Sorry (Broken Hearts and Last Goodbyes)

Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights but lullabies
Helps to make this pain go away

"Bones, do you really have to go? I don't want you to go, at least not without me there. You're a doctor, not an officer." I placed my hand on his chest, his breathing stiffened and he wrapped me in his arms tighter. "It'll break my heart if tomorrow's goodbye is our last should I not go."

"Don't worry, Nelly. I'll come back as soon as they are done looking at the planet. I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't do this again." Bones kissed up and down my neck gingerly, rubbing lazy circles with his calloused thumbs on my hips. I tilted my head more to give him access to my throat and collarbone. "I love you. Ich leibe du, mein leibe." He spoke the language I was currently teaching him, German. I smiled and nuzzled his bare chest.

"Ich leibe du, mein leibe." I replied. This broke my heart, him going on an away mission without me.

I realize I let you down
Told you that I'd be around
I'm building up the strength just to say

"I'm going to be back soon, Nelly. Don't worry too much, 'kay? I promise I'll come back safe and no scratches." He held my head in his hands and smiled down at my tearstained face. I tried my best to convince Jim to send me down instead of Bones, I'm a doctor, too. I nodded and leaned up to kiss him passionately. He kissed me back and drew away reluctantly after Jim ordered him to get on the Transporter pad.

He said that an hour ago. I've been sitting next to Scotty like a German Sheppard waiting for her master. Scotty let me lay my head on his shoulder or on his lap as we both waited for the order to beam the landing team up. I groaned when Scotty woke me up with his frantic yelling. Then I realized it: They were back. One other little detail, I found when I sat up and looked to the pad, my Bones was injured. Badly.

I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
It's on me
This time is the last time I will ever beg you to stay
But you're alredy on your way
Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame
For leaving your heart out in the rain
And I know you're gonna walk away
Leave me with the price to pay
Before you go I wanted to say

"You promised, Bones! Leonard H. McCoy!" I yelled and eyed the cast around his right arm and left knee. He'd been hit, beat, and kicked by a band of Klingons.

"Even though you probably won't believe me, woman, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry." I looked in his eyes, they were begging me to stay with him and sit.

"I'm going to my room, and I'm not comin' out until I feel like it!" I snapped, tearing to spin around and stormed out of the Sick Bay. I swear, this is hopefully the last time Jim will learn to get on my nerves. I walked quickly to my best friend's room. Liza, Elizabeth Kirk, opened her door and told the children to go to the bridge and no fooling around. "He was so badly injured, Liza."

"I know, honey, I know." She craddled me to her like a mother does a child. I cried into her shoulder and hugged her tightly.

I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises I wasn't around to keep

"Nelly? Please, Nel, let me in." Bones knocked repeatidly on my door until I slid it open and collapsed in his arms.

"Oh, Bones. Never get hurt like that ever again!" I moaned. He hugged me to his chest and rubbed my back comfortingly.

"I'm sorry I broke the promise. Those Klingons were going to try to take you away from me, that was their plan. I wanted to protect you. Do you trust me, forgive me?" Bones's eyes, again, were begging for me to stay.

"It'll take a little time to gain my trust, but I do forgive you, Bonesy." I kissed his cheek and let him in.

I'm Sorry