Disclaimer: Hi everyone, Here is the next chapter to the saga. I have a few ideas in mind for Pacey and Joey so please sit tight. Thanks for all the support and reviews!!

Decisions

I left Capeside that night and my mind raced the entire way. As soon as I got home to the apartment I shared with my boyfriend Christopher, I just knew I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't quite put my finger on it but I had this inkling in the pit of my stomach that he wasn't "The One". I pictured him on the couch in his usual spot and I just couldn't help but think that this is what I was going to come home to everyday? He was a writer and I had the distinct pleasure of editing his work. Although he wasn't a bad writer, just not one I would sit down to enjoy.

As soon as I entered through the door, there he was on the couch all right but above some skinny little blond. I put my bags down and said slightly below a yell, "Get out". When he looked over at me his face went blank. "Oh my God". They both said in unison. She, whoever she was got up, grabbed her shirt and ran as fast as shecould. But not before saying "Sorry Jody".

I shook my head, looked over at Christopher who was putting his shirt back on as well. "So this is what you do when I'm gone"? "What"? He said as if he daft. I could have ringed his neck but I was just to mad at him. "What do you mean 'what'. Are you seriously this dense? I want you to move out". "Joey calm down, she is just some girl that works at Starbucks that I met a few months ago". I stood there in awe at the idiocy staring back at me. Then he started again, "We've been together for a year Jo and I have been faithful to you for the entire time". "Well by the look of what I just saw, you are a complete liar, I can't believe this, and I can't believe you". I was yelling at the top of my lungs by now. He started yelling too and getting to close to me for comfort.

"Leave now" was all I could muster. "You can't just throw me out Joey where the hell am I suppose to go"? He put his hands on my shoulders and started to shake me. I grabbed his hands with my own and threw them to his sides. "I don't give a good gosh darn where you go, and I can very well throw you out, my name is on the lease not yours".

He started to cry. "Please Joey, believe when I tell you that I was going to end it tonight, I tried". "Well you should have tried harder". I bent down and grabbed my purse. "I want you and all your stuff out by the morning or I will return with the police do you understand me"? With that said I slammed the door behind me.

I walked all around the city that night, just walked in thought. I never did that before but then I guess I haven't had this much on my mind or let myself experience this much emotion. I thought about Christopher and his skinny little friend but I mostly thought about Pacey. I remembered all the childhood memories. All the times I knew I loved him, all the times I wondered if he loved me too.

I mean he was my best friend what was I suppose to do? He was getting married to a woman I actually liked and believe me he has dated some very odd women. But I couldn't shake this instinct in my stomach, at first I thought it was the fact that Pacey has been my best friend since I could remember and maybe I could be losing him. I mean he was whom I told everything too and vice versa.

But by the time I got back to my apartment all my thoughts were clouded by reality. I got into the apartment to find Christopher and all his stuff gone. "Good" I said out loud. The nerve of that guy, bringing another woman in to MY home, seriously.

I set my purse on the counter in the kitchen and pushed my answer machine. 'You have one new message'. "Joey, its your sister. I heard from Jen what happened at Pacey's engagement party, I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you, but you know Alexander had an 'All Star' game in Boston this weekend. But as soon as you get this I want you to call me. I can't even imagine what is going on in your head. So you think you might have feelings for him? Anyway call me back as soon as possible. Love you". 'You have no more messages'.

I laugh at the reaction of my sister getting all giddy over nothing. I sat down at my kitchen table and placed my head in my hands and just thought. Was she getting giddy over nothing or was I actually feeling something? I mean I had always thought Pacey and I were meant for each other but I was 15, how could 10 years change the way he felt? Could it just be the fact that he's scared of losing me too?

Too many questions were running through my head and as I took a deep breath and lifted my head, I looked around at my newly bare apartment and thought I have to get away. I know what I have to do. I need to get on a plane and get as far away as I can.

I start to pack up my suitcase and I can feel my heart start to flutter. Heck I don't even know where I'm going to go, I just know I need to figure out this new feeling. I finish packing my things and I look out the window toward Central Park. I see a young woman pushing her child in a stroller and then I see her hat, a beret. Paris, I'm going to go to Paris. I smile to myself and before I know it I'm at the airport waiting in line for my ticket. I'm so excited and nervous at the same time. I'm finally up to the desk. "Good Evening, How may I help you"? "I need a ticket to Paris please". "Okay let me see… I have one available for the 11:00am flight. Would you like to purchase this one"?