A/N – Thanks for the comments! Always appreciate them! ! Seems like a lot of you are concerned about the surgery. We're almost there! Blackberry – Where Jason was during the car accident was pretty far away from PC. You'll find out about that later.

Chapter 10 - Frustration

Jason had just settled onto the couch when someone knocked on the door. He thought maybe Elizabeth had forgotten her keys. She had gone to visit her parents who were set to fly out the next day.

"What did you forget?" He asked as the words died off his lips.

"Hi." Sam said. "Can I come in?"

He nodded and she walked past him.

"I just wanted to check in with you." She said softly.

"I'm good." He said. "Just relaxing for a bit. How are you feeling? Shouldn't you be resting?"

She sat down. "I'm fine. Patrick said I was good to go today. I have a slight headache and I'm a little sore but I'm not going to let those assholes win." She said firmly. "Did you ever talk to Patrick?"

"Yes. I had the tests done. I'm having the surgery in a few days." He said watching her mouth drop open.

"Jason, that's fantastic." She said smiling.

"I hope so. I just want to make sure no one gets hurt because of me." He said quietly.

Sam sighed. "I understand."

"Have you been hurt before, because of who I was?" He asked curiously.

"Yes. I was kidnapped once. But you found me very quickly." She said.

Jason looked away despondently. Just the fact that he'd be subjecting Elizabeth to the same thing gave him pause but he hoped he'd get his memory back so he could do his best to protect her. Sam thought he was showing remorse out of concern for her and it gave her hope.

"I'm sorry you had to go through that." He said.

"Like I said, I knew what your life was all about Jason. I can take care of myself for the most part. I know how to use a gun. You didn't have to worry about me a lot. That was part of the reason we worked so well." She said trying to drive that point home.

"You seem to be implying that Elizabeth might have a problem with it." He said a little put off.

Sam shrugged. "I don't really know her but from what I've seen, I don't think she's ever had to deal with these kinds of situations."

Jason got up and walked over to the window and Sam wondered if she had pushed him too hard. She got up and followed him and touched his back, pulling away quickly when he flinched.

"I'm sorry. I wasn't expecting that." He said.

"I just miss you so much. I know you want her but Jason I thought you were dead for over six months. Can I please just have a hug? Please." She asked tearfully.

Jason sighed and turned around. He felt guilty where Sam was concerned. This whole situation was really wearing on him. "Okay."

Sam slowly moved towards him and laid her head on this chest and wrapped her arms around him. She had missed his body so much. Jason loosely put his arms around her. He could tell she was crying.

"I use to love it when we would just be like this; holding each other. We didn't need words. I always felt so safe with you. When you were gone, nothing was right. I just felt empty." She said quietly.

She started to cry harder and Jason tightened his grip a little. He didn't know what to say or do. The only thing he felt for Sam was a sense of guilt. The door opened and Elizabeth was standing there totally surprised. She could hear Sam crying so she pointed upstairs and quickly ran up the steps.

"In two days, I will hopefully get my memory back and then decisions will be made. I just hope that you can accept whatever I decide." He warned.

Sam pulled back and wiped her face. "I'm just hoping that when you remember our love that you'll give me a chance and not throw it all away. You can't expect me to be happy if you decide to dump me Jason." She said turning around and crossing her arms over her chests. His rejection of her was hurting her to her core.

"It's hard for me to consider what I can't remember. I know I'm hurting you and I don't want to do that but there is no sense in dragging it out though." He said convinced that his mind wouldn't change.

Sam turned around again so he could see the depth of her love and devotion to him and Jason didn't say a word. The whole situation was overwhelming. Without a word, Sam stood on her toes and gave him a soft kiss on the cheek and then left.

Elizabeth stood up from the top step and wiped her eyes. She was convinced that Jason was in denial and she was scared what was going to happen in the next seventy-two hours. She understood that he loved her but the fact that he was completely dismissing what he had felt for Sam was worrying her.

Jason just stood there, looking at the door for a long time. He wanted to get on his bike and ride but he couldn't because he didn't know where the hell he was going. Instead, he picked up a vase and threw it against the wall; pissed off because all he wanted was Elizabeth and his life back and he couldn't have that in total. Johnny ran inside and they stared at each other."Come with me." He said.

Elizabeth ran downstairs and Jason walked past her.

"I'll be back." He said tensely.

He left and she started to cry, frustrated that she couldn't help him and that he was in pain. She also really missed her friends. Going into the kitchen, she grabbed a bottle of wine and poured herself a glass and brought the bottle with her to the living room and called Suzanne.

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Suzanne sunk back against the cushions of her couch. "Wow." She said taking in everything Elizabeth had just told her.

