I've just come home from a very boring piano class :/ ALMOST forgot to upload, what's wrong with me!?

This chapter is a little bit stronger, sad. But it also shows how the relationship between Ally and Dougie grows. Little by little you'll know more about Ally's past.

P.S.: angry because I found something that remind me of someone whose ass I want to kick ¬¬

Ally's POV

I knew I was dreaming somehow, but my dreams had become a mix of my memories and fears, combine with the cruelty of imagination, so it didn't matter if I knew it wasn't real because it had been real before, I was being forced to live it all over again. Why was my own brain doing this to me, its owner?

I was running through dark alleys, followed by those I was betrayed, those who wanted to find me and torture me without knowing that my brain was already doing their job, those who would probably kill me if they found me.

At the end of the alley, a little boy with blond curls was standing alone, watching me as I run in his direction. I stopped running as soon as I saw him.

"You let them" he said "You let them do this to me"

I looked back as my hunters were coming closer, but I couldn't go an inch closer to the boy, and there was no escape from the alley. It was either confronting those who wanted me dead or the boy who almost died because of me.

The moonlight was over the boy now and he begun to walk toward me. I could see the horrible scar on his face, a scar that was impossible to remove, it didn't matter if you found the best surgeons in the world.

"I swear," I said, my voice trembling "it wasn't my fault, I didn't want that, I told them not to. I swear"

"But you let them. You watched. You didn't stop them" he said "You are as bad as them"

And he repeated that. 'You are as bad as them'.

I looked around again and there they were, just inches away from, ready to take me back with them, forever this time.

I looked around confused, my eyes wide opened, breathing heavily. Dougie was on his knees next to me bed, holding my cheek and my hand. My face was wet, I could feel my skin was salty, I had been crying.

"Are you ok?" Dougie asked, his voice shocked "Do I call and ask for an ambulance"

I tried to control my breathing, but I didn't let to his hand.

"No…" I said "Please, don't"

"But you were crying and your face… was…" he didn't go on, his face was still shocked.

"It was a nightmare" I said to myself and closed my eyes trying to calm down "just a nightmare, Ally"

"Buy you seemed to have had hell of a nightmare" he said "I'd never seen someone act like that. Are you sure you are ok?"

"I never said I was…" I said as I opened my eyes.

I looked around again, now paying attention to what was surrounding me. Blink 182 posters, also Star Wars, and some bands I didn't know. This wasn't my bedroom; it was his.

"Oh, my God, my family!" I said and stood up so quickly that I got dizzy and almost fell, but Dougie caught me and made me sit on the bed again. They must be so worried, I didn't tell them I was staying here!

"Don't worry, they know you are here" he said "They came to look for you last night but they thought it was better to let you sleep in peace… Obviously that didn't happen"

"You should have woken me up" I said "Always wake me up"

"But you seemed so tired"

"It doesn't matter. Don't let me fall asleep" I said and put my arms around me.

He sat next to me on the bed and looked at my face.

"You look like shit" he said, I guessed trying to be funny, and I nodded "What was your nightmare about?"

"I can't tell you…" I said in a whisper too, not looking at him, I was too ashamed of what my nightmares made me remembered, the things that I've done or seen "And you don't want to know"

"Believe me, I do"

"No. Believe me... You don't"

I looked at him straight in the eyes.

"Oh, no, don't cry again, please, I'm not good at these kinds of things" he said and bitted his lower lip. I laughed a little bit at his face.

"Ok… But then make me think about something else please" I said "Quickly."

He looked around to get some ideas.

"Do you like Blink 182?"

"I believe that whoever doesn't like them it's a weirdo. And who's saying that it's a weirdo, confusing." I said and now he laughed.

"I agree with you. What about Star Wards?"

"I don't know, I've never been a fan… But it's not like I don't like them, I'm just not crazy about it"

"What's your favorite movie?"

"Well… I never know how to answer this question, I guess I'll choose two; Back To The Future and Nightmare Before Christmas. I know it's an old movie, but I'm in love with Jack and the last song when Sally and Jack sing together, it's just so cute."

"Well, I love Back To The Future too."

My stomach didn't a loud, weird noise and Dougie laughed.

"Sorry" I said blushing.

"No worries… I'm really hungry too. Shall we get something to eat?" he asked.

"Sure…"

"Just let me get change"

I know it may sound absolutely stupid, but until that moment I hadn't noticed he was just wearing boxers. I couldn't help checking his whole body, this was the first time I saw a boy without so many clothes and it wasn't a movie, it was real, he was standing right there. I just couldn't help it. He was marvelous… So… hot… I looked away quickly; I didn't want him to catch me staring at him like that.

While he was putting his clothes on, I found myself staring at him from time to time without even being conscious of it. I was 17 and I'd never kissed a boy or do anything because I tried to avoid feeling anything for anyone, but I was free now, at least free to watch, and Dougie Poynter was someone I seemed to really like and enjoy watching.