A/N: I do not own BOF, SoEul, Boys Like Girls or Ashley Tisdale. Please r&r. (:
Yi Jung was at his studio, staring at the pot that he had planned to give Ga Eul after they got married. It was tall and slim, the top was intentionally uneven and it was a light beige in colour - just like Ga Eul's skin. Her smooth, fair skin. It was definitely not the best pot he had made, but he had made it with a lot of love, and that was what made this pot special.
It was late at night and Yi Jung could hardly keep his eyes open. Not wanting to recount that day's horrific and shocking events, he trudged to his bedroom and lay down onto his bed.
Yi Jung felt his eyelids lower over his eyes. He hadn't drank a sip of wine since the almost-wedding, yet he felt like he was drunk. He didn't want to think about his troubles anymore. He wanted to forget all about them. Forget all about Ga Eul and the wedding and everything. Just for one night. All he wanted was to go to sleep and rest his aching heart. He stretched his hand out a little so that he could reach the big red "on" button on his radio which sat on his bedside table. The volume was so low that if one stood at the other side of his king-sized bed, they wouldn't be able to hear the song that played. But Yi Jung could hear it very very clearly.
It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a clouds
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold on my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time
Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And its so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie
You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I feel like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded
And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
-Hero/Heroine by Boys Like Girls
You're better than him, Ga Eul. Don't let him ruin your life. Ga Eul had been repeating those same words in her mind since she had finished her simple dinner of porridge and went to lie on her bed.
Unlike Yi Jung's luxurious king-sized, too-expensive bed, hers was a small single mattress on a raised part of her bedroom floor, with lots of pillows, cushions and a teddy bear sitting in a corner. She hugged her teddy bear as she told herself not to think about him anymore. She thought of what she would do tomorrow. The porridge shop was shut as the owner went overseas and the kindergarten was closed for renovation. Maybe I'll go somewhere with Jan Di? I wonder where we can go to... After she had mentally listed at least five destinations, she decided to go to sleep. She softly sang Ashley Tisdale's It's Alright, It's Ok to herself. But she had only reached the chorus when she fell into slumber.
You told me
there's no need
To talk it out
Cause its too late
To proceed
And slowly
I took your words
and walked away
No looking back
I wont regret, no
I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say
It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's Alright, it's OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's Alright, It's Ok - Ashley Tisdale (A/N: You can Google the rest of the song lyrics 'cause this is only till the chorus)
"What should we do?! What should we do?!" Jan Di asked, panic evident in her tone. Three days had passed since the Incident, as Jan Di and the rest of the F4 called it.
"Honestly, Ga Eul is scaring me! She tries to put on a brave face, but you can see, she's so empty and lifeless inside. We have to do something!" Jan Di exclaimed, throwing her hands up in the air for emphasis.
She was sitting in the F4 lounge with Jun Pyo, Ji Hoo and Woo Bin, at a loss on how to help her heartbroken, depressed friend.
Woo Bin sighed deeply and reclined on the couch he was lying on. "I went to see Yi Jung yesterday, and he did not look good, honestly.
FLASHBACK-
"Yi Jung? Yi Jung-ah!" Woo Bin walked through the front door of Yi Jung's studio.
He heard a low groan from Yi Jung's bedroom.
"Go away!" Yi Jung mumbled his bed, where he had been hibernating ever since the wedding catastrophe.
"I haven't seen you since the... um... wedding, bro, what's up? Where you been?" Woo Bin took one of the pillows lying on his friend's huge bed, and whacked Yi Jung on the head.
"Aish! Leave me alone, Song Woo Bin!" Yi Jung used the pillow he had been crying into for the past 2 days to cover his face.
Woo Bin rolled his eyes and threw the blanket off the bed, earning another yelp of annoyance from his friend.
"Yo, bro! Get up!"
"No!"
"You're asking for it..." Woo Bin grinned evilly as he grabbed Yi Jung's ankles and yanked him off the bed.
END FLASHBACK-
"You know, maybe, just maybe, it might help to hear what Yi Jung has to say..." Ji Hoo suggested.
"Are you crazy?! What could he possibly have to say in his defense on why he cheated on my best friend TWO DAYS BEFORE THEIR WEDDING?!" Jan Di screamed.
The rest of the F4 cringed. He was their friend, after all.
"Come on, it wouldn't do any harm, right?" Woo Bin persuaded Jan Di to give Yi Jung another chance.
"Hmph! Fine, but I'm telling you, this is a big waste of time," Jan Di scowled.
The next day...
Ga Eul's eyelids flew open and was temporarily blinded by the bright light coming from her bedroom window.
