I´m back with a new chapter, but before you start reading it I want to tell you what I´m doing right now just as I´m about to start writing my next chapter. I am sitting here in my living room with my computer in my lap watching a Swedish documentary about the tsunami in Thailand 2004, it follows four people who all lost their entire family; husband/wife and children. As I'm sitting here watching it and crying I think about how incredibly lucky and blessed I am that I have a healthy husband and child. My new year's resolution is to not focus on the bad things in life but to realize and appreciate how incredibly lucky I am.

We broke the kiss and I put my head down on his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around me, we stayed like that for a few minutes. Just holding each other quietly. I sat back up on his stomach.

"What´s wrong?" He asked with a puzzled look on his face. I looked him deep in his eyes before I spoke.

"Are you sure you want to do this? Cause I can´t have my heart broken by you once again, if we decide to give this another try it has to be for real. You know, like let´s-get-married-and-grow-old-together serious" He raised an eyebrow at me and a huge grin started to appear on his face.

"You, Rose Hathaway, want to get married?"

"NO! Well, I don´t know, but that's beyond the point right now. All I´m saying is don´t break my heart one more time, cause if you do I´ll go strigoi on your as! Let´s go." I said as I stood up and pulled him with me.

"Where are we going?" he said as he followed me to the benches go get our bags.

"We are going to get coffee and donuts and then we are going to figure out how we are going to make this work this time around" We walked out the door towards a little café and then we headed back to my place. We sat down on the sofa in the living room.

"So how are we going to do this?" I didn´t want to waste any time, all I wanted was to throw myself at him and rip his clothes of and make up for all the years we´d spent apart. But before I did that I needed to know that this was for real.

"Well, I´m going to resign as well; I can´t protect anyone else fully, you´re the only one I want to protect. But just so you know, this, you and me, it won't be easy. Two dhampirs have never resigned to be together, it's against our nature. People are going to look down on us; they are going to talk about us, are you ready for that?"

"I am. As long as I end up with you, I´ll go through anything."

"Good, then we need to go talk to Lissa, and give her my resignation as a guardian. And hopefully she will give us her blessing"

"That might be easier said than done"

"Why?"

"Cause she was the one that picked up the pieces after you´d left." I said and had my eyes locked on my feet on the floor. Dimirti turned towards me and lifted my chin up with his finger.

"Then I´ll have to convince her that that will never happen again" he said softly and pulled me into his lap and kissed me softly. We sat like that for a while, I thought about what this decision meant for us and I think he did the same. He was going to give up his career for me, the career he had worked so hard for. Everyone was going to talk about us, some would think that us giving up our careers to be together was romantic but most of them would think of us as a disgrace. But I guess that was something we had to live with.

"Let´s get this over with" I said and stood up from his lap. I didn´t know how to feel about what was about to happen, one part of me was so incredibly happy about this but another part of me was really sad about the effect this was going to have on Dimitri, all the respect he had gained during his years as a guardian for the morois was about to disappear and be turned in to shame.

We walked out the door in a comfortable silence but I could tell that he was nervous. Lissa and I had spoken yesterday so I knew that she would be at home today, we headed over to her and Christians house. We both took a deep breath and looked at each other before I rang the doorbell. I heard someone walking towards the door, the door knob turned and the door opened.

Lissa had a smile on her face as she opened the door and saw me, then she saw who was with me and the smile disappeared.

"Hello Dimitri"

How do you think Lissa is going to react? How will Rose and Dimitri convince her that this time it is for real and will they succeed? What do you think? Let me know!

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