sorry for the wicked little cliffie! But I thought it would be super nice to end with some tastiness and to begin with some more!
This is a bit of a fluffy lemonade chapter, just FYI. I hope it lives up to your expectations-I'm always super nevous about writing these things! I'm not very graphic, but still...
As soon as I said those two words, all of Bella's walls came tumbling down. She was so used to being turned away that it was almost a natural reaction for her. And if she needed any more proof that I wasn't Edward, this was it. I was not going to turn her away, when I desired her so. And with the lust radiating from her, I wasn't sure that I could even if I wanted to.
She gasped wildly into my mouth and tried to pull me closer to her. If this had been any other girl, I would want to take this slow-this first time. But Bella was different-she didn't want to take it slow. She was so full of passion and energy all the time it was only natural for her to throw her abandon away with this act as well. I let my hand continue its path under her shirt, pulling it off in the process. She clutched my shirt, hands shaking as she tried to undo the buttons. Unable to help myself, I flung my shirt off, not giving her the chance. I needed to feel her skin against my skin-now. Quickly I reached behind her back, giving her bra a flick of my wrist and throwing it to the side. This Bella was not shy. She let me take her in, watching me with interest. I couldn't help but stare for a moment.
I ran my hands very carefully over the peak of her left breast, watching the skin pebble from my temperature and contact. She let out a little sound-almost a mew-at my touch. It was glorious, knowing that I was the one doing this to her. I mimicked the motion on the other side, and she mewed again. Her scent was weighed down with desire as it floated around the room, intoxicating me. And I knew that I had never been in more control of my bloodlust until this moment. I kissed my way down her neck, into the crook of her shoulder, and down further. I let my tongue run around her nipple, carefully flicking the center after two full circles. Bella's face was flushed and she was panting-a low growl slid through my teeth at this new noise. I continued to trail little kissed down her abdomen, stopping just above her waistband. Her smell…it was divine. I felt her hands grabbing fistfuls of my hair as she whispered one word-"more…"
I could wait no longer.
In one quick movement I removed both her pants and underwear. Again, I had to stop and look. I thought in all my years that I had seen beauty, but I was wrong. This woman beneath me-flushed, panting, and moving into my touch-this was beauty. Nothing again would ever compare. I moved back up to where we were face to face and began kissing her again as I ran my hands around her most private place. The warmth was unlike anything I'd ever experienced. And knowing she was this wet for me nearly drove me over the edge. Tenderly I moved one finger inside of her, again assaulted by the feeling, and began moving it in a rhythmic pace. She tensed up at first, but quickly melted into the feeling. Her desire was out of control now. I slid another finger in, preparing her for what was to come. "Oh!" she cried softly as I kissed the sides of her mouth. I was insane with need, and I had to have her now.
"Bella…I want you. I need you." I said into the crook of her neck. She didn't say anything, only nodding to my silent question. I slipped out of my jeans and boxers and positioned myself between her legs. I moved myself to her entrance and looked her straight in the eyes. "I want you to grab my hair and pull when I tell you to." I told her. I wanted her to have an outlet for the pain she would experience. She moved her mouth to my neck and began kissing me as I entered her. She wasn't feeling nervous at all. "Now, Bella!" I said as I pushed myself into her fully. I felt her small mouth grimace as she fisted my hair. She only let out a small cry of pain. I gave her a moment to adjust, and then I began moving within her. It was magnificent. She was warm, and tight, and her muscles responded to every move I made. After a moment she began moving with me, her hands still wrapped in my hair. I assaulted her neck and throat with my tongue as my hands ran the length of her torso and back again. I circled her nipples with my fingers as she ground into me, crying out. Every now and then she would moan my name. I pinched one of her nipples in between my fingers, finally sending her over the edge. She clenched around me, arching her back as she filled the room with the feeling of release. The sensation was too much, and I let myself go inside of her, crying out her name.
I collapsed onto the bed next to her as she rolled to cuddle with me.
"Holy crow, Jasper, wow," she muttered, trying to catch her breath. I laughed.
"Holy crow indeed, little lady. That was the most incredible thing I've ever experienced in my entire life-human or otherwise." I said as I circled my arm around her shoulders.
"You're just saying that," she replied, but I saw the smirk on her face.
"Absolutely not. It was magnificent. So tell me," I said jokingly, "did I live up to your standards?" She snorted and turned her head to look at me.
"I didn't even have standards until now. So you kind of set the bar pretty high," she chuckled.
"Don't go getting any ideas." I kissed her forehead. She got up and moved into the bathroom, returning a few moments later in another set of pajamas.
"If I wasn't tired before, I'm exhausted now," she said as she curled herself under the covers and closed her eyes.
"I'll let you get some sleep then. I'm going to hop in the shower and then wait for the others." She nodded, very nearly asleep. After my shower, I went and sat in the living room, flicking through the channels until the others finally came home. Of course Emmett would be first. He walked in, looked at me, sniffed the air and grinned.
"Details. Now." He said, pushing me aside on the couch. I rolled my eyes.
"No, Emmett. I don't think Bella would like me disrespecting her privacy like that." Like that would work. He snorted.
"Either you tell me, or I'll ask her myself in the morning." Of course he would.
"I'll tell you what. When we get home, I'll call you first thing. But I'm not going to tell you anything here. And please don't embarrass her; you know how upset she can get."
"Fine. But if I don't hear from you, I'll call." He marched upstairs following Rosalie, who didn't even glance in my direction. Carlisle and Esme came in a few seconds later and joined me on the couch.
"Did you and Bella enjoy your alone time?" Esme asked, grinning at me.
"Yes, thank you. Bella really needed this little vacation after what happened last week. She took her conversations with Alice and Edward very seriously."
"I was meaning to ask you about that," Carlisle said as he turned towards me. "How did it go? We knew Alice was keeping something from us, but we could have never imagined it was of this magnitude."
"I didn't know either. But all things considered it went very well. She was open and honest with both of us, and we were with her. We'll be friends again someday. Bella loves her, and she doesn't blame Bella for what happened." I smiled, thinking about Alice's kind nature.
"That's good to hear. And Edward?"
"Edward…was as expected. He was very upset, and hasn't spoken with me yet-Alice thought it would be better to wait. Bella told him everything. He was not happy, but he accepted it coming from her. He'll always love her, that much is certain. But we'll see him again. He and Alice are off together somewhere, helping each other cope." Esme smiled sadly, and she was feeling sad. I assumed she was missing two of her children.
"He'll be okay one day. It was a hard blow for him to take." I nodded.
"Jasper?" Esme said, looking at me with worry. I looked back at her questioningly. "Are you going to change Bella? If that's what she wants?" Ahh-she was worried I would leave her as well, and she didn't want to lose her human daughter.
"If that's what she wants. Which is something I wanted to talk to you about, Carlisle. I'd like to do it here, with you all with us. I don't want Bella waking up alone. I haven't spoken with her about it yet, but I plan to very soon. Now that we're past all of the other issues, I think it's something I'm comfortable bringing up."
"Of course, you're more than welcome to stay here. Bella will need all the help she can get afterwards. She's like a daughter to me. When are you planning on asking her?" Carlisle said.
"Tomorrow, I think. It's as good a time as any."