Chapter two: Hoping you guys are liking this. It is so difficult writing from Jacob`s POV but I am doing my best. You need to know why he does what he does. I am totally team Jacob and everyone knows that people have flaws. So here`s what happened next. Thanks so much for reviewing to the first chapter. You guys are great. Happy reading.

After...after that I skipped out on school. I didn`t want to phase. I didn`t want the others to know yet. They would all make such a big deal out of it. Shit...why can`t I stop thinking about her? Oh man...Sonia... I felt horrible being away from her. I felt so guilty. Not just for being mean to her, but for dragging her into this mess. She was innocent. She didn`t seek me out looking for any of this to happen to her. It was not her fault I didn`t want her. What if she didn`t want me?

The thoughts of that made me stop in my tracks with some undefined emotion. Why was I so sure she would want me in the first place? I mean...I knew I was hot now because of the phasing. I was grown, muscular. The other girls at school noticed...but not her. I didn`t think so anyway. Maybe she didn`t even feel the imprint?

Bullshit of course she felt it Jacob! It`s a two way thing. She would be feeling it now. She would be confused. It had been set in motion. I had to stay away from her. I had to! I couldn`t let it get out of hand! If she hated me then she would stay away from me. Crap! I don`t want her to hate me but I do. SHIT SHIT SHIT! I ran threw the woods and punched a tree. I felt so agitated that I knew I would phase at any minute.

Think calming thoughts. Think about Bella. I couldn`t bring her face to mind as easily as I could before. Sonia`s face taunted me, daring me to try and forget about her. She was so beautiful. Even before I phased I thought she was. But she was always so...unapproachable. It shamed me to say it but I did look down on her and her friends before I phased. They came from the poorest or the most troubled families on the rez. I suppose they stuck with each other as a form of support. They were the ones that were picked on during grade school and middle school. Now...they were sort of feared and envied. They were the cool ones, they were the ones who didn`t have to conform. They were the ones who had the freedom to be who they wanted. I remembered doing a project with her back in the ninth grade. She had been nothing but nice then. I remembered thinking she had a pretty smile. Maybe we could have been friends? No... we didn`t run in the same groups. That saddened me.

My imprint. I want her to be happy. I couldn`t make her happy though. Not when my heart belonged to another. If she didn`t know about it...then she would be kept out of harms way. What if she left the rez? That thought filled me with panic. We couldn`t be away from each other. It would be painful.

My selfish desire to be near her conflicted with my desire to keep her out of this mess. Out of harms way. Was I fighting a losing battle? I knew from Sam`s, Jared`s, Paul`s and Quil`s expierences that it was impossible to fight the imprint. Maybe I could though? If I made her hate me then I would have to respect her wishes. I would have to stay away from her then. It would be better for her and it would be better for me too.

Oh Christ why? Why? I was nearing my house. I knew I would have to explain to my dad why I was out of school early. I also knew I would have to tell him what had happened. He would be delighted of course. He was getting pretty annoyed with me. He was constantly telling me to man up and just forget about Bella. That she was no good for me. That she was using me and I was a fool for letting her. I knew I was a fool. If I acted like an idiot it was because I wanted her to stay human. Was it idiotic to love someone? I couldn`t handle it if she became one of them. A vampire Bella...that thought was too painful.

"Jacob!" Too lost in thought I didn`t even hear Embry run after me.

"Jake wait up! Did you imprint? What the fuck happened?" I slowed down and let him catch up to me. His smile faltered when he saw my face. "What`s up?"

"Yeah I...I imprinted." I told him. He frowned.

"And you`re not happy? Christ Jake! Sonia is hot! You`re so lucky." He said wistfully. I got angry.

"Don`t fucking talk about her that way!" I snarled, pushing him. He looked perplexed.

"Already getting possessive eh?" He smiled knowingly.

"Shut up!" I turned and headed towards my house with a renewed vigor.

"Come on Jake! Aren`t you happy?" He asked.

"No!"

"What?"

"I love Bella Embry! I don`t want...I don`t want Sonia!"

"You are not serious?" Embry asked, incredulous. I didn`t answer him. "Oh my God you are! Jake...you have an imprint now. How could you still want Bella?"

"I love Bella."

"I keep hearing that but I don`t believe you. You are in love with the idea of her. You have found your soul mate man! You have a chance to be happy for once."

"I don`t want her to get messed up in this. I don`t know if she even likes me."

