Chapter four! Hope you like and thanks so much for your reviews. Jake may seem like a douche in love will tear us apart but... I love him all the same (well, as much as you can love a fictional character.)

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"Hey Jake!" I was actually startled. Fucking thinking about my imprint and Bella had seriously made me lose touch with my super senses. I was about a couple of feet from my front door. Listening, I could hear my dads snores, which thankfully meant that he was asleep.

"What are you doing here Ciara?" I asked, looking around for her car. She must have walked here.

"Waiting for you. I`ve decided to forgive you." She informed me, like she was the queen and imparting me with her favor. Snorting, I rolled my eyes.

"Gosh that`s great." I said sarcastically, shaking my head at her.

"You know..." She drawled, stepping in closer to me and running her finger down my chest. In the moon light I could see her overly made up face. She did absolutely nothing for me. "I`ve always wanted to see what is underneath that t-shirt."

"Oh yeah?" I whispered down at her. Suddenly angry at the world I wanted to show everyone how much Sonia doesn`t mean to me. I pulled Ciara into me, wrapping my arms around her small frame. Hearing her heart beat faster I suddenly felt horrible but I buried that emotion as well as I could.

"Yeah..." She breathed, reaching her hand down into my pants. No use... I couldn`t even think of her that way. After a while I just pushed her away. "What`s up Jacob? You gay or something?" She sounded hurt underneath her biting insult.

"Nah baby...I`m just tired. How abouts me and you get together some other time?" Why did I even say that? Eurgghhh Jacob! Her face lit up considerably.

"Sure Jake...We can have a good time together you know." She winked at me before sauntering off into the night. Ah crap! I actually felt disgusted with myself.

Collapsing on my bed I groaned in frustration. Who the fuck was I kidding? I wanted Sonia. I had an controllable desire to claim her as my own. My mate. She was the one who should be fucking touching my dick. The thoughts of that made me stir happily. How would that feel? Trying to shake the feeling I thought about Bella. Replacing her naked image (or what I thought she looked like naked) for Sonia`s I took care of myself. It wasn`t working though...Sonia`s face...her body...what I had seen of her tonight kept popping up and pushing Bella out of the picture.

Fuck it! Let me have my little fantasy. Sonia naked, on her knees blowing me like in one of the pornos I used to watch with Quil and Embry. Oh yeah... I worked my hand furiously over my dick...imagining her on her back...pounding her until she screamed... ahh sweet release...

A bit out of breath I cleaned myself up. My mind reeling from that sudden rush of pleasure and emotions that the mere thought of my imprint could produce I knew that the real thing would be finitely better than any virgin fantasy I could conjure up. I hadn`t even talked to her and in my head I was already screwing her and impregnating her. Paul was right...she would run a mile if she ever knew...

Getting to school a bit early, I waited anxiously beside Quil`s locker, which was opposite Sonia`s. Torn between wanting to ignore her and wanting to see her I was a nervous wreck. Quil was talking to me again, giving me advice on just to talk to her. Embry told me not to be heavy. Whatever they told me went in one ear and out the other. I just wanted to look at her. I wanted to know she was safe. Knowing she was only a couple of minutes away I braced myself. I could smell her...a smell so unique that it felt it was made for my nose only. A heady mixture of her own sweet smell, shampoo and shower gel. Over all a smell I wanted to taste and sniff like a dog.

"Here she comes. Act normally." Embry instructed, leaning against the locker casually. Quil followed suit but sniggered a little.

I watched as my imprint walked purposely to her locker, not looking around or talking to anyone. She looked tired and utterly sexy. A pale lemon sweater clung to her body like a second skin, showing how tiny her waist was and how flat her stomach was. Her perfect tea cup sized breasts formed two perfect bumps that I wanted so bad to feel...

Then I knew she knew someone was watching her. Her body language said it all. She stiffened and turned her head a little but didn`t look around. She didn`t seek me out...and that made me kinda pissed.

"Just go talk to her!" Quil nudged me. I couldn`t move though. "Take your chance!"

