Disclaimer: Thanks everybody for the reviews. This chapter is Pacey's point of view about the whole situation, i've decided to go back and forth from each POV but ill say ahead of time who is who. Enjoy!!
Pacey's View
I couldn't believe it, I had just told Joey Potter that I was in love with her and had been ever since I was young. What the hell was I thinking? I did it at my engagement party, my engagement to another woman!
I left the party, dropped off Natalie and went to my apartment. I opened the door half expecting Joey to be there. She was always there when I least expected her to be. I mean she has been my best friend since I can remember. She was the one who I told all my secrets to, the one person who really knew who I was. I was the only one who really knew who she was and I might have just ruined it.
I sat down on the floor in the living room, my back against the couch and all I could do was cry. I may have just broken the one thing I'm sure of in my entire life. What was I going to do? I mean I love Joey but I guess I was to chicken to tell Natalie about it. She did have a right to know right? I'm supposed to be marrying her.
I just sat there, finally a smile stretched across my face when I thought about when I went to go pick out the ring. It was two weeks ago and I guess that's when all my feelings for Joey returned in full force. They had always been like white noise or the threat of nuclear war, you know its there but you try not to think about it. The way she looked when I answered the door. Wearing jeans, a blouse, her hair in a ponytail and those sneakers that I love to hate. She was never gaudy. She had always been so simple just like me. I remember being so eager for her to show up. I guess it was the fact that she had agreed to go with me. I had decided that day that I would pretend to be getting the ring for Joey.
We were in Capeside at one of the antique stores on Harbor road. She had come down from New York that weekend. "So you're really going to do this huh?" She said to me as we were walking down the stone pathway. It was a beautiful Saturday; the breeze was coming of the water, blowing through her chocolate hair. I remember watching her mouth as she spoke barely able to respond.
After being sucked back into reality I said, "Yeah I think so." We walked into the shop and over to the jewelry section. I noticed her half smile half sadness while she was looking at all the rings. I was looking at one that I knew Natalie would like. It was a square cut pink stone. She was one of those girly girls who loved horses, pink and shopping. I remember hearing Joey sigh so I went over to her. "What's the deal Potter?" She looked up at me, " aw nothing I'm just thinking about the fact that ill probably never get married, ever." "Always the cynic aren't we? Your going to get married Jo, stop being so sulky. You're kind of ruining this for me." We both let out a chuckle. "I'm sorry Pacey. You're right; so which ring are you going to choose for the lovely bride to be?" I had picked the pink stone I originally was looking at and that was that.
After, we went and had lunch at the Icehouse, which I now owned and refurbished. Sitting there with her brought back so many memories from our childhood. My thoughts were interrupted by, "Pacey, you know I am so proud of you." Shocked I looked over at her. "What are you talking about Jo?" "Well just look at all you have accomplished, you have one of the most successful restaurants in Capeside and you are getting married to a wonderful woman. You know you may not believe but you are becoming an adult Pacey Witter." She laughed and a chill went down my spine. "Well thanks Jo, you are becoming an adult too you know, being an editor for a very popular publishing company in New York City no less. And you have very handsome friends, if I do say so myself." She hit my arm playfully. "Yes that I do."
I lingered on those last words as long as I could before realizing I was back in my apartment. I had sat there for longer then I had expected. Looking up from my thoughts I found the morning light staring back at me. I looked over at the clock.
It was 6 am and I knew right then that my passion for Joey Potter was not going to go away. I had to find out for sure if she loved me back the way I loved her. But before anything I had to tell Natalie that I couldn't marry her. I got up from the spot on the floor, got my keys and headed for the impending tornado I knew was already brewing.