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Disclaimer: Yeah, I don't own InuYasha. Sorry.

CHAPTER 12

I found myself seeking her. Seeking the girl I was just talking to; perhaps to distract myself from my depressing thoughts. She would help me forget the pain. The pain of rejection. The pain of worthlessness. The pain of not being needed.

Spotting her, I hesitated at my approach. She was with friends and they were talking and laughing like friends did. I didn't know if I should've even gone to talk to her due to the fact that her friends maybe didn't "know about her". I didn't want to mess up her relationship with her friends.

Finally pushing away my petty hesitation, I walked up to the group of three girls and one guy. They all looked at me with their eyes widening. A few mouths gaped at me and I wondered if I looked too intimidating. I had gone full out with my appearance.

"Sango?" she asked with curious black eyes after getting over her momentary surprise.

"Uh, yeah," I said before running my hand through my long brown hair. A few of her friends started to whisper and giggle and I wondered what about. Certainly not me, right?

"What brings you here?"

"I wanted to talk to you," I said, feeling quite strange. I was filled with anticipation really. I was anxious when it came to asking this girl out. I hated the fact I felt that it wasn't a good idea, but I wanted to do it.

Her friends squealed and she blushed. Glancing over her shoulder at her friends she moved closer to me as I moved away from the cluster. Her friends were giving her supporting and encouraging expressions. Maybe they did know about her orientation.

"I wanted to see if maybe we could do something today instead of later," I started.

"You mean right now?" Asuka asked with a blush. I could see the confusion on her face and was a bit unnerved that I couldn't read her ridiculously dark eyes. As I continued to bore into her eyes, I saw that they were not black, but an insanely deep brown. However, the dark color was a seemingly reflective kind of thing- or maybe a wall.

"Yeah…"

"Oh, wow," her blush intensified, slowly creeping to her ears. It was an interesting thing to see, because she was an extremely pale girl. After observing this, I realized that she still hadn't answered. She was stalling. Perhaps I should've gone with logic instead of my instincts. I strained my ears to hear even her faintest answer through the racket of the other mall goers, but realized that she wasn't going to reply.

"If it's a bad time, or you just don't want to; I understand," I said, backing up. I was ready to make my retreat. I felt my eyes burn slightly as rejection filled my again. My chest numbed considerably and I felt it attack my shoulders too. When had I become so weak?

"No!" she exclaimed, causing me to stop stepping backwards. "I just… I'm surprised… I wasn't expecting this," she smiled brightly and I saw her happiness slip into her dark eyes. My eyes widened at this as I looked down at her. She was genuinely happy.

"I'd love to," she finished with a widening smile.

I couldn't help but smile back and she blushed before hesitantly taking my hand in her own. I let her because I didn't mind and we walked back over to her friends. I hope she wasn't going to say we were dating, because we weren't. We were just going to go out…

"This is Sango," she said, commanding the attention. They all looked up at me and I gave a slight and hesitant smile. I didn't really like smiling; I felt weird doing it.

"Yo," I said, nodding towards them. They began squealing and babbling again and I wondered if I had miscounted exactly how many there were. It certainly sounded like a lot more than four. As I examined the group, I realized the single guy amongst the group was dressed in a similar way as I was.

"Hey, did that nose piercing hurt, because I think I want to get one?" he boldly asked in his… flamboyantly feminine voice.

He was sooooo gay. I think my gaydar exploded.

I smirked at him and replied, "Not really."

"Really?" he smiled. "How about that tongue piercing?"

What the fuck? Was this guy in my mouth, or what? How did he even see it? He must've been looking hard.

"How did you see it?" I asked, curious. Maybe he was just looking really hard.

"Well, I didn't. I just remember-"

Asuka had punched him in the arm- obviously to silence him- and he gasped. I was confused and decided to just answer the kid.

"My tongue piercing," I started, thinking back because I had gotten done while I was dating Miroku. "Not really. But my tongue was swollen for about a week."

Asuka quickly interrupted before her friend could say anything, "Well, Sango and I are going to go… hang out," she said quickly for her lack of information. "So I'll see you guys later."

They waved at us as we left the scene.

"So what do you think?" she asked me, suddenly calling my attention.

"Huh?"

"About my friends?" her hand was warm in mine.

"Oh, them? They're alright. That gay guy… he's strange. People can never really see my tongue piercing unless I stick my tongue out… For him to see it during the few words I spoke…." I trailed off, seriously pondering this happening. That kid must've had eagle eyes or something.

"Oh, Micah," she smiled. "Well, he didn't really see it."

"What? That doesn't make any sense," I felt my face slip into a pondering look.

"Well, so this doesn't make our outing any stranger," she sighed as if finally deciding to release information after relentless pestering. "Back when I first met you, you had one. I told Micah, my best friend since elementary school, and he must've remembered."

"So you pretty much told your best friend how you met this random girl at a party, made out with her, had sex with her, and then never saw her again. And you talked a bunch about the tongue ring she had in during all of that."

"Well, yeah," she blushed.

"Man, you really are a little kid," I sighed before laughing a bit.

"Oh, come on. To me you were really cool and I was lucky to have gotten your attention," she defended.

"Speaking of attention; how is your sister?"

