Dear Angel - Chapter 12

A:N: Hey again! Hope everyone had a great week-end! Well to start this off, I wanted to thank my Angel Jen for helping me out with the beginning of this chapter and for acting as my Beta once again! Isn't she just amazing? Well, I think she is! Love you Jen! And second, this chapter is in Will's POV after Sonny dropped the "there is something that I need to tell you" bomb on Will. Cliffhangers! Gotta love them! So without further adieu, here is chapter 12 of Dear Angel! Just a few more chapters left of this baby and them off to my other fic's Remember Me/I Remember you, Intoxicated, The Lake and of course, Touch My Heart! Thanks for reading and reviews are appreciated! Love you and thank you all for the get well wished and thoughts. Goodbye for now Angels! - Roxy

(Will's POV)

"I'm sorry Will, but there is something that I need to tell you...", Sonny said with a fretful tone of voice.

I was completely disconcerted when Sonny called me Angel and I wasn't sure how to approach this without being a little cautious.

"I'm listening."

I thought things were going well, until I heard him say that word, Angel. How did he know about my letters? And Angel?

"Will, I just...that name slipped out and I didn't mean for you to find out this way..."

"Sonny, I don't know what you're talking about but you better get explaining now that you've started."

"Angel, the name I just called you, well, let's just say that I know about the letters you've been exchanging with anonymous."

I didn't know whether to be embarrassed or hurt or angry about this. Those letters, which were so terribly private and special to me, were no longer a secret. No wonder Sonny had always been around when I received them. No wonder he was nervous around me. He had deceived me.

"I can't believe you would do that, Sonny! How is it that we finally start to get along, and I admit that I'm kind of attracted to you and I've never invited anyone up to my place since I moved in and then you throw Angel at me. How dare you."

I was pissed. Enraged. Humiliated.

"Will, it's not what you think! I didn't do this to make fun of you..."

"Why else would you sneak behind my back and read my private letters? And all along I thought Chad might find them, but it was you I should have been more worried about."

"Wait? You think that I found your letters and read them?"

"Yes! How else would you know about that