Ch. 21
~warning can be some harsh language in this chapter~
Maxon's POV
She's kissing me. She has memory back and she's kissing me. It feels so right.
Suddenly I feel her pull away.
"Holy shit Maxon!" She whines
"What?" I ask
" what the hell did I just do?"
"Kiss me?" I ask as if it weren't obvious.
"No shit" she says not catching the joking tone I had.
"Language young lady!" I scold "Effie would be disappointed" I laugh slightly but stop when I see her face.
"Shut up" she groans
"Okay fine"
"What am I going to do?" She sighs
"Uh leave England and come back to Illea with me?" I Say a little too hopeful.
She doesn't say anything and my hope plummets gradually. It then goes down even more when she breaks the silence saying
"I can't do that"
"W-what?" I barely whimper out.
"I can't. As much as I won't too, I can't. It just it wouldn't be fair to everyone, to him" she says. I feel my face twist in disgust when she says she's not going to leave because of him.
"So your saying your staying here because of that douche of a prince, who stole you away from me?" I nearly scream.
"No! Maxon I'm staying because I left my life to you behind and now have loyalties her." She whispers.
"Fuck loyalties" I say shocked it came out of my mouth. I'm a prince did I really just say that? I need loyalties.
"Don't say that you know you need them as much as I do!" She yells
"What loyalties do you even have?" I ask viciously.
"I don't know with Josh? With England? What about my tour Maxon?" She says. I nearly forgot about the damn tour she has to go on.
"You can tour in Illea." I say
"I can't I have a schedule here, and all the shows are nearly sold out." She says
"I can come with make alliances with rulers were your tour is" I say trying to come up with reasons to have her be with me.
"You can't. I can't. Maxon..." She says not finishing her sentence.
"Please America. I love you" i say grabbing her hand, and looking into her eyes.
"Maxon the selection is still on. It would be stupid for me to come back after leaving and josh and all" she says nearly breaking into tears right in front of me.
"No it wouldn't, America when it comes to you it's not stupid." I say.
"Maxon I can't. I just I can't."
"So your choosing him?" I say hurt.
"No Maxon, I'm not choosing him or you... I'm choosing me" she sobs out.
I don't say anything as I stare into her eyes. I see the beautiful blue eyes full of hurt and almost love.
"Maxon just know I do love you. And I will always be there." She says dropping my hand and walking off down the hall.
I just lost everything I ever loved.
And in that moment my heart breaks into a million pieces as I storm down the hall looking for something-someone.
AMERICA'S POV
When I reach my room I break down completely. Tears stream down my face as I change out of my beautiful gown.
I throw it on my bed as I change into light wash skinny jeans and a little to big sweater.
I grab my suitcases and begin throwing everything I have Inside of them.
As Im close to finishing I hear a knock on my door.
"Who is it?" I call.
"Theo" I hear moments later.
After debating for a moment I decide to let him in. He looks around silently as I open the door.
"Leaving again?" He asks clearly amused, yet confused
"Yes" i say not sparing a glance as I begin packing my things again.
"Is your amnesia gone?" He asks.
"Yes" I answer again vaguely
"Ah I see. So why are you leaving then?" He ask walking over and helping me neatly fold my clothes.
"Because I can't be here anymore" I answer
"Why not?" He says folding my favorite sweater.
"Because I love Maxon, but have loyalties with Josh now. I can't hurt anybody so I'm leaving. I have my tour anyways." I say
"Well" he says pausing a moment before sitting down next to me. "I don't see why you would want to leave if you already know, and found the one you love."
"Because of Josh" I say,
"The only way this make sense is if your scared to hurt Josh." He says "I'm sure he'd understand"
"I guess, but still" I say
"But still what?"
"I don't know"
"You never really loved josh did you?" He asks suddenly breaking g me f my thoughts.
I think about everything we've been through and how there Never really were any sparks, as were with Maxon I felt safe and amazing.
"No" I mumble
"I knew it" he says
"What? How ? Liar, there's no way!" I yell
"Yes, yes there is." He starts "I can see it in your eyes, your attitude, it was all different then when you were with Maxon"
"So?" I ask
"You love Maxon and your leaving him."
"I can't help it I have other things to do" I say shuddering at how cold hearted I sound.
"You sound so cold hearted America, it doesn't suit you" he says as if reading my mind.
