Chapter three. Hope you enjoy. No Sonia interaction just yet but I hope this will explain a bit more about Jacob and what I imagine his relationship with his pack mates are. Happy reading and thanks so much for the reviews. You guys are so nice and great.

Okay so...yeah. Staying away from Sonia was more difficult than I thought it would be. I promised myself that I wouldn`t go to her house and pull an Edward by sneaking into her room and watching her sleep or anything weird like that. I didn`t go that far. I just hid out in the woods behind her house in wolf form. Listening to her talk to her mom or nana. The more I saw of her the more I wanted to know. I knew I wouldn`t be content with just catching glimpses of her whenever she passed a window or went out back. I needed more...but I was too chicken to approach her. She would literally scream wolf if she saw me come near her.

I loved her...it seemed like it had always been there...lying dormant with my wolf and awoken in a flash of violence and metamorphosis. She changed me...I don`t know how but she did. Then there was Bella. My feelings...my love for her was still too raw...too open. I loved her the same. I wanted her the same as I did but there was the other girl...my imprint. A girl that would never go away. A girl I was bound to for life. She was my gaoler and my prison. Did I even long for escape?

"Jake please stop whining and do something about it!" Jared huffed, annoyed. He gave me the mental finger and went on thinking about Kim and how beautiful she was pregnant. I let my mind wander back to Sonia. I could imagine her pregnant with my child...I could imagine making that child with her... Having her underneath me... moaning at what I was doing to her...

"And so it begins." Paul`s drawl echoed out loudest in the pack mind. "Looks like we have another Jared on our hands. Better nip it in the bud now."

I could hear the others start to laugh. Couldn`t any thoughts remain private? Eurghhh!

"If Sonia found out you were spying on her you can forget your chances of getting into her panties." Paul informed me.

"Shut up Paul!" I growled, taking one last look at Sonia eating a yogurt and staring obsessively at the calendar on the kitchen wall before turning away and heading for patrol.

What was up with that? The staring at the calendar and clocks? Counting with her fingers too. I heard Paul try and stopper something he knew about her...something about numbers. Embry picked that up too. He was in the same maths class as her. The dumb class as it`s known.

"Hey shut up Jake! You`re dumber than I am!" He shouted.

"Yeah yeah yeah. So...what`s the deal with her? Is she as dumb as you?" I asked, pretending not to care.

"She has number dyslexia or something." Embry said.

What`s that? Maybe I could help her or something...

"I wouldn`t even suggest that Jake." Paul warned. "Last I remembered she was a bit prickly about it. Wait until you get to know her better." He advised.

"There will be no getting to know her better. I don`t want her."

"Ha! You were thinking about getting her pregnant a minute ago!" Jared laughed. I didn`t have any reply for that.

"Whatever Jake. It`s your life. Feel free to fuck it up as much as you like." He went on. "Just don`t cry over it when Sonia actually does end up hating your guts and Bella is a vamp."

"Don`t be so hard on him Jared." Shit. Leah now. Eurghhhh! "It`s not as if he knows how to actually talk to women. I mean real women...not the ones who find the whole leech lifestyle attractive."

"You should know Leah." I snarled at her. "Since you`ve gone all butch lesbian. Maybe you could give me a few pointers." I could feel her getting angry.

"You can say what you like Jacob. But you know something? A girl like Sonia Mara... she`s no Bella. Treat her like crap and believe me she will hate you. She won`t forgive you when you realize you`ve made a mistake."

"You know something Leah? Maybe that`s why you hate Sam so much? He didn`t love you enough to fight for you."

Even as the words left my mouth I knew I had made a horrible mistake. Those who were phased winced and stopped whatever else they were doing. We could all feel a black fury, like a storm, coming from Leah. It was scary a little. We couldn`t even hear what she was thinking!

"You may think that Jacob. But Sam is a million times the man you could ever even hope to be. A man accepts who he is and what he has to do. If that means giving up somebody else...then..."

"Listen Leah...I`m sorry.."

"Shove your apologies up your ass Black! I hope now Sonia won`t even give you the time of day." She must have phased back to human because we couldn`t hear her anymore.

"Nice going Jake! Sam is going to fucking kill you, you know that right?" Embry asked.

"Yeah...I know. It`s just that Leah..."

"Leah is Leah. Just leave her be." Jared advised. Kim had made him promise to be nicer to Leah. And whatever Kim wanted...

"Kim gets." Jared said in a warning tone. "What exactly do you have against her Jake?" Jared accused in that calm scary way of his.

"I don`t have a problem with her Jared!"

"Spit it out!" He growled. Thank God he was miles away from me. "It`s about the whole writing my name in her diary thing isn`t it?"

"Well it was kinda funny." I defended. Or pathetic, I couldn`t help but think. Jared`s thoughts blacked out for a moment, but he controlled himself.

"You`re the pathetic one. The way you go on about Bella is fucking weak! The fucking two of you are... You make Bella out to be the coolest, most special girl in the world when the reality is is that she is going out with a fucking vampire! She chose one of them over you! And you call my Kim pathetic for writing my name in her diary? A perfectly normal teenage thing to do."

"I`m sorry Jared." I mumbled. Shit! I was sorry. Kim is so nice.

"Kim is nice. She`s normal. Oh yeah... if you or Bella call her plain again you`re gonna get your ass kicked."

"Kim isn`t plain." Collin pipped in. I almost forgot he was here. He remembered when she used to babysit him. He had a little crush on her from before he wolfed out. Now I was feeling so guilty.

