly and she looks a little more comfortable.
I notice him getting closer to the car. How many damn stairs are there? I think. Finally sick of this I stop and just scream at the top of my lungs.
"JOSH WAIT!"
That caught his attention, his head whips around as fast as it can without falling off. Seeing me he stops and turns around
"I need to talk to you" I say making a smile tug at his lips.
"Ok if you insist, my lady" he says bowing very enthusiastically. He turns to his family and say "I will meet you all back in England later, it won't be long" he says giving his father a quick hug then to one to his mom and kisses her cheek. He wishes his sister and her husband luck, before turning to me.
I can't help be astounded by his kindness. When he faces me fully I notice his beautiful blonde hair and green eyes. 'Oh my god. America stop. Maxon think Maxon.' I say to myself.
"America why don't you come down the rest of the way?" He asks then points behind me "so we can have some privacy." I spin Around Kriss still there with a look on her face I do not liking the look on her face.
"Yea" I say beginning to finish the rest of the steps. "That might be best"
As I'm walking down the stairs I notice its alot harder in heels. Especially these nearly two- inch high nude ones. "Well" I say at the fourth to last step. 'Im finally here" I say moving to the third one only to trip when my stupid heel falls off.
"Ahhhhh" I scream falling forward.
Josh instantly jumps into action. He catches me mid-fall and I'm now in his strong arms bridal style.
"Those god damn heels" I mutter in his arms
"Ah atleast you made it this far" he says before setting me down. We hear a constant clicking noise suddenly and we both spin to see Kriss with a Camera. Taking our picture. She's most likely going to show that to Maxon.
"That bitch" I hear Josh mutter. I spin to look at him
"Wow Josh" I say "that wasn't very prince-like" I say teasingly. Making him roll his eyes.
'Ya, well princes are supposed to speak the truth" he says smirking "and the truth is Maxon would be a fool to let you go and chose that bitch or one of the other bimbos" he finishes. I'm shocked by his language but also find it very amusing.
"Thanks Josh' I say now wanting to know what he meant earlier. "Anyways..." I start out shyly not sure how to ask.
"Let me guess, you want to know what I meant? Correct?" He says looking me firmly in the eye.
"Yes" I say looking at the ground.
"Ok then may we go somewhere a little more private?" He asks.
'Of course" I reply following him down his path.
We end up in the garden. He stops and turns around to meet my face, after we found a spot where no one is or can hear us.
"Well" He says after some long minutes of silence.
"Well' I say back.
"What I meant is..." He fades off looking away towards the distance.
'What Josh?" I say touching his shoulder lightly "what is it?" I ask
"It's just that, that..." He says not meeting my eyes "how the hell can I say this?" He mumbles.
"Well firstly you could just spit it out"I say making him chuckle.
"I could, and I shall" he says. "America, i think Maxon is a fool and is ungrateful and doesn't deserve you. You aren't going to believe me because I know you love him. But he, he doesn't even appreciate you! Like I do! America," he pauses I'm too shocked to say a word.
"I think I love you" he finishes.
'W-what?" I barely get out.
"Yes I do, and I want you to come to England with me! Where we can be together without any interruptions." He says now making eye contact. Which doesn't help because it only tells me he's serious.
"J-josh, I'm flattered..." I say slowly, still digesting his words "b-but I c-can't. Because I l-love Maxon" I finish hoping to god this is the right choice.
"Very well, it's what I figured." He says and I turn to try and leave as does he. I'm walking away when I hear
"America?"
"Yes?"
"Just know I will always be there" he says
"Ok thank you I will" I say before he turns and leaves.
MAXON'S POV
As the Royal Family where almost gone I see America run out the door after them. Knowing she had just said she loved me a few days ago, I don't put much thought to it. I just casually turn on my heel and head towards my room.
About an hour later I hear a knock on my door.
"Who is it?" I yell from across the room. Putting my book back on the shelf it came from.
"Kriss" a confident yet shy voice says. 'Joy, why her again?' I think to myself before answering
"Okay come in"
And without hesitation she does.
"Hello Maxon." She says with a devilish grin.
"Hi Kriss" I say nervously giving her a weird glance wanting to know what she has up her sleeve.
"Uh I just want to tell you and show you something" she says after a while
"Okay go ahead" I say turning and organizing my book shelf.