"I know" I say standing up. "Well I'm done packing I should really go catch my plane"
"Okay" he says standing up "oh and by the way do you mind if I tag along?" He asks
"No, I guess not." I say
"Good cause I was coming either way since I have a plane ticket myself" he says
"Oh by the way where is Maxon?" I ask curiously
"He left" he answers not looking at me.
"W-what?" I say
"Yep talked to his dad, then decided to leave."
"How do you know?" I ask
"I'm the boys best friend. He came and said goodbye." The says to me.
"What did he say to his dad?" I ask.
"Told him to end the selection because he didn't love any of them and couldn't imagine spending his life with them. He also say to his dad that he won't be back for a while, but not to worry. " he says every word breaking me again and again.
'Stupid your the one who left him in the first place.' I think to myself knowing its true.
"So he's gone?" I ask
"Yea, pretty much. Left about a half hour ago." He says.
"Wait what about Illea? They need him?" I say panicking.
"Don't worry about Illea. King Clarkson and Queen Amberly are gonna rule a little longer then they expected, no big deal" he says shrugging it off.
"Oh god" i say
"Here we are" he says as we reach the cab out front.
I step inside leaving everything I thought I knew behind...again.
And soon enough were off and heading towards the airport for my first destination of my concert.
JOSH'S POV
"Excuse me sir" i say to a butler
"Yes your majesty?" They ask politely.
"Have you seen Lady America" I ask.
"Ay yes, in fact I have" they say looking down at the floor.
"What's wrong?" I ask
"She left about 10 minutes ago."
What? That's news. It hit me like a Bullet. But I'm surprised I'm not on the floor in tears.
"Infact Prince Maxon has also left" they continue.
What? Of course she'd leave with Maxon.
"But they didn't leave together" they finish.
They both left but not together? What is going on?
AMERICAS POV
~a week later~
Today's my first show. Oh my god I'm so nervous.
"There you go, sweetie" the elderly women says, who was helping me get ready.
I look down at my outfit. It's beautiful. It reminds me of the work that Anne, Mary, and Lucy used to do.
It's a dress that falls right about my knees. The top is black and has cap sleeves. The back of the top has sparkles all over while the front is just plain besides the sparkles on the shoulders. The bottom flows out into a creamy white color, with fabric made out of soft fabric like the kind used on wedding gowns. (The big ball gown type) And finally a black belt is placed around my tiny waist.
"Wow" i say "it's amazing thanks."
I throw on a pair of black flats and take a quick glance in the mirror.
I have on light makeup besides the bright red lipstick and my hair is down my back in simple, pretty waves.
"Your on in a minute" a tech person says next to me.
"Okay" i say as they walk me to the place under the stage, where they hook up my microphone and sound pack.
"Thanks" I mumble. As I hear the crowd go nuts out there.
The person gives me a kind smile before counting down.
"5...4..."
Suddenly all my nerves hit me. I've practiced this performance so any times I know what I'm supposed to do by heart but I'm still scared. Well I mean who wouldn't be? Theres a Ton of people out there.
"3...2.."
Calm yourself down. I think. Theo will be back stage waiting for you when your done. Thank god I have a friend like him.
"...1..." They say "your on"
The platform starts lifting up as the words "please welcome America Singer" boom through the stadium. I know pretty impressive I sold out a stadium in my first performance.
When I am up fully onstage I'm amazed by all the people-the fans. Who came to see the girl who once was in Illeas selection, the girl who once held Josh's heart, and the one who could sing like no one else.
I give a wave and a huge smile as I say
"Hi everyone!"
Applause erupts everywhere
"Well this is my first concert so bare with me" I say jokingly
They all erupt in laughter and more applause.
"Well lets get this started then" I say as the band starts playing the opening to 'Enchanted'
I'm nearly done with the concert when I see them. They look just like him.
In the front row of the stadium is a person who looks just like Maxon. Same chocolate brown eyes and golden hair. The only thing different is his clothes. He's not all dressed up in a suit and tie, but rather jeans and a grey t-shirt, that yes shows off his toned body.
'America your seeing things' I think to myself.
I have to be, I must be.
A/n
Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I feel bad. Well I hope you enjoyed this. Please no hate. And yes It's supposed to be more modern-timed but with like Illea and all. So ya hope you enjoyed I should be updating soon again. And I think I am going to start another story! Yay!
Bye
DISCLAIMER:all rights go to Kiera Cass for writing and owning the selection trilogy and to Taylor Swift for the songs/quotes I use! Also to Veronica Roth I use a character of hers and some quotes. And also now to Suzanne Collins for some characters and quotes I use!