-Sorry. This is more of a filler-
It had been four years after the massacre. The only family I had left by my side was Sasuke. He hadn't been the same since that day, but neither have I. Day after day was nightmare after nightmare. The only thing we had for comfort was each other, but even that didn't help much. As time passed they slowly started to end.
The first thing I noticed after that dreaded day were the eyes that always had joy in them, they were gone. His eyes were either emotionless as he struggled to hide the pain or were full of hatred when he couldn't contain it any longer. It was like he wasn't the same person anymore, but who would be after what we went through.
Sasuke wasn't on his own. I changed as well. I lost my will to speak with most. Only when absolutely necessary would I say anything. The most I'll speak is a couple sentences a day. I isolated myself from everyone else, even my own flesh and blood. It's not that I didn't want him near, It's just that... I couldn't trust anyone anymore. My eldest brother, whom I trusted so dearly, killed most of my clan. That had to be start of my trust issues. I would always have doubts. I hated myself for thinking that way. Questions. There were always a question like What if Sasuke was hiding something too? that would pass through my mind. I needed reassurance. I had to be strong enough to protect myself. Then I thought...
Why not train in secret?
All I had to do was hit the scrolls. So, I borrowed many scrolls, reading about chakra system to jutsus of many. I improved much quicker than most, being a fast learner and having the brains of an Uchiha to understand all that was written. I was able to learn from jutsus that a genin would use to those a chunin would. I couldn't get scrolls for higher level jutsus. It's not like I did it all over night either, I wasn't that special. I spent two years learning it all. What was even harder was keeping it a secret. Sasuke sometimes got suspicious to why I would come home late. I also had to suppress my chakra and pretend to be worse than my brother during the academy, which took a lot of concentration.
Sooner or later I knew In was going to get caught. And I did. The way the jonin approached the situation, was not expected. I asked the man to state his name, he called himself Kakashi Hatake. He was a old friend of the family, at least that's what he told me. He was walking by as he spotted me. Yes, because an abandoned training ground was really close to the hokage's office.
He decided to ask the dreaded question, "What is it that you're doing here?"
Kakashi didn't get me to speak a word. He must have figured it out, because what he said next was something I did not expect..
"Why don't I train you?"
Why he offered, I still don't know to this very day. I mean, Who ever knows what's going on in his mind. Who knows what was going through my mind when I agreed. The two years after that were the worst and best of my life.
Kakashi-sensei got me to talk to him more than I would to Sasuke. He worked me to the bone and was able to teach me what I wanted to know.
How to protect myself in any given situation.
It was not easy at all. It took a high number of concentration, time and chakra. But, after all that I was good as he was. Maybe even better.
That's how four years of my life passed. How I improved the best I could for my own sake.