"She will now. You know she can`t resist the imprint."

"I don`t want her."

"You will Jake. Do you really think you will stand by and let someone else have her?" I stopped at his words. I knew he was telling the truth but I would deal with that later. When the time comes.

"If she chooses someone else than yes." I lied.

"You`re an idiot." He stated, still following me.

"I`m protecting her."

"You`re protecting no one but yourself. You`ll just end up hurting her."

"I don`t care."

"Oh my God you are such a tool. You know that you won`t be able to stay away from her."

"I can. I`m going to."

Embry followed me all the way back to my house. When my dad started questioning me about why I was home so early I just ignored him and shut myself away in my room. I left Embry to explain what had happened. I could hear them talking away. My dad of course was delighted. The day he had been waiting for had come. Even though Bella was his best friends daughter he had a thing against her. He didn`t trust her. He had said she was too like her mother. Selfish, manipulative, grasping. Even though I hated to admit it I knew he was right to an extent.

He began to question Embry about my imprint. To my surprise he knew a lot about her. She did ballet. She used to do gymnastics. She was on the soccer team. People thought she was a wild child but she was pretty decent. Just misunderstood.

I got jealous then. Jealous that Embry knew so much about her. Did he have a crush on her or something? Racking my memory I couldn`t find any time where he thought about her that way. But Embry was watchful. He noticed things about other people that others usually missed out on.

Feeling like I was going crazy I got off my bed and went and joined them in the kitchen. My dad was practically beaming at me. I hadn`t seen him look that happy in ages.

"This is a very proud moment for me Jacob." He said.

"It`s not like I`m marrying her dad!" I said a bit too sarcastically.

"In a couple of years yes." Smiling, he wheeled over to me and grasped my upper arm.

"I know she`ll make you happy. You deserve it Jacob. You deserve nothing less than the best!" He was using his serious voice. I knew he was concerned about me. He told me I was torturing myself with Bella. Which was true in a way.

"Listen to your dad Jake. He knows what he`s talking about."

"Thanks Embry!" My dad laughed. Rolling my eyes I went and stood at the back door.

"You should call her. See if she`s home okay. I heard she got suspended." Embry said, opening a soda.

"Suspended? For what?" Dad asked.

"Fighting. My imprint gets into trouble a lot dad. You don`t see Bella doing that." I said nastily. Embry snorted and my dad looked angry.

"Does Sonia have an unnatural obsession with vampires Jacob? Somehow I bet she doesn`t. She is a Quileute. She was chosen for you and you for her! Just realize that before you fuck everything up for yourself!" My dad yelled before wheeling off into the living room muttering to himself.

"Call her Jake. I know you want to. Just to see if she`s okay." Embry said calmly.

"No."

"Fine. I`ll do it. She is the newest member of the pack after all. Gotta look out for her, since her imprinter doesn`t give a shit."

I watched as Embry picked up my phone and...paused.

"Where`s your phonebook?" He asked. "I don`t know her number."

"Fuck off Embry."

"Christ you are such a wuss." He fished his mobile out of his pocket. "Hey mom...do you have the Mara`s number? Yeah? Cool. What is it?" Holding his mobile to his ear he dialed the number into my house phone. "Thanks mom. Yeah. Love you too. Bye."

"You are so getting your ass kicked." I warned him. He shrugged and put his finger to his lips in order to get me to stop talking.

"Shut up! It`s ringing." I felt my heart race a little faster. As much as I willed it to stop it wouldn`t. A big part of me wanted to hear her voice.

"Hello." An older woman`s voice answered.

"Hello? Mrs. Mara? Hi. This is Embry Call. I was wondering if Sonia is home?"

"No. She isn`t yet. Embry Call is it?" She asked a little enthusiastically.

"Yeah."

"I`ll get her to call you when she gets home."

"Oh no worries Mrs. Mara. I can talk to her another time."

"If you are sure?"

"I am. Thanks."

"Okay Embry bye bye."

"Bye."

He hung up smiling.

"Wasn`t so hard now was it?" He asked grinning.

"Please Embry...just leave me be okay?" I pleaded. His expression turned serious.

"Jake. You are my best friend. I want to see you happy is all. You should be happy!"

"How can I be?" I asked. "I can`t be. Not with Sonia."

"You don`t even know her! You won`t even give her a shot!"

