A/N: As promised here is part 2 :)
The next several months went by with nothing heard from Kensi it's like as soon she left they were forgotten about, as if she put them all in this little box and locked them away in a closet. Nell was partnered with Deeks in the field he told Hetty it was either that or no partner at all.
Kensi made one friend at the new office and it happened by chance her second week there when she realized things weren't quite right with her body, she had brushed off what she thought was food poisoning or a stomach bug but after a few days when it didn't go away Andrea offered to take her to a Doctor to get checked she agreed and that's when it hit her. She would some day have to return to Los Angeles and some day confront her past.
That was seven months ago and if it wasn't for her new team she wouldn't have anything for the baby and she had yet to tell him and here she was on desk duty and their suspect had fled to Los Angeles and her boss had insisted on a video call instead of a phone call and she was in charge. He said it would be good for her to speak to her old team, if only he knew what she had left behind and kept a secret from them all. She calls Hetty and tells her there will be a video call and gives a small run down of the case.
He had thought about calling or emailing her just to see how she was doing but could never bring himself to not after what he said to her, all the hurt he put her through. Today was different though he was typing up an email telling her all these things Monty was doing and that he missed her but understood why she had to leave that it had given him time to think and fix himself and that he hoped she had found happiness when Hetty appeared in the middle of their desks. "Gentlemen we have a case and you needed upstairs for video call with the field office in Florida."
Deeks looks at Sam and Callen and then back to Hetty and asks "The south eastern field office?"
"Yes Mr. Deeks that would be correct." she replied and walked back upstairs.
Sam and Callen share a look. They never asked where Kensi went but the way Deeks asked about that specific office they knew "You okay man?" Sam asks placing a hand on his team mates shoulder
"Yeah I will be." he says making his way upstairs
They all filed in and took there places Deeks stood where he always stood with her empty space beside him. Eric pulled up the video and flipped it to the big screen and Deeks heart stopped their she was.. beautiful as ever and very much pregnant, his heart told him it was his but the same voice who had told him he was just temporary in her life that she really wanted Jack was screaming your a fool to think it's yours. He was so caught up in the war inside he didn't notice his whole team had given a quick glance in his direction to make sure he was okay.
She instinctively brings her hand to her belly at the sight of him and smiles, they are both looking at each other and her team mates who didn't go to Los Angeles sharing a curious look but neither said anything as the she and Deeks carried on a silent conversation like they always did.
Callen was the first to speak "Good seeing you Kens" Sam and the others echo him but Deeks is still speechless trying to form words in his head but he can't take his eyes off her, he thought he was doing good but seeing her knowing there was a ninety percent chance the child was his killed him. He pushed her away and never got a chance to feel the baby move or go to an appointment with her never got to hear the heartbeat and it was slowly killing him, he excused himself from the video call and went to his desk.
Kensi went a head with the briefing and told them they had a team that their would arrive in a few hours and they would go to the boat shed. After they ended the video call Kensi turned to leave when her team mate spoke "Was that him?"
"I'm not sure I know what your talking about" she says
"Are you ever going to tell him?" Her team mate saw through her facade
"He already knows. That's why he excused himself from the briefing" she says
"What happened between you guys" her team mate asks
"We let our job get in the middle of our relationship and I walked away. I left him as soon as the case was done. I knew what it felt like to be left, and I did it to him and when I got here and found I was expecting his child I couldn't bring myself to tell him. I regret not telling him but he knows why I didn't." she says wiping away her tears "He wanted this so bad and not only did I walk away but I kept it from him."
"You should call him.. It might sound hard and it will be but you both deserve it. The connection you two share is still there I saw it and so did your friends in LA."
"I know we do."
She leaves to go splash water on her face and collect and her thoughts before calling him.
Sam and Callen sit back down at their desks and Callen is the first to speak "You alright Deeks?"
Deeks lets out a dry laugh "Why wouldn't I be?"
Sam is the one to speak this time "Because Kensi has been gone for seven months and never even bothered to tell you she was pregnant."