"Kocho?" I nodded my response. "She's alright I guess. She's dating this guy that's no good for her though."

"Well, I guess that's her decision," I said, trying to apply the idea to Kagome and failing miserably. Koga wasn't all that bad for her. In fact… Even though I hate to think it, Koga was almost the perfect person for her. Almost.

And who would be better? I asked myself. I wanted to answer that so badly, but I didn't, for fear of feeling stupid.

"Anyways, enough about that," Asuka said almost too quickly. My eyes connect with her insanely deep brown eyes and she couldn't hide the sadness and longing within them. That's when I realized, she and I were in the same boat. She was trying to forget about an improbable love. Who was it though…? Did she like the guy that her sister was with… or was it her sister- however bizarre that sounded? I didn't bother with it, and tore my eyes away from hers. It was too painful to see those emotions in her expression.

"What are we going to do tonight?" she asked.

"Well, I guess we could watch a movie," I said glancing at my cell phone for time. "How are you getting home?"

"Well, I was kind of guessing you'd drive me home," she said sheepishly.

"You don't have your license?"

"No! I do have my license… I just don't have a car anymore." She pouted and I laughed because I found it cute.

"Well, my-" I stopped myself, trying to figure out what I was going to say. "Kagura drove me to the mall."

"Your Kagura?" she asked, cocking an eyebrow upwards. I pursed my lips, trying to figure out exactly what I was going to call Kagura at that moment. Mom? Sister? Friend? It was all too weird; the relationship that was suddenly upon us.

"Yeah, My Kagura," I smirked before she giggled. I shook my head before continuing to correct myself, "My guardian drove me here."

"Oh? So she's like a parent?"

"Yeah," I said giving her a strange look.

"I was just wondering because I remember how angry she was when she found you with us that morning. She flipped and I thought she was an enraged girlfriend or something."

I shrugged and she continued, "Where are your parents?" I stiffened at that questioned.

"I don't like talking about it," I said tightly. "They died."

"Oh… sorry," she mumbled to herself. "God, that was stupid of me."

"Look, don't worry about it," I sighed before deciding. "How about we head to my house and we watch a movie there. Kagura could drive us home and then I could drive you home after we're done."

"You sure she won't mind?" she asked hesitantly.

I smiled at how cute she was, "She'll be fine."

We tracked Kagura down and she decided that it would be a good idea to go back home and watch movies. I was a little irritated that she didn't get the fact that it was kind of a date, but I didn't care because inside I didn't want it to be a date. I'd rather she and Kohaku be there so I wouldn't get trapped in some crazy date shit.

It was nice to sit there and watch a movie and Asuka didn't mind. She actually told me that it was cute and comfortable once I dropped her off at home.

"I thought watching a movie with your family would be a little lame, but it wasn't half bad," she smiled as I walked her to the porch. "Your little brother is very cute."

I rolled my eyes at this, "Don't let him hear you say that. He'll get some sort of sick crush on you and cuss me out."

"Really?" her dark eyes widened.

"Ya, no kidding," I pushed, sticking my thumbs into my front pocket by habit. Her eyes met mine for a brief moment and she looked away with an insanely prominent blush. I smiled at this. Asuka was really cute.

"Isn't this when I ask you if you had a good time, and you reply with a cute kind of smile and I kiss you?"

If possible her blush deepened and I leaned forward to catch her lips in a soft kiss. My heart was pounding uncharacteristically hard and I wondered exactly what was going on. As I felt her tongue on my lips I saw a single vision in my head that made me pull away from her far too quickly.

Hurt, blue eyes.

Kagome's eyes. And if I couldn't be any worse, Asuka seemed to be giving me the corresponding expression on her face.

"I… It's a little too soon for that," I said with a frown.

She covered her face with her hands in absolute embarrassment. "I'm sorry. God, I feel stupid now."

"No, no; it's alright," I said, yanking one of my hands free from my pocket and gently pulling a hand away from her face. "I mean, we've already done so much together." It wasn't like we hadn't had sex- it had just been a while. A long while and I think that called for some starting over anyways. Hell, a few hours earlier I couldn't even recall her name.

"I know… and you probably think I'm some sort of slut."

"Yo; don't say that."

"Sango, I'm really sorry."

"Look, I would've cussed you out already if I was angry or something. So please don't make this bigger than it is."

She hesitantly smiled at me, despite the color of her cheeks and I smirked back.

"We'll go out again?" she asked me.

"Maybe," I smirked before winking at her. She smiled, still blushing, and I turned away from her and headed to my car.

The smile fell from my lips as I got into my car. My thoughts were on a certain blue eyed girl that I couldn't get off of my mind, no matter how hard I tried. I missed her so much. I missed her smile and laugh. I missed that stupid face she'd make when I said something remotely suggestive. I missed her amazing mind and I missed being around her.

Even thought it hadn't been too long since I had last seen her, I knew that I'd have to make an effort to apologize to her mom. That was the only way I'd be able to be around her again. I'd get down on my knees to apologize if that'd do it. I needed Kagome in my life that much, even if she didn't need or want me the same way. I just…

Asuka was nice and all; she was cute, smart, and funny but she wasn't Kagome. No matter how much I wanted to just ignore it all I couldn't. There would always be something to remind me of her and I could barely stomach the pain that would bring me.

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