"How do you know she`ll give me one?" I asked, suddenly feeling so vulnerable. I didn`t deserve this girl. I didn`t know if she could make me happy, or if I could make her happy.

"You are destined for each other. How can you even say that?"

"You know you sound like such a pansy?"

"Who cares Jake? Just...listen to your dad. Don`t fuck things up because in the end. You know you will end up wanting her...falling in love with her."

"I`m not going to let that happen."

"We`ll see."

After Embry had left my dad was in no mood to talk to me. I sat moodily in the kitchen. Willing myself not to try and seek out Sonia`s voice with my super hearing. Was she home safe? Was she okay? How was she feeling? How does she feel about me? Now? After what had happened? Oh man! When did I lose my balls? I used to laugh at the others. How they were so concerned about their imprints. But now...now I understood. Finding that someone...that one girl...it was scary as fuck not knowing if she was okay. If she was feeling happy and safe.

I kept on looking over at the phone. Should I call her? I wanted to which was crazy. Don`t be stupid Jacob! She won`t want to talk to you! Why would she? Arrghhhh!

Before I knew what I was doing I had the receiver held up to my ear and I was pressing redial. Oh crap! Oh shit! Oh shit! Oh shit!

"Hello?" Her lovely voice greeted me, calming me, making me...utterly speechless. I just stood there like a dumb idiot with my mouth hung open.

"Hello?" She said again. This time with a hint of confusion in her voice. What the fuck was I doing? Calling her and not saying anything like some weirdo stalker. I wanted so bad to say something. Anything! But I couldn`t find the words...I didn`t know what to say to her. 'Hello. I`m Jacob Black. A guy you went to school with all your life. By the way I`m a shape shifter wolf who kills vampires. And guess what? We`re soul mates. Isn`t that great?' Yeah right. She would get a restraining order against me. Like that would stop me...

"I`m hanging up now." She said. No! NO! Just you talk into the phone Sonia. I`ll listen to you. I just want to hear your voice. Completely panicking I hung up first.

Oh shit oh shit oh shit! Why did I do that? Why did I call her? I needed to. I wanted to. I wanted to see her! I almost jumped out of my skin as the phone started ringing again. It was her. I knew it was! I couldn`t answer it. She would know it was me.

"DAD!" I yelled urgently. He wheeled into the kitchen looking perplexed.

"Why aren`t you answering the phone?"

"You answer it! And I`m not here got it? I`m not here!" I must have sounded like a maniac as my dad slowly nodded his head and picked up the receiver.

"Hello." Dad answered normally.

"Hello. I got a silent call from this number." Sonia... she sounded so shy. My dad gave me one of his looks and shook his head.

"A silent call? Who am I speaking to?" He asked.

"Sonia Mara." My dad smiled at me this time.

"I`m Billy Black. Jake must have called you." I tugged at my hair in fury. Shit dad! Why did you have to say that! Christ old man...

"Oh..hello Mr. Black. I uh..." Now she sounds so dumbfounded. Why did I have to call her?

"I would put you on to Jacob but he has just left." My dad used his soft tone with her. Thank you dad...but if you`d had said I was here you will be dead by now.

"That`s okay. Em...well...bye." No! I wanted to hear her voice some more.

"Goodbye Sonia. Feel free to stop by and see Jake any time you want." Don`t say that dad! Urghhhh!

"Yeah...sure...Bye Mr. Black." She said politely.

"Billy." He corrected her. There was no way he was going to let this go now. He would be getting her to call him dad next.

"Excuse me?"

"You can call me Billy."

"Oh..okay..bye Billy." She laughed a little which sounded so sweet. I felt my heart melt a little then harden again as I thought of Bella.

"Goodnight Sonia." My dad said smiling and hanging up. He didn`t look at me or say anything for a long time. He seemed lost in thought.

"Jacob. Don`t start playing stupid games with her. That girl has had a hard enough life as it is."

"I`m not playing games dad. I just...I don`t know what to do."

"Follow your heart son. Listen to what it`s telling you."

"If it`s saying I want Bella?"

"Then be pretty damn sure that she is who you want."

"I am sure."

"No you`re not...I know you too well. Remember what I said Jacob and listen to me... don`t hurt that girl. You might think you are doing the right thing but...you`re young, the choices you make now will effect your whole life. Don`t be so sure as to what you want now. Things change...feelings change. You might think Bella is the love of your life but what happened today put a lie to that. Don`t throw Sonia away now because you will...believe me you will regret it later."

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