"Well I'm sure you saw America storm out of the palace after Prince Josh? Correct?" She says. 'Really? You here to tell me something I already know?' I think
"Yes Kriss I do, I don't need you to tell me things I already know" I spit back annoyed.
"Yes I'm sure that's all you know, right?" She says the mean grin back.
"What do you mean?" I ask now curious.
"Here let me show you" she says opening the envelope I didn't notice she had.
"Here" she says handing me what seems to be pictures.
"What are these?" I ask.
"Just look" she says pointing to them in my hands.
I look down at the pictures and are shocked at what I find. The first one is of Josh holding America, bridal style. She's looking at him with joy all over her face and that's how he's looking at her. I also notice she has on one shoe. That's weird.
The next of him holding her around the waist as she looks what I think is shyly at the ground. I feel my heart tear into a million tiny pieces. 'Why America why?' I think.
"I think she's playing you Maxon, I mean look at them they look so happy together" Kriss says. No this can't be right.
"Maybe you should get ride of her while you still can" she says.
No I will not, not till I know for sure.
"Get out." I say sharply and pointing towards the door.
"W-what?" She says.
"I said get out" I growl.
"Maxon!" She says. "W-why?"
"Get out." I growl again "don't make me call the guards"
"Fine' she says walking towards the door. As she's about to leave she says "I hope you make the right choice"
"Leave" I almost yell at her and the next second she's gone.
"God Dammit!" I scream throwing the closest thing I can grab across the room. I need to get to the bottom of this.
AMERICA'S POV.
The next couple of hours I sit in the women's room, talking to Marlee and writing some new ideas for songs.
'Tall, dark and superman
He puts papers in his briefcase and drives away
To save the world or go to work
It's the same thing to me
He's got his mother's eyes, his father's ambition
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him
I hang on every word you say, yay
And you smile and say, "How are you? "
I say, "Just fine"
I always forget to tell you, I love you, I love you... forever
I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world, I'll be around
I watch superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down'
Is what I have down already. "Hmmm" I say out loud trying to think of more to write.
'Tall, dark and beautiful
He's complicated, he's irrational'
Is what I put next. 'Not bad.' I congratulate myself. I sit there a while coming up with the rest of the first part of the lyrics and decided to repeat the chorus. It came out like
'But I hope someday you'll take me away and save the day, yeah
Something in his deep brown eyes has me sayin'
He's not all bad like his reputation
And I can't hear one single word they say
And you'll leave, got places to be and I'll be OK
I always forget to tell you I love you, I loved you from the very first day
I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world I'll be around
I watch superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down'
'I'll come up with the rest later' I say to myself, glancing at the clock. It's nearly 1:30. Most of the others have gone to Lunch, but I stayed here. I decide to go back to my room and play my piano or something.
As I'm walking down the hall to my room I see Kriss. She gives me a weird look, like she just is so much better than me.
"Hello Kriss" I say all she does is laugh to herself and walk into her room. 'Okay then' I think.
I turn to go into my room and see Aspen give me another weird glance as if warning me. He mouths 'heads up' and I just look at him blankly and mouth 'thanks' back. Now I'm scared, but I do it anyways I slowly turn my knob and walk into my room.
At first I notice nothing wrong until I see Maxon sitting in one of the chairs by my window. I let out a sigh of relief. 'Why where they all warning me like that?'
He turns around when he hears me sigh. I instantly take my sigh of relief back in when I see the look on his face. It's full of pure anger and disappointment.
"Why?" He says "why America?"
"What?" I says shocked. What did I do. I think back trying to come up with something I could've done wrong but nothing came to mind.
"Him." He says looking away. "What did I do to get that?"
I close my door gently and answer "what are you talking about?" Then it hits me. "Are you talking about me asking Josh some questions? Before he left..." I say trailing off.
"Yes just about." He answers coldly.
"What is it then?" I ask now really confused.
"You and Josh." He answers.
"Yes, what about him?" I ask
"That's just it! America I know about you two!" He yells at me. I'm astounded by his tone
"Maxon! Nothing is going on between us?!" I scream right back.
"Really then explain these pictures!" He says throwing two photos at me. I pick them up off the ground and take a look at them.
Ones a photo of when Josh had caught me when I fell and the other is one of him putting me down. Just they didn't look like that. It looked like we had strong feelings for each other and that he was holding me tightly and goofing off.
