I don't understand why Chad decided to not stand by my side through this...
Guess the perv didn't really love me.
Anyways, I need to do my best to be little bit happy. Even if it's far from easy.
Damn, it's been hours since I ate something.
( I get up from my bed and walk into the kitchen )
Let's see if I have any good food at home...
Hmm...some 2 days old sushi. Okay. I can eat that.
( I grab my sushi, along with a bottle of cheap beer and then I return to bed )
Sonny, is this you now? Eating old food in bed...
It might be.
Oh no, talking to myself.
Lame!
I've turned into a worthless crappy girl.
End of being sad.
Woman up and be awesome.
( I finish my shit-excuse for a lunch and then I pull off my old baggy jammies and put on black skinny jeans, a neon green top and my new silver-colored shoes and go out to my car and drive to the studio )
Okay, Sonny. Time to be confident. Sure, people might laugh at you and such, but try to ignore it.
When I enter the studio ( complete with fake smile on my face ) I meet Marshall.
"Oh, are you here? I thought you were sick today." says Marshall.
"I'm not really sick, just mad and sad because of what happened after my damn online speech." says I.
"That's over soon." says Marshall. "Sonny, a few days from now, people no longer care if you're smart or not."
"Well, too bad that I'm not as sure about that as you." says I as I walk to the dressing room I share with Tawni.
"Hey! Who the hell are...?" says Tawni when she hear me enter the room, but smile when she sees that it is me.
"Hi, Tawni." says I.
"Didn't expect to see you today. They told me you're sick, sweetie." says Tawni with a friendly smile.
"My body is fine, but my confidence ain't gonna heal as easy." says I. "After making myself look like a total fuck-up online, I don't feel happy anymore."
"I know someone who perhaps will be able to help you." says Tawni.
"I'm welcome to try more or less any type of help right now..." says I.
"Okay. When I feel sad there's a person that I go to. Her name's Jackie McGregor." says Tawni.