"I know." Liz said pouring herself another glass.

"Girl, this shit is crazier than a soap opera."

"I love him so much." Liz said. "Seeing her in his arms just about killed me. What am I supposed to do?"

"I really do feel for you Elizabeth. You took a big chance getting involved with Jake but don't let that bitch take your man." Suzanne said taking a sip of her wine. "Fight for him."

Liz sighed. "I am. I'm just so scared."

"It's okay to be scared just don't let it interfere with your judgment."

"Easier said than done." Liz said taking another sip.

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Johnny led Jason into the gym. There were a few people sparring but it was pretty empty. "Why don't you punch the bag for a while? I'll tape your hands."

Jason nodded and Johnny got some tape and made sure Jason's fingers were protected. "Have at it." He said.

Jason went over to the bag and took off his shirt and started punching. After a little while, he was pouring sweat. Every once in a while Johnny would stop him and make him drink water.

Watching Jason in action was pretty mesmerizing. Everyone had stopped to watch him massacre the bag. He was like a machine. Johnny let him go for a little while longer and then made him stop.

"What's wrong?" Jason asked out of breath.

"You're not used to this. It's going to hurt like a bitch in the morning." He said throwing Jason a towel. "Follow me."

Jason picked up his shirt and followed Johnny to the back.

"Strip down and take a hot shower. Your locker is number five. There's some clothes in there. Don't get dressed yet. Put on your boxers and lay on the table in the room over there. You'll need a rubdown or you'll be crying like a little girl tomorrow." Johnny explained.

Jason smirked. "Thanks."

Johnny threw him another water bottle. "Suck that down too."

He left and Jason stripped and got into the shower.

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Elizabeth was officially buzzed. She had just hung up the phone with Suzanne and Sarah had just come over.

"So, why are we drinking?"

"Sam was here." Liz said. "She was hugging Jason and then he left upset, barely saying a word."

Sarah sighed. "Give me that bottle." She said before taking it from her and gulping a swig.

"I hate that bitch." Liz slurred out.

Sarah chuckled. "Tell me how you really feel. She's nothing but a walking set of boobs. She really has nothing on you."

"She probably fucked Jason on this couch." Liz said looking down.

"Ewww. I feel so dirty now." Sarah said grimacing.

"And she got the Jason who remembered having sex. Not that I'm complaining because he's ridiculously good in bed despite that." Liz said blushing.

Sarah smirked. "I'm glad he's rocking your world."

"I just want my Jason all to myself." She said firmly.

Sarah chuckled. "I could ask Johnny to put a hit out on her."

Liz laughed. "They could shoot her boobs out."

"Where do you think he went?" Sarah asked smiling.

"I don't know." Liz said.

Sarah got up and walked to the door and opened. "Francis, do you know where Jason went?"

"He's at the gym with Johnny."

"Thanks." She said shutting the door. "See, he's just working off some steam."

Liz nodded. "You don't have to stay with me Sarah."

"Yes I do. You're hurting and I'm not going anywhere." She said plopping down. "And when Jason gets back, we'll all go to bed together just to piss Patrick off again."

Liz giggled. "Sounds like a plan."

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Jason finished his massage and got dressed. He was a little sore but he felt a lot better.

Johnny walked in. "Francis called."

Jason looked up as he put on his shoes. "Is everything okay?"

"Elizabeth and Sarah are wasted."

Jason frowned. "Really? Elizabeth doesn't normally do that."

"Well you did kind of leave abruptly after she saw you with Sam, according to Francis." Johnny said.

Jason closed his eyes. "Shit. Sam is just driving me crazy and not in a good way."

"Well, we'll see what you do about it in a few days." Johnny said.

"She acts like we were so perfect for each other." Jason said making a face.

Johnny chuckled. "Can I be honest?"

"Please."

"You had a lot of sex. She got addicted to your dick and there was no going back for her." Johnny quipped.

Jason gave him another funny look and Johnny laughed.

"Seriously man, she does love you. I'll give her that, but were you some great love story? No. Did you love her? Yes, to an extent but I still don't think you would have asked her to marry you if you hadn't been pushed a little."

"I guess we better get back." Jason said, not sure what to think. Could he have been that much of an idiot to just go along with what other people wanted and not care about what he wanted?

"I'll meet you out front." Johnny said.

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When Johnny and Jason came back, Elizabeth and Sarah were in the living room with music blaring and they were using hair brushes for microphones.

"This is classic shit." Johnny said grinning.

Jason chuckled.

When Elizabeth saw Jason, she stopped and put her hand over her mouth like she had just been caught stealing.

Sarah looked over at them and smiled. "Hey gorgeous. Is that plural?" She asked turning to Liz.

