After I completed this story, I got several requests for scenes that should have been put in. So I introduce to you Missing Moment #1! This is what Alice really saw. I have 3 more Missing Moments for you, including the wedding night and when Edward meets Elizabeth. They won't be long, but hopefully this will tie up any lingering feelings you had for the story.
I can't believe it. But the vision was so clear…
Jasper and Bella were riding a horse-they were in Texas on Jasper's land. The longer they rode, the more relaxed Bella became. Jasper was pulling her closer and closer, and his eyes were becoming darker and darker. Suddenly he stopped the horse, turned Bella around and jumped off the horse. He backed her into a tree and kissed her with such passion…
The vision morphed into later that same day.
"What are you thinking?" she asked, pulling her knees up to her chin.
"Honestly? What to do now. I care about you Bella, I truly do. But we've both been so hurt. I just don't know what the right thing is here." Honesty is the best policy, after all. She looked at me, thinking. I could feel nothing strange from her, so I didn't worry.
"I care about you too, Jasper. You know that much. And you know what I think? It's not our fault that they don't want us. We can't sit around and sulk forever, if it's not meant to be. I don't know about you, but I'm getting older every day, and I'm not going to spend it pining for something that…I have no control over. The way I see it, we work on our own time table. Who cares what the rules are? Look at us! I'm tired of looking out for everyone else. I want to look at for me. And if that means…being with you…then so be it." She huffed a little at the end, and I felt nothing but determination emanating from her. She was something, alright.
"You're absolutely right. My whole life was Alice. I never did anything for me. When she left, I never thought I'd even think the word love again. It's like I wouldn't ever be good enough for anyone else. But damnit, Bella, I could love you. I could. And I don't want to be afraid of that." I shocked myself with that one, but it was true. I could love Bella-she was everything I needed. Hell-I might already.
"Me too. I don't want to feel like I've done something wrong by letting myself care for you. I want to do what feels good for once-what feels right. I don't want to be pushed away anymore. I want to make my own decisions-be my own person."
"Then it's settled…
I allowed myself just a moment to break down. I broke trees, and fell to my knees, and sobbed tearlessly for an hour. Because I didn't wan to let him go. But when I looked around it, all I saw was Jasper sad. Jasper alone. Jasper in pain. There wasn't another way. The only way for him to be happy was to be with Bella. And I'm going to have to break his heart to get him to see that. I don't want to give him up! He's my everything. My life. But I want to keep my family together. I want him to be happy. And if this is the only way for him then that's what I'll have to do. I'll let him go.
My eyes rolled back while I was suddenly assaulted with another vision-so soon?
I was standing in a field. I could see my family in the distance-Bella was a vampire. She and Jasper were holding one another, but smiling. So no danger. Carlisle and Esme were there, and Rose and Emmett and Edward. But there was someone else…and Edward was holding her hand. A vampire approached me slowly, but I felt no danger from him. He was tall, but not as tall as Jasper. His hair fell to his chin. It was coal black. He smiled at me, very friendly. And his eyes were golden yellow.
"Do you trust me?" he whispered, holding out his hand. I took it without hesitation, because it just felt right. "I saw you coming." Was all he said. I smiled at him, and I was happy. "My name is Eric, and I have visions. The last vision I had was a vision of you. I had to find you."
I snapped my head forward. I wasn't going to smile about that yet, because my heart was still grieving for the husband I was going to lose. But I didn't feel so forlorn anymore. There was someone out there looking for me, and he was just like me. It was going to take time, but the comfort in knowing he was there was immense. And when he asked me if I saw him coming, I could say yes. Another good thing was that I saw someone with Edward, although I didn't get a good enough look at her. So this wasn't the end-it was the beginning.