I could only look on as another guy approached her. Oliver Smith. Stoner, hipster and general king of cool at La Push high. According to Paul, the guy got laid more times than pre-Kim Jared. What did he want with my imprint? Kill him Jacob...

"`Sup Sonz." He greeted her, taking her in. They bumped knuckles in a salute to each other.

"Oliver my love, I like the coat." My love? Is he like her boyfriend or something? Kill...Kill him...

"You like the coat is the first thing you say to me? Yeah I like the coat too. Why are you dressed up?" He asked her. Sonia`s face looked a bit fearful but she composed herself almost instantly. I thought she looked lovely.

"I`m not dressed up." She argued, pulling down the hem of her sweater some more.

"You`re wearing make-up." He accused. Was she? I didn`t really notice. Her eyes looked darker maybe, her lips shinier.

"I wear make-up all the time."

"But not like this."

"Like what?"

"Forget it Sonia. You look...nice."

"Just nice?"

They stared each other down. Feeling totally jealous of their easy friendship and relationship I felt the anger brewing up inside of me. How the fuck was it fair that I had to think and worry over her constantly and she could have it so easy? If she was feeling it...if she was thinking about me wouldn`t she be seeking me out too? And there she was, flirting with some bean pole jackass in girls jeans...

"You always look nice, even when you look like shit. You look..I dunno..pretty." He complimented her, which made her smile, which made me growl faintly.

"Cool it Jake! They are just friends." Embry whispered.

"Thanks. You do too. So what`s the gossip. Who slept with who? Who cheating on who?" She asked, getting some books out of her locker.

"Rumor has it that Ciara Harris slept with Jacob Black."

"What?" Quil whispered. "Seriously?" He asked me. Ahh crap.

"Jake dude? You didn`t, did you?" Embry asked me wide eyed.

"No!" I whispered furiously, still watching Sonia. She looked shocked...a bit hurt. Maybe she was feeling this. Steady yourself Jacob! Remember who you want. You want Bella. I couldn`t help feeling angry though. Fucking Ciara shouting her mouth off. Fucking Sonia looking all hot standing there talking to some asshole! I hated her at this moment. I hated her because I wanted her so much!

"You okay?" He asked her, a bit worried.

"Yeah..Yeah I`m fine. Just a shock to the system you know. I thought Jacob had some standards." She laughed a little, sounding like she didn`t care. How dare she even presume to know me! How dare she make fun of me like that! I saw Ollie take a sweeping look around the hall before his eyes rested on me. He looked confused for a minute, his eyes flickering to Sonia before smirking at me.

"So yeah, that`s the only interesting thing that`s happened since you`ve been gone. Say Sonia, why is Jacob Black looking at you like you did something bad to him?" Ollie whispered in her ear. The smirk grew bigger as Sonia whipped her head up from her school bag and looked over at me. Her face was impassive but her eyes... so black...so bold...held mine without a trace of shyness or resistance. I saw anger burn in them after a while. Shit...I still looked angry didn`t I? Well I was angry. Let her see what I can give her...let her see all she would ever get from me!

Totally shocking me into forgetting my anger at her, she flipped me off. Her face was scornful and haughty. Fucking bitch! Now I remembered why I wanted Bella. Sonia was nothing but some skanky trouble maker. I didn`t want her! I didn`t want her!

"Holy shit." Quil mumbled, sounding a tiny bit impressed. I sure as hell wasn`t.

"Okay Sonia. What the fuck was that? You just flipped off the future chief of the tribe. What happened? Did you guys hook up or something?" Ollie asked her, laughing as she turned to leave.

"NO! He`s just...I dunno. Honestly." She mumbled, suddenly sounding so unsure.

"Do you like him." He asked her seriously. I watched as her back stiffened. Does she like me? I felt hope inflate my heart a little but burst as that douche dared to put his hands on what was mine! He was touching my imprint! He was putting her into a freakin head lock!

Feeling a black fury as he tickled her waist, feeling a murderous rage as she giggled enjoying it... I was going to phase right here...I was going to kill him. Feeling my entire self become consumed with this red hot animal ferocity I began to shake...

