I'm back! I know that its been a while but I've just been on a bit of a break. I'm back now but I don't know how often I'll update, I'll guess that we'll just have to wait and see. I would also like to say that I love all of my readers who have always stood behind me and motivated me to keep writing, so thank you all so much! Oh by the way sorry for any grammatical mistakes.

Betrayal. The word that describes everything that I'm feeling. How could she do this to me? She told me that she wasn't going to do this and what does she do? She decides to go and put her life in danger. She isn't ready for the games, and I'm not ready to see her in there, and I don't think that I ever will be.

I needed to know that she would always be safe, and now I couldn't be sure. I closed my eyes and let out a deep breath. I felt the cold wind on my face, I listened to the low thrum of the city, and I sighed. If only life could be easier. We were to young for all of this. I wish we were young again.

We were so innocent, locked away from the evil from the world around us, instead of right in the middle of it. We ran around without a care in the world, we were free. Now things are so much different. Things aren't that easy anymore.
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The snow had already begun to melt by the time Kat and I had begun to solve things. Things between Katniss and I had been rocky, most of our conversations ended in fights, and now the reaping was fast approaching. I knew that I didn't want her to go into the games, but what could I do, other than accept the fact that this was the only option.

I heard the front door open and close, and I knew that it was now or never. Taking a second to prepare myself I slowly rose up from my chair and walked over to Kat's bedroom and gave the door a quick knock. The door slowly creaked open, and I stepped inside the room readying myself for what was yet to come.

the atmosphere in the room was awkward to say the least. "Hey..." was the only thing I could think to say.

"Hi" she replied.

"Look Kat I know you want to do this, but you can't. You don't understand what it's like being in there. Why are you doing this? You don't need to show everyone how great you are they all already know it." I whispered hoping that it would change her mind

"that's why you think I'm doing this" she yelled,"I'm doing this for you, it's always been for you. I want to understand the pain that you feel, I want to be able to help you, that's why I'm doing this."

I took a deep breath before I responded trying to calm myself down." Kat listen to me you don't need to go in there for me, if you even survive that arena you won't be the same person, the nightmares and the guilt they aren't worth it."

She stared at me, processing what I was saying," It's too late now, I've already been selected, the only choice we have now is to just prepare me so that I can win and come back to you."

I guess she was right, I mean what choice did I have, I'd rather help her than hurt her. "We start at eight am sharp." I whispered before walking out of the door.

Why couldn't she just understand that I just wanted what's best for her? I don't want her to have to go through what Clove and I went through. She does't understand what it's like to wake up every night wondering whats real and what isn't, or having to relive a horrible memory over and over again. If she goes into that arena, if she even comes out she'll never be the same person again.I guess she's truly is to stubborn for her own good. If only she could just see things from my perspective, then things would be so much easier.

As you all know I've taken some time off from writing, and in that time I've started a story on Wattpad and I would love if some of you would go and read it and tell me how you like it. It's called Not One Tear Shed, so please read it and well of course please continue to read this story too.