"You should. You are even more superficial than Bella is. You know what? Yeah, Sonia is beautiful. More beautiful than Bella. But that is not what matters. What matters is is that she is a human being. She has things going on in her life, she actually has interests and is interesting but all you can think about is is how she`s not good enough."

"That`s not true!"

"You are self hating Jacob! You think all of this is beneath you. You think Sonia is beneath you."

"Bullshit!" I yelled at Jared.

"You want your fucking china doll! You want your white skinned princess. You fucking wouldn`t even look at the other girls on the rez because they didn`t fit what you think is beautiful. Sonia is a Quileute. Pure and simple. She is your imprint. You don`t want her because she is native."

"Listen Jared! You are really pushing it! Fucking calling me a racist!"

"With your attitude, who can blame me?"

"ENOUGH!" The voice of the Alpha made the whole pack come to a halt and submit. Shit! When did he phase in? "NO MORE!" I fell flat on the ground under the weight of Sam`s order. I could feel Jared do it as well, although he was still muttering furious treats to me.

"We are a pack. We are brothers. You will stop this now." Sam said in a low threatening voice.

"Understood." Jared said, picking himself up.

"Understood." I said, getting up on shaky legs.

"Jared. You can phase out. Kim was feeling a little ill over at mine." Sam informed him. We call felt Jared`s panic as he ran full speed over to Sam`s place. Now I really felt guilty. I had nothing against Kim. She had always been nothing but nice to me and to Bella. To everyone. And Jared loved her with all that he was, and she loved him. She accepted him.

"First Quil, then Leah and now Jared. You have a lot of making up to do Jake." Sam said gruffly. He was pissed at what I had said to Leah most of all. He still loved her.

"I`m sorry."

"Don`t say sorry to me." He snapped. "When are you going to talk to Sonia and tell her?" He asked.

"I`m not telling her!"

"You are! There is no way you are getting out of this Jacob. It`s for life! Sonia is your mate!"

"I`m not a dog!"

"Stop twisting my words! She deserves to know. The longer you leave it the harder it will be. Plus...I think her grandma knows."

"How would she know?" Paul asked, interested.

"She is Levi Uley`s daughter. My granddads sister. If he knew then she would know."

"Shit man. Do you think she will tell Sonia?" Paul asked.

"No. I think she is suspicious though, with Embry calling her up and then Jake calling up and saying nothing.." Paul laughed mockingly at this, even Sam couldn`t contain a little snigger.

"Shit." I grumbled. If her nana knew then...there was no way I could get out of not telling Sonia myself.

"Exactly Jake. Talk to her. Get to know her a little. You might like what you find." Sam suggested, gently this time. I could hear his thoughts behind what he was telling me. He was happy that I had imprinted. He was sick of having Bella around, he didn`t want anymore contact with the leeches. No more than was needed.

"Tomorrow...when she comes back to school." I said. To be honest, I wanted to see what she was really like. With her friends, with people around her. I needed to be close to her. Did she feel the same way as me?

"Of course she is feeling it. It will confusing the hell out of her but...you know she will want to see you too." Sam said. "Go home now too Jake. It`s a school day tomorrow."

"I`m off." Maybe I could stop by Sonia`s again? See what she was up to.

"Stalker!" Paul and Embry said in unison. Those who were phased laughed but their voices got dimmer as I got to Sonia`s place. I could see the light on in what I had learned was her bedroom.

The little window was partially open and the sheer dark blue curtains were open. Yessss! God I am so fucked up! I could see her standing in front of her mirror in a t-shirt and panties, pinching the backs of her thighs. What the fuck was she doing? What legs though... long, smooth, a dark golden brown...so shapely...strong legs. You could see that she was active. I wanted those legs wrapped around my waist...

"Fucking cellulite." She muttered to herself before stopping and slipping on a pair of bottoms. She approached the window and opened it a little more. Popping her head out of it she took out a joint. Oh...okay...she liked smoking that then...why not? It wasn`t as if I had never tired it myself.

I let myself have a proper look at her. At her face. Was Jared right? Was I really self hating? I was really so superficial? Feeling horrible I knew he was right to an extent. I had always known that part of Bella`s appeal was that she was so different to the girls here but that didn`t mean I looked down on them!

Sonia was undeniably native. Hair so black that it had a blue shine to it was pulled off her face and into a pony tail revealing a slender neck and perfect jaw line. I couldn`t help but compare her to Bella. Where Bella`s skin was white as milk, Sonia`s was brown sugar. Where Bella`s face was heart shaped, Sonia`s was oval. Where Bella`s nose was small and thin, Sonia`s wasn`t big but it was strong, rather greek shaped. Where Bella`s mouth was full and lusicious, Sonia`s was bow shaped and a peachy color. I wanted to know how those lips tasted... Sonia was gorgeous...more than Bella. Her high cheekbones looked so delicate yet overall, she looked strong. But her eyes...her eyes were magnificent. So dark they were almost black, almond shaped to the point of being almost asian looking and framed by long inky black eye lashes. I had never in my life seen eyes as capturing as hers. They were like two bottomless pools, inviting, tempting.

How was I so sure I didn`t want her? I sure as hell liked what I saw...but was that reason good enough? I loved Bella. I loved everything about her. I wanted her to be mine and I was pretty sure she wanted me too. It was the Cullen freak brainwashing her. Controlling her. She would be so much happier with me. I could give her everything she wanted. I had to steel myself against Sonia. Against her appeal. So what she was my soul mate? If I`d had never phased then I would never have known. She doesn`t need to know... if she doesn`t like me then I wouldn`t have to do anything in regards to her.

I took one last look at her before I headed home. She looked grim. Like something was bothering her. The imprint feeling. She doesn`t understand. Not yet.

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