"No, it's hey gorgeouses." Liz sputtered out.

They didn't say anything for a second and then started to laugh loudly.

Sarah turned off the music.

"What have you two been up to?" Jason asked.

"Nothing." They said in tandem.

Jason smiled. Elizabeth looked so cute.

"Johnny, I was gonna stay but I miss my Patrick." Sarah said as her eyes started to tear.

"Don't cry. Come on I'll take you." Johnny said.

Sarah grinned and hugged her sister goodbye and followed Johnny out.

Jason slowly walked over to Elizabeth. "Are you mad at me?"

Liz shook her head. "No, just frustrated." She said plopping down onto the couch.

He sat down next to her. "I'm sorry I left the way I did. I'm pretty frustrated too."

She leaned her head on his arm. "I feel like I'm all over the place. One minute I'm confident and the next I 'm so scared."

"Elizabeth, I'd disappear with you in a heartbeat. If that's what you want…."

"No Jason. Your family is here. You have friends. Sleepy." She muttered.

"I'd carry upstairs but I overdid it at the gym."

Liz groaned and stood up. "Come on. I'll help you."

Jason smiled and stood up. "I'll get the lights."

They went upstairs and got into bed.

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The next day, Sonny and Carly invited them over to lunch. Sonny took Jason aside.

"I need to tell you something Jason."

"What's up?"

"You weren't just my enforcer, you were also my partner. You have a lot of money." He said.

Jason sighed. "Okay."

Sonny chuckled. "You were never really fazed that. Our lawyer will be here after lunch. I thought you might want to talk to her about your will. You can use my home office. I'm not sure how your amnesia fits into this but it's a serious surgery and I thought you might want to know where your finances stood."

Jason nodded. "I'll talk to her. It's probably a good idea."

"While you were gone, the business was pretty stable until the last month. Word was getting out that you were missing." Sonny explained.

"I need to ask you something." Jason said.

"Sure."

"How much killing did I actually do?" Jason asked.

Sonny shrugged. "It was an as needed kind of thing. People came after us and you took care of them. It's really bothering you isn't it?"

"I don't see how it couldn't." Jason said frankly.

"You had the ability to turn yourself off. It's hard to explain."

Jason sighed. "Sorry it's just a lot to wrap my mind around."

"I don't think you should be worried about that right now. Try to relax and kick back."

"Easier said than done." Jason said.

They went back over to the girls and Sonny handed Michael to Jason hoping that the little boy could take his enforcer's mind off the surgery.

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Carly and Elizabeth walked out onto the back deck. "How are you holding up?"

"I'm hanging in there. It's been rough knowing the surgery is coming and it's been frustrating for Jason not remembering anything."

Carly nodded. "He was always a control freak."

Liz laughed.

"He was." Carly said smiling. "Jason is the type of man who likes things a certain way. He was a creature of habit for the most part. But I would never change anything about him."

"Is he a lot different right now then he used to be?" Liz asked curiously.

"He smiles a lot more now and he's not as quiet. He was the king of blank faces. I think you lighten him up a lot." Carly explained. "Jason can be very intense."

The guys joined them and they all sat down and ate. It was a beautiful day.

After lunch Diane came over and she and Jason went into the office to talk.

"So, I'm aware of your current condition. Changing your will right now would be a bit tricky due to the amnesia. Currently, you have your money divided between your sister Emily (who would also get your shares of ELQ), a couple of charities, a generous donation to General Hospital, and a couple of trusts for Johnny and Francis. Your business shares would be sold back to Sonny and the money would go towards your estate. There was a clause that if you were married a portion would go to your wife and children." Diane rattled off.

"Do you think anyone would fight me on this?" Jason asked.

"Probably not. Your family has money and you're not married." Diane said.

"I would like to take care of Elizabeth. Is that possible?"

Diane sighed. "Honestly Jason, we could try but if someone did protest it due to your amnesia, they could."

"Can I access money right now?" He asked.

"Yes."

"How much am I worth?"

"About fifty million, probably more at this point. You have real estate holdings as well." Diane said.

Jason's mouth dropped open. "Wow."

Diane smirked. "You invested wisely."

"What if we open a bank account today and we put a large sum in it for her?" Jason asked.

"We could probably do that. I'll need her social. We can also put some money in an offshore account." She said.

"Do it."

"How much are we talking?" She asked.

"Five Million." He said.

Diane nodded.

"And I want her as my power of attorney." Jason added.

"I'll submit the paperwork today." Diane said.

Jason sat back. "Thank you."

He went into the living room and asked Elizabeth to write down her social. She wasn't sure what was going on but she did it.

Jason finished up with Diane and then they went back to the penthouse.