Okay, I did this a bit differently than most people. I see Bella's first hunt from her POV-this is from Jaspers. And something happens in this chapter that I bet some of you may not like, but please don't crucify me!

And thank you for the reviews-please keep them coming! And nobody guessed where I got the chapter title for the last chapter-but I didn't tell you to so it's my fault. It's from Buffy the Vampire Slayer-the episode called 'Once More with Feeling.' I heart Buffy.

It was very difficult to find words to describe my immortal Bella. She was beautiful, of course, but she always was. It was like all the wonderful things about her appearance were heightened. She was trying very hard to be calm, and pay attention to what she was doing. I tried to make it as easy as possible on her by taking things slow. I could see the wonder in her eyes when she looked at me, and the fear. But I expected that. She didn't look upset, so I wasn't going to draw attention to it. It was decided that Emmett, Carlisle and I would accompany her on the first hunt-for guidance and for safety. She was reluctant as we headed towards the door.

"I am…frightened." She stated. Her hand reached for mine, and I took it-how odd it was that her skin was the same as mine! Her red eyes were frowning.

"Don't worry. Now, you're the most dangerous thing in the woods. And it will come naturally to you-you'll see. And if you have questions, that's what we're here for. Would you like to watch me first?" Bella had never been allowed to see any of us hunt, for fear of losing control around her. I think part of her realized this fact, and that didn't help ease her insecurities. She nodded, though, and followed us into the woods. We went a few miles out into open air.

I tugged her hand, motioning for her to stop. "Watch," I mouthed. I closed my eyes and tilted my head skyward, taking in all the scents around me. Nothing out of the ordinary, really-trees, grass…elk. I looked at Bella. "Do you smell that?" I asked, motioning to the North. She tentatively sniffed, and then wrinkled her nose. I smiled, realizing how absolutely unappealing that would smell to her.

"I don't want to eat that," she whined, her face still a mask of disgust.

"Sorry, sugar, but that's all there is." I would take down a small one quickly, so not to stir the herd, and then let her have a go. Carlisle and Emmett hung back, just there for support. I took it down quickly and quietly, pulling it to the side. The others didn't even flinch. I grinned, smug. Bella watched me the whole time, and I could tell she wasn't as afraid as before. Her natural instincts were kicking in. "Now you go. Do what feels natural. I'm going to sit with Carlisle and Emmett, and when you're finished we'll go back to the house. Take as many as you like," I said to her, motioning to the rest of the herd in the clearing. I knew she wouldn't want me to hover, she was more comfortable trying it on her own. She nodded.

Carlisle was smiling at me when I joined him. He was radiating joy at finally having another daughter-he felt his family was complete now. If only the rest of them would join… "She's doing well, Jasper," he said as we watched her take down her first elk. She was horribly messy, of course, but that was to be expected. Her nose was wrinkled, but she was drinking. I turned my attention back to Carlisle.

"She's feeling better all the time. She's trying very hard to pay attention to everything and not let herself become overwhelmed. She--"

"Guys?" Emmett interrupted. I put one finger up in an attempt to finish my sentence.

"She's going to have a lot of questions when we get back, I'm sure—" Emmett was yanking my arm now.

"I hate to interrupt your conversation here, but Bella took off," he said, not at all concerned. My head whipped back towards the clearing, and sure enough she was gone. What was I thinking, taking my eyes off her?! The three of us headed to where she was last seen, and I inhaled a deep breath.

Two things about what I smelled seriously alarmed me. The first scent was human. The second sent was Bella, heading in that direction. Eyes wide, I turned to Carlisle. He noticed it too.

"What's a human doing all the way out here!?" I yelled, taking off in the direction of the scent.

"It's far for a hike, but not unheard of. A hiker probably felt like seeing something beyond the trail. I just hope…" The fear he was feeling finished his sentence. I just hope we're in time. We ran, and I couldn't believe how fast she was! I haven't dealt with a newborn in so long. This was my fault.

"There!" Emmett shouted, and I turned to follow him. The first thing I saw was the back of Bella's head. Thank God, I thought. I was preemptive. Not in time. She turned to us and her eyes were wide with horror. Her body was wracked with would-be sobs as her eyes turned to the hiker at her feet.