"Uh gross. Don`t tell me you`ve joined the Jacob Black fanclub. Oh man Sonia. I thought you were cool." He taunted her. I reached boiling point as I saw him touch the smooth brown skin of her abdomen. Leaping across the hall in light speed I ripped the fucker off my imprint. I wanted to crush him...I wanted to rip his fucking face off...

"Touch her again and I`ll kill you." I growled in his face. Ha! The sleeze actually thought he could beat me up? Ollie proceeded to yell a stream of curses at me, pummeling all he could reach. Did he think he had a chance? Give it your best shot Ollie...you won`t hurt me...but I`ll fucking hurt you...

"Leave him alone you fucking lunatic." I was vaguely aware of Sonia jumping on my back and trying to get me to back off. The thoughts of phasing so near her, of not being able to control myself around her, threw cold water over most of my rage. Still shaking, I let Embry pull me off the little twerp.

"Are you okay?" Sonia asked Ollie, her voice full of concern. What about me? I was the one defending your honor! Yeah...go ahead and protect your little boyfriend. Ollie angrily brushed her hand away and got up.

"I`m fine. Just leave it!" He gave me a hard, venomous look before stalking off. Sonia watched him disappear before slowly rounding on me. She looked like a storm ready to explode. She held my own stare unflinchingly, utterly without fear.

"What the hell is your problem?" She whispered up at me. She only came up to my chin but at this moment she made me feel so small. I stared down at her, channelling all the rage I was feeling at her. No one...no one makes me feel this way. Especially not her.

"You are my fucking problem." Make her hate you Jacob. Push her away. You can do it now. You can solve this problem once and for all.

"What did I ever do to you?"

"Exist!" I hissed down at her, right into her face. Satisfied at the look of horror in her eyes I turned and walked away. Hearing her heart beating faster I was overcome with guilt. I didn`t really mean it but... if it makes her hate me... then so be it. I wasn`t strong enough to stay away from her, she would have to be the one to stay away from me.

Not wanting to be in school anymore I left. I should really stop doing that. The admin was starting to get suspicious. There is only so many times I could get my dad to fake a medical emergency.

Running into the forest I let go all of all my emotions. Phasing quickly I let roar. I had fucked up...so so much. I had to do it though! My life was no life to get an innocent girl involved in. I was protecting her! If she knew she would thank me. Then what was with this feeling of loss? Today...I could have taken the chance to befriend her...I could have started us on the road to happiness... I could have forgotten about Bella and just...NO! Bella needs me. She needs someone looking out for her! I can`t let her down. Sonia is safe. She is happy (I think). She doesn`t need me.

My howl was full of pain, grief and fury. The aching in my chest was because I knew I had hurt her... she did feel it. I was happy and at the same time sad about it. It seemed to me now that there was no way out of this. I would have to think of something to do...how to handle this. It was only a matter of time before I snapped. I didn`t want to wolf out in front of her...but if I told her would she believe me? Would she accept me?

Thinking about the other imprints made me depressed. The only ones who had it really easy was Jared and Kim, from the very beginning. The others all had their ups and downs but came through in the end. Thinking about it, me and Sonia should have it easy. But I was in love with someone else and I wasn`t about to give that up anytime soon.

I needed to see Bella badly. She would listen to me. I wouldn`t tell her about the imprint. Not just yet. I needed some normality with her before I brought that up. All in all I just longed for peace. Peace of mind and a peaceful life. Bella was that for me. She was like the summertime. When everything is easy, relaxed. When you don`t have to work too hard and have no school.

But Sonia...imprinting on her had awoken something else inside of me. Something wanting to claw it`s way out. Something so powerful that it was terrifying as fuck. She was like a storm. Something so elemental that it threatened to destroy everything I thought I was. She wasn`t my sweet little Bella, she was nothing like her. In the hall I got just a taste of the potential Sonia had to offer. It mystified me, it stunned me, it attracted me and over all it frightened me.

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