"What the? Who the hell gave you these?" I yell now very angered.
"Kriss!" He yells back clearly also angered 'that bitch' I mutter
"and obviously she's more trust-worthy than you!" He yells
"What the hell Maxon?" I yell now hurt "what was I supposed to say?! 'Oh Maxon, when I was running to ask Josh a question before he left I fell down the stairs and he caught me?!'" I snarl at him.
"Yea I doubt you fell down the stairs!" He growls
"Oh I'm sure Kriss didn't show you the rest of the photos now, right?" I yell.
"No and she doesn't need too!" He yells
"Ya of course she doesn't!" I scream on the verge of tears now "I can't believe your second guessing my feelings!" I yell now ashamed he thinks this.
"Ya I think you have and had none for me!" He mutters.
"Are you serious?!" I scream. "Are you trying to break me down on purpose or is this just your plan before you send me on my way so you can be with that bitch you've loved since the beginning!"
"I did and do-"
I cut him off "DON'T TELL ME YOU DON'T!" I scream "if you didn't this would be over by now" I finish off.
"Well it's hard to make a descion not knowing how the other person feels" he snarls.
"You know damn well how I feel and felt" I growl at him.
"Really cause I don't see it" he says looking back out my window.
"Oh ok, what about my songs" I scream ripping out the piece of paper the song I just began writing on and fold it and hold it in my hand. I look at my notebook and see it leaked threw and that there (thankfully) were two copies.
"Probably fake" he spits at me.
"Get the hell out of my room!" I scream not wanting to hear him anymore.
"No" he says "I won't, not this time."
"I don't care what you want! Get out" I yell
He just sits there stubbornly.
"Go" I say at a slightly less harsh tone with tears streaming down my face, trying to clam down.
"Nope"
"Am I going to have to call As- my guards?" I say hoping that'll get him out, knowing Aspen would do it for me.
"Why? Why should I leave?" He yells
"Because..." I say pausing knowing I don't want to say the rest. "So I can enjoy my last night alone." I finish tears streaming down my face.
"Who says I'm going to eliminate you?" He says harshly.
"Who says I'm staying?" I say back making him speechless.
After a while he speaks up.
"I'm not letting you leave"
"You can't stop me." I say "now go"
He gets up finally.
"Fine" he says reaching the door and when he does I say
"Oh wait, here" I hand him the folded piece of paper "that should tell you how I felt, if you didn't believe me. Now go on your way"
He just looks at me and opens the door.
"Make sure to kiss Kriss on your way" I say spinning around.
"America" he says upset and annoyed
"Go, Aspen please help him if you must" I say not turning around.
"Yes America I shall" Aspen said.
"Whatever" Maxon said walking away.
When he's gone I fall to the floor in tears.
I feel strong arms touch my shoulders.
"I can't believe that's who you loved after me' I hear Aspen say.
"Oh Aspen!" I say turning to give him a hug "you don't know How much I've missed you," I sniffle "man was I stupid."
"It's ok, so was I" he says.
"Thanks, I hope you find someone who can really love you" I say squeezing him tighter.
"I'm sure I will" he says.
"In case I never see you again," I say crying harder "know I'll miss you"
"I'll see you again, and I'll miss you forever and always." He says "just don't go too far"
I laugh and we sit there hugging each other for a while. We both decide he should probably get back to his post and I'm left alone again.
My crying has given up a little so i decide to play some songs.
'I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people, and sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't breathe without you
But I have to.
Breathe without you
But I have to.'
Tears flow down my face.
'Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
People are people, and sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't breathe without you
But I have to.
Breathe without you
But I have to.'
More tears...
'It's two A.M.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me.
It's two A.M.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me.
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
Ohhh
And I can't breathe without you
But I have to.
Breathe without you
But I have to.
Breathe without you
But I have to.
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry"
I finish out and put my head down and cry and cry. Why is this happening.
I don't know if I can take this heart break anymore.
A/n
The same as at the beginning please please please review and tell me Theo or Josh, I have an Idea as to who but want to know what you guys want, so pleaseeeee tell me!
Anyways next chapter is going to be longggg either as long as this or longer. I hope you'll enjoy it! It's going to be big!
Hope you enjoyed this chapter!