"I…couldn't…I didn't mean…I couldn't stop!" she cried between breaths. Her hands were covering her face now, and they were covered in blood. I ran to her and pulled her in my arms.

"Shhh…It's my fault, Bella, my fault. I should have been watching you. I wasn't paying enough attention. It's okay…" I crooned, trying to calm her down.

"It's not okay, Jasper! I killed him! And I haven't even been awake for 6 hours! What's wrong with me?!" her panic was shooting through, mixed in with a great deal of anger. This was what being a newborn was all about.

"Nothing is wrong with you, do you understand me? It's part of it. You will learn to control it, but you can't expect to just wake up and have our control. We've all made mistakes-look at me! Most of us have slipped. Even Esme." She looked up at me then.

"Esme? Really?" she turned towards Carlisle for confirmation.

"In a situation much like this, as a matter of fact," he began. "You see, it was only Edward and I then, and I was smug enough to think I could take her out on my own. She got away from me, and I didn't reach her in time. She was quite upset. I'm sure she'd be more than happy to speak to you about it, if you like."

"I think I would." She was still clutching onto me.

"Bella, honey? Are you still thirsty?" I had to ask. I didn't want her to be uncomfortable, although I knew she probably wouldn't be after having a human.

"No." she answered.

"Let's go back home then, alright?" She nodded into my chest. We took it slow. Bella was moping of course, and I couldn't blame her. Even though she made this choice, I don't think she really knew what it entailed. She only saw the side of us that we presented now: well controlled (mostly) and 'vegetarian.' She never saw us in the beginning, when we were only bloodthirsty and raging. It was a phase we all had to go through, and unfortunately I let her pay the ultimate price.

Surprisingly, Esme was waiting for us on the porch, looking and feeling worried. Almost as if she knew…

"Alice called," she said, answering my thoughts. Of course Alice would have seen this. "She said Bella was going to need me when she got back." She looked at Bella and opened her arms. Bella didn't hesitate as she ran forward into them. "I'm so sorry you had to go through that, darling," she said as she stroked her hair and went inside. Bella's body was wracked with dry sobs again as she moved with Esme. I turned to Emmett.

"Would you mind…" I trailed off as my eyes motioned to where we'd just been.

"Nope-I'm on it." And he was off. We needed to clean up our little 'accident' quickly, and I didn't want to leave in case Bella needed me. The phone in my pocket buzzed, breaking me out of my reverie. Alice.

"Alice, thank you. I didn't want to have to explain in front of Bella again-it was nice of you to let Esme know ahead of time."

"No problem. I couldn't help it, really, when I saw what happened. Nice job paying attention, by the way." I frowned again at my misjudgment. "But that's not why I'm calling. I want to come home, Jasper. I miss everyone."

"Why are you telling me this, though? It's your home too." Sometimes her motives were beyond me.

"I wanted to make sure it was okay with you…and Bella. I don't want to make her uncomfortable."

"What?! Alice, honestly! Bella loves you. She'd probably be more worried about making you uncomfortable. In fact, I think she'd be happy to see you right now. She needs a girlfriend, and all she has is Rosalie." Alice's musical chuckle came through the other end.

"Great. I'll be leaving tonight, then." One thing was bothering me.

"And Edward?" I asked. She hesitated.

"He's going to wait a few weeks-let me get settled. He also wants Bella to be comfortable with the idea, and with her so new it probably wouldn't be. Once she's established a bit more, then he'll come home. He said as soon as we call him, he'll be there."

"Good idea. Bella is still talking with Esme right now, but as soon as she's finished I'll let everyone know. I'll see you soon." The phone clicked and I knew she'd hung up. Bella would be happy, I was sure. And Esme and Carlisle missed her terribly, so they would be thrilled. Even I looked forward to having us all back together again. Mostly.

Bah! I'm sorry. Not really. The way I see it, Bella would be the same as any newborn-I dont' believe she'd be the first one ever with super self-control. What fun is that?! It's only fair, in my book-if you've read my other story, A Favor, you'd know this. And don't worry-I'll give Bella a power-one power!-but in a bit. She's still all confused and such.