"She didn't tell me because I accused her of loving another man, the same man who walked out on her Christmas morning. She left because I destroyed what we had and I can't blame her for not telling me, Hell whose to say that if she did call me when she found out that I wouldn't have asked if she was sure it wasn't Sabatino's kid." he asks
Sam nods in agreement "I see your point man. The jobs not easy when emotions get in the way."
"How do you and Michelle make it work?" Deeks asks
"We talk about things, yeah we have our fights every couple does, but at the end of the day we figure things out. You and Kensi use to do the same thing, I saw it many times, but that case was harder because you couldn't be there and I understand what you felt because I've been there man plenty of times."
"Deeks call her" Callen says
"I can't man. I screwed it all up" Deeks says shaking his head
"You sure about that? From what we all just witnessed in there, you guys are far from over" Callen says in a tone that tells him it's not up for argument
"You guys really think that.."
"We don't think Deeks, we know" Sam says "I don't think she really wanted to leave but to save what you two had left she did."
Eric came bounding down the steps with a lead on there guy and to let the guys know the Florida team had arrived and Hetty had given them the address to the boat shed and they were no waiting on the them.
Deeks phone rang "Hey guys I'm uh.. Is it alright if I catch up with you in a little bit?"
"Take your time Deeks" Sam says "We'll be alright, you and Kensi need to talk"
"How.. nvm" Deeks says laughing before he answers his phone "hey"
"Hey" she replies realizing how much she has missed his voice these last seven months "I.. I'm sorry Deeks"
"No I should be the one to apologize." he says "Kens I said things that really hurt you I understand why you left, why you didn't tell me"
"Deeks seven months is a really long time to keep something like this from you. I should have told you sooner and not letting you find out during video call briefing." she pauses taking a breath "I'm not exactly sure I would have ever told you"
"I know Kens." he says
She hears the sadness in his voice as they talk and it breaks her heart it shouldn't be this way, them miles apart on separate sides of the country. "I miss you" she says in barely a whisper
"I miss you too Kens" he says "Can I.. uh come see you?"
"I would like that Deeks. You think Hetty would let you though?" she asks
"Are you kidding I am her favorite!" he says with a laugh
He gets off the phone with Kensi and head to Hetty's office
"Mr Deeks what can I do for you?" Hetty asks
"I was wondering if I could use a few of my vacation days this week"
"Ah I see. Have you talked to your time about taking a vacation? Maybe they would like an input."
"That won't be necessary Hetty. They will agree with me on this" he says
"Have you asked for time off with LAPD?" she asks
Deeks looks down at the floor and sighs. He hadn't thought of having to ask for time off. He never really had to when he had to leave L.A for a case but this wasn't a case. It was personal time that he needed. "Not yet. But I will get right on that."
After two hours of aggravation, a half hour hold, in which Bates came back with the approval for vacation time and a headache later Deeks finally got the time off he wanted. He'd be lying if he said he wasn't a nervous wreck inside.
He had begun packing his bag when the guys got back Callen looked at Sam and back to Deeks "I take it you are going to Florida"
Deeks smiles "like Kensi could stay away from this"
Callen laughs "more like the Tramp couldn't stay away from the Lady"
Deeks stops and looks between the two agents "wait a minute.. how long has that been a running joke between you two?"
"In our defense you were a bit of tramp back in the day" Callen says with a chuckle
Sam pipes in "I still think it's more like beauty and the beast G"
"And again you guys are like the annoying older brother I never had" Deeks says "But you know I would never trade this"
"We know" Sam says "now go catch that plane to your girl"
Hetty appeared out of nowhere, which really was nothing new to Deeks but still scared him when she spoke. "Mr. Deeks you will need this to catch your plan" she says as she hands him his flight confirmation.
Deeks chuckles "I take it you were the half hour hold with Bates"
"Indeed Mr. Deeks enjoy your vacation"
"I will" he says as he heads home to pack some clothes.
A/N: This chapter in the story was suppose to be the last but unless I wanted it to be another 2k+ words this is now 3 part story. I'm almost done with it and Violetdoodlebug there will be lots of fluff in the next chapter!