Disclaimer: I don't own Torchwood or the characters. I do own my characters - Frank, Maria and Ianto's family.

The BBC own Torchwood.

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A/N: I'm soooo sorry I haven't updated in I don't want to think how long. I wish I had a good excuse but the thing is I don't, sorry. Plus I haven't felt like writing since Ianto died. I think every time I watch that bit I'm gonna cry…a lot. Sad I know but :P

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Chapter 11 – Back to Scotland

Jack and Ianto sat in silence in the S.U.V. It was still parked outside the cemetery in Cardiff. Jack wasn't sure what to say to Ianto. Jack desperately wanted to take away Ianto's pain and make it his own. He hated seeing the Welshman in emotional pain, like he was now and when Lisa died, but Jack knew there was nothing he could say.

Ianto sat in the passenger seat, head leaning back, eyes shut, thinking about everything that had happened to him. Those memories had been buried for too long and one by one were appearing before Ianto reminding him of what he'd done. Yes Jack had told him it wasn't his fault but he knew somewhere in the back of his brain there would be that feeling, niggling away telling him it was his fault and that he could have stopped it.

Ianto tried to drown the feeling out but it refused to go away. Nothing he did could get rid of it. With a sigh Ianto resided to living with the feeling but barley acknowledging it.

Jack looked over at Ianto, he had just sighed. Jack opened his mouth to ask what was wrong but decided against it. Jack knew Ianto needed time to adjust to the memories that he was pretty sure Ianto was seeing right now.

After another 10 minutes of silence Jack finally decided to break it.

"Hey" Jack said as softly as possible. Ianto didn't react but Jack knew that he had heard him.

"How are you feeling?" Again Jack tried to keep his voice as soft and soothing as possible. Ianto sighed again.

"I'm…okay" Ianto was choosing his words carefully, as well as trying to control the emotion in his voice. Ianto didn't want Jack to hear the sadness in his voice. Jack threw Ianto a sceptical look at his answer.

Ianto gave a weak smile and said

"I'm okay…trust me" Jack returned the weak smile and the silence came back. It was less awkward than before.

"Jack?" Ianto said after a few minutes.

"Mmmm?" Not much of an answer but Ianto knew that Jack was listening and that e could ask his question without having to repeat it.

"Do you think…we could…maybe…um…visit my sister in Scotland?"

Ianto was looking at Jack with large blue eyes. Jack resisted the urge to laugh; Ianto looked like a little kid who had been caught doing something he wasn't supposed to be doing.

"I mean…I did say I would visit her but….I want you to come with me…please?"

Jack thought about it for a minute or two.

"Does she know about...us?"

Ianto looked down at his lap, he felt guilty. The truth was no he hadn't. Guinevere knew about Frank and Ianto knew she'd be fine about Jack but he still felt nervous about it.

"No…I was going to, I swear I was but we just never got round to talking about it. She knew about Frank and me. She had met him a couple of times. They got on well considering the circumstances. Jasper knew about Frank on a purely on a need to know basis. Esme and Myfanway were too young to really understand much but they knew never to tell Mam. Delwyn was only four…we kept him away from it all. Four year olds can't keep secrets."

Jack nodded through out Ianto explaining about his family. He understood why Ianto hadn't told Guinevere about them…yet.

"You should tell Guinevere we're visiting" Ianto chuckled slightly at Jack's emphasis on the 'we're' bit.

"No hints at all there" Ianto replied sarcastically whilst trying not to laugh. Jack just grinned in way of response.

"But still Ianto, need to tell her we're visiting. From what you've said I'm sure she'll understand"

Ianto nodded slowly and pulled out his mobile. Jack reached over and took hold of Ianto's right hand. He rubbed circles with his thumb onto the back of Ianto's hand, hoping it made him feel better.

Ianto found Guinevere's number in the contacts took a deep breath and pressed dial. It rang a few times and Guinevere picked up.

"Ianto?" Said Guinevere's voice from Ianto's phone, she sounded unsure, why he didn't know but he hoped to find out.

"Who else?" Ianto said whilst laughing slightly.

"Sorry, it's just been a weird say"

"A weird say?"

"Um…yeah…crazy busy…twins driving me insane…the usual"

Ianto laughed softly as he remembered the hyper ness of his youngest sisters.

"Oh…sorry…I'll phone back when your no-". Ianto didn't get a chance to finish is sentence before Guinevere interrupted him.

"-No Yan honey, its fine. Everything has quietened down now…honest"

"Cool"

There was an awkward silence and then in the background came a crash and several voices shouting at once.

"You broke-"

"-I did not yo-"

"-It was your fau-"

"-No, you went like th-"

Ianto frowned at his phone, trying to work out what was going on and then Guinevere's voice could be heard shouting, even by Jack.

"WOULD YOU'S TWO SHUT UP!!! I AM ON THE PHONE TO IANTO AND I CAN'T HEAR HIM FOR YOU TWO! SHUT UP AND CLEAR UP THE BLOODY MESS!!!"

Ianto held the phone away from his ear whilst his sister was shouting.

When he could no longer hear shouting he out the phone back to his hear.

"Ianto…you still there?"

"Um...yeah I'm still here"

"Good…Was there anything you particularly phoned for cariad?"

"Yes actually…I'm…sorry…we're going to visit you, Tom and the twins in Scotland"

Guinevere squealed like a teenager at the news.

"Hold on…whose we?"

"Me and my…boy friend, Jack"

There was silence for a while.

"Guinny…Guin…Guinevere!"

"Sorry Ianto I sort of froze sweetheart. Remembering...well… um…never mind. Sooo boyfriend huh? What's he like? Is he hot? How long have you been going out with him?"

Ianto rolled his eyes, typical Guinevere, twenty questions at once.

"He's amazing Guin, you'll love him. We've been going out for…um…a while and did you really just ask me wither or not he's hot?"

Guin laughed.

"Yeah……..is he?"

Ianto laughed, why had he been scared to tell Guin?

"Yeah Guin he is…you'll see for yourself at some point"

Jack was grinning, he knew they were talking about him. Ianto turned to look at Jack and Jack winked at him which made Ianto blush slightly even though he knew there was no way that Guinevere could see them.

"So cariad, when will you be here….ohhhhh you don't even have the address or anything"

"Well?" Prompted Ianto. "Tell me then"

Guin told Ianto exactly where she was staying. Ianto wrote it all down.

"So when will you arrive?"

"Um…I honestly don't know Guin, Jack and I were visiting…Frank in Cardiff. We met Maria, she's as lovely as ever"

Guinevere nodded even though Ianto could see her.

"I'll let you know 10 minutes before we're due to arrive…okay?"

"Yeah Yan, that's fine"

"See you soon then Guinny, love you. Bye"

"Uhuh…love you too Yan. Bye"

The line went dead. Ianto put the mobile back in his pocket. His eyes had filled up with the idea of seeing Guinevere, Tom, Esme and Myfanway. Plus they would be meeting Jack. He'd have to make sure Jack was on his best behaviour.

"Ready to go?" Jack voice was soft again like before. Ianto nodded slowly.

Jack kissed Ianto on the cheek before starting the S.U.V and beginning their journey to Ianto's family in Scotland.

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A/N again: I'm not to sure about this chapter. Hopefully it doesn't suck as much I think it does. I know I haven't updated in soooo long and I'm really sorry. I don't even have an excuse. Sorry…again. *offers cupcake* Read and review?

Love Sam xx