As if on cue, Ga Eul heard her cellphone beep. She crawled out of bed and reached over to her study table to see who had sent her a message. She clicked on it:
Ga Eul-ah, sorry. I'm busy today so I can't go out with you. -Jan Di
Ga Eul sighed. Looks like it was going to be another boring day. She had actually wanted to get out of the house for awhile... She was running low on food anyway. Then her cellphone beeped again. This time, it said:
Ga Eul, we're going to on a holiday tomorrow. Don't make a fuss, just do me a favour! Get packed! Trust me, you'll enjoy it. -Jan Di
Ga Eul felt a little puzzled. Holiday? Oh well, it's not like she had anything better to do. The kindergarten was closed for renovation, and even the porridge shop was shut, as Boss had decided to go on a little trip to China to visit his cousins. Everyone seemed to be going somewhere. She needed a little change of scenery too... She sighed and started packing. She would leave her questions for tomorrow, and Jan Di had better have a good reason for this...
Knock. Knock.
Yi Jung looked up from his pot that he was painting when he heard someone knocking on the door. He wiped his hands clean with a towel and stood up. He took one more glance at his creation before going to open the door.
It was pretty ugly, actually. It was completely black and shorter than most of his other works, with a circle base and completely uneven. It looked as though someone had thrown it around, giving it many scratches and dents and even chipped off a few parts. He liked to think of it as how his heart looked like, but because it was scarred, bruised, and nobody wanted it. No one really liked him, not the way Ga Eul did.
He opened his door and to his surprise, he saw Jan Di, Jun Pyo, Ji Hoo and Woo Bin. "Yi Jung-ah, why-" Woo Bin started, but was quickly cut off by Yi Jung himself.
"Guys, you don't need to come here to cheer me up. Really, I can totally understand why Ga Eul left me. In fact, she should've left me long ago. I don't see why she even agreed to get married to me in the first place. After all, I'm not emotional, I'm not sensitive... I'm not like her. Though I know very well that I didn't do any specific crime to make her want to leave me, I don't blame her," Yi Jung lamented, looking down at his bare feet. He had taken to wearing jeans and casual shirts, he never went out of his home anyway. Only to buy food. He hadn't even drunk wine!
When he looked up again, he saw Jan Di, Ji Hoo, Jun Pyo and Woo Bin's similar expressions - eyes widened and mouth agape. "...What?" Yi Jung clamored.
What is wrong with with him? Ji Hoo thought to himself. How could he go to a club, get drunk, start kissing unknown women than totally not remember it?
"Can we come in first? Then we can talk about what happened," Ji Hoo said, after awhile. Yi Jung moved to one side so that his friends could come in. His place was full of pots, clay and paint. It was neither neat nor messy. They all stood around. Jan Di had never been here before, thus went about "exploring" the place. Yi Jung, out of politeness, went to make them some tea. When Yi Jung finished making the tea, they all sat down onto the wooden benches.
"Yi Jung-ah, do you really not remember what happened on the night two days before the wedding?" Woo Bin inquired, after taking a sip of his tea.
Yi Jung thought for a while. Then answered, "I can't remember. Wasn't I at home?" The other four exchanged confused glances.
Maybe he drank too much, Ji Hoo thought.
"You don't remember going out to find a suit for the wedding? ...And ending up in a club?" Woo Bin asked as he stood up to get himself more tea.
"No. I bought the suit the day before the wedding, didn't I?" Yi Jung's eyebrows knit together.
"See? You always say I'm so stupid, when he can't even remember that he went drinking, clubbing and making out with other women when he's about to get married," Jun Pyo whispered into Jan Di's ear, but it was loud enough for everyone to hear and an amused smirk appeared on both Ji Hoo and Woo Bins' faces.
"Yi Jung, that day you were out late and Ga Eul was worried so she went to look for you. ...And found you at a club kissing another girl... Unfortunately," Woo Bin continued, he showed Yi Jung the photos of him at the club, the ones which Ga Eul had took and sent to Jan Di. "These pictures were taken by Ga Eul, and then sent to Jan Di," Woo Bin paused, "Bring back any memories?"
Yi Jung stopped drinking his tea and froze. His face turned pale and the china teacup slipped from his hands. The tea splashed onto the clean floor and onto Ji Hoo's shoes.
They're brand new, Ji Hoo whimpered to himself so softly that no one else heard.
"Anyway, we're thinking about bringing her to Jeju Island. And since we really don't want to see her so miserable, maybe you should come along and try to make it up to her," Woo Bin said hopefully. At the thought of it, Yi Jung's eyes lit up. Just thinking of it made him smile... He imagined them sharing a room... Exploring the island together... Taking pictures... Making memories...
"Yes! I'll go! ...But don't tell Ga Eul, okay? Or she won't go," Yi Jung said, enthusiastic about the prospect of winning Ga Eul's heart and trust back. He had so many romantic plans for them... She would have to forgive him, right? What he did that oh-so-fateful night was a mistake, a huge one. But it would bring them closer too, wouldn't it? Ga Eul would forgive him, she always had.
"Then pack, we're leaving tomorrow."