Doug's POV

I didn't stop kissing Frankie for one single moment the next day. I asked her to come home, I told her I wasn't feeling ok, and since she arrived, I couldn't get my arms off her. Kissing Ally last night had been awesome, I couldn't deny it, but the guilt was also a strong feeling; it intoxicates every single corner of your mind, it doesn't wait and it doesn't go away, no matter how long you wait or how much you wish for it. We spend that whole Sunday on bed. I didn't pick up the phone; Harry and Tom tried to call me twice. I didn't eat; I was too busy taking care of my girlfriend. I didn't answer the door; it was probably Harry looking for me. I didn't care, I was a cheater and I was trying to make it up to her, even if she didn't know… And she wasn't going to find out, not ever. I wasn't going to tell her, I couldn't, even if I had the need to shout it out loud, I couldn't say a word about it. As soon as I kissed Ally, I left the party and drove home like a lunatic. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror without feeling the need to hurt myself, though I didn't, I wasn't that mad.

I'd made Ally promise me that she'd wait for me… Which meant that I had promised her in some way that I would be with her sooner or later… Which meant I would leave Frankie. I felt awful about it too; I'd somehow promised to get rid of my girlfriend. I couldn't believe how selfish and cruel I'd become, how compulsive and stupid I'd been last night… And now I was going to have to talk to Ally, I had to tell her last night was a mistake… It'd been my favorite mistake ever, the most beautiful and delicious mistake of my entire life, but still a mistake. I had to tell her, I couldn't hesitate anymore, I couldn't have them both and I was already Frankie's boyfriend. I would miss Ally's kisses a lot; well, I'd only had the chance to kiss her once but it had been incredible. But I knew it had to be our first and last kiss… I felt she had been made for me, but I had been made for Frankie.

"I see you missed me a lot last night" Frankie said smiling, she had a beautiful smile.

"You don't even imagine how much" I said.

"Doug, I was thinking that maybe we could move together"

I didnt say anything as she moved her finger up and down my chest.

"We dont have to do it if you dont want, it was just an idea"

"No, no, I think it's a great idea" I said quickly "You can move here, I like this house very much"

She smiled and kissed my cheek, which felt awesome. I wasnt too sure about this whole thing, but if it made her happy, I'd do it, I owe her that and many more. I couldnt complain about anything anymore, I felt like a bastard the whole time and I couldnt even think in not trusting her anymore, I would believe every single thing she said to me right now.

I was scared Ally would tell anyone about what happened last night, so I drove to her house as soon as Frankie left to the recording studio where her bandmates were waiting for her. Her mum took me to her bedroom, Ally was there lying on the bed watching TV. She was looking beautiful but I tried my best to focus, her beauty could distract me very easily.

"Hi, Doug" she said, she looked surprised to see me, but still she smiled a little bit to me, she must had benn happy to see me and it made things harder "What are you doing here?"

"I need to talk to you, it's very important" I said. I was already nervous, I knew this was going to hurt her and that was something I'd never planned, I didnt want to do it, but I had to if I wanted to be a goof boyfriend, I had to do it.

"What is it? Is everythig ok?"

"No... Last night I made you promise me something..."

"That I would wait for you"

"Yes... Well, I dont want you to wait for me. I cant be with you, Ally. This is not who I am, I'm not a cheater, I love my girlfriend and I dont belong with you. I'm sorry I kissed you and I'm really sorry if this is going to hurt you, but I cant be with you"

Her little cute smile disappeared and I whised I was blind so I didnt have to see her like that. She closed her eyes for a moment and when she opened them, it was like I could feel the anger, but most of all sadness, inside them. She threw me a pillow and that let me know I was right, she was angry.

"How could you make me promise me something like that and then walk away so fast? You are a stupid coward, Poynter!"

"I'm sorry, I didnt want this to happen, I just felt so bad after I kissed you. Ally, I cheated on my girlfriend, that is a bad thing!"

"You feel attached to her only by guilt, if you really loved, you wouldnt have kissed me! If you didnt have feelings for me, you wouldnt have been jealous of Robert!"

"She's moving to my house in a couple of weeks I think, I dont know, we've just planned it"

"And why are you telling me that? I dont want to know! You shouldnt be with her! Your friend dont like her, your family dont like her... She manipulates you, Dougie!"

"Who do you think you are to talk about relationships? You've never had one! And you talk about manipulating? You make everybody believe you are an angel while you keep secrets from everybody, even us, your friends! You are just as bad as me or her"

We were both breathing heavily. She was fighting back tears and I couldnt stand to see her like that, it was too hard for me and I knew it was probably even harder for her. I was the one who had to carry the blame but she was the one who ended up lonely at the end of the story.

"I'm sorry" I said really quietly.

"Sorry's not good enough, Dougie, you should know that by now"

"I'm trying to do what's right"

"No, you are trying to convince yourself that you are evil for following your heart. You are acting under the influence of guilt. Maybe you are right, you dont belong with me if you cant see that"

"Can we at least be friends?" I felt my own tears approaching my eyes.

"I dont know..." she bitted her lip and the put her hands over her face "Leave, Dougie... Please, leave me alone"

"But I promised you I'd never leave you alone"

"What the hell does it matter now? You never meant what you said. Dont make promises you cant keep"

I put my hand in the handle of the door and looked back at her once more.

"I do love you, you know that, dont you?" I said softly.

"How dare you tell me that now!?" she said racing her head "Leave my room, NOW!"

I closed the door behind me and ran to my car, not even paying attention to Ally's mum's worried look as I ran by her. I sat in my car for a moment and closed my eyes as I tried to control myself. I let a little tear run down my cheek, I needed to let go some pain at least. I'd miss Ally, everything about her. I was hoping we could be friends at least, though I knew very well that we could never had what we had before, I had ruined that and I was pretty sure Ally wasnt going to give me a second chance as her best-friend. I'd hurt her more than anyone, at least anyone I knew, I'd let her down after promising her a safety in my arms, I'd run away from her after promising her I'd always be there for her. But I was hoping that she didnt hate me as much as I thought she did, because it didnt matter how hard I tried to walk away from her, how hard I tried to be the best boyfriend ever, I already loved her and this was hurting me too.

'Forgive me' I thought 'Forgive me, Ally, forgive me... I love you so much' Another little tear run down my cheek. I looked at her bedroom's window, hoping she would be there, but she wasnt of course so I drove away, I left her, just as I'd promised I'd never would.

Dont worry, things will get better in a couple of chapters :)

Should stop playing 'Hollywood Monsters' and write more chapters, I'm already addicted to that game :/

Bye everyone.