Dear Diary,
Sometimes I wish I could just disappear, just blend in with the wall and no one would ever see me, turn invisible so in class people only see an empty chair. That would be perfect. I know Harry used to have an invisibility cloak but he would never let me use it… not anymore at least. Most of the time he just glances at me, nods, and then quickly looks away. Out of all the people in this school, he should understand humiliation and vicious gossip, but even he pulled away from me. I'm better off without him though. Sacrificing myself in his place wasn't good enough for him, it proved nothing, not about how I feel about him, not about what I would do for him, not anything. It proved that he would run at the opening I gave him and leave me.
It's not like I care anymore though… There are other guys… Maybe one boy here looks at me and doesn't think I'm disgusting or pathetic. I dated dean for a few weeks last year, but he wasn't even true. All he thought about was what he could get if he pretended to care about me. I see him around sometimes, but it's always a distasteful sight.
It's only the second month of school. And can't seem to shake the feeling that more is going to happen this year. I keep having the same dream. It's always a snake, a silver green shining snake slithering towards me. I'm always scared of this snake but soon it gently wraps itself around me in a comforting way. Then as people approach me, ready to mock me, the snake lunges and protects me. I ask the snake what it's name is, and then I wake up.
The only person who talks to me is Luna. She's sweet to everyone, but just like me, everyone tries to stay away from her. I wish I had more friends. I wish I could be like everyone else. I wish there was something I could do. Maybe I can fix myself. Maybe I can show people that I'm not who they think I am, that I'm not who they say I am.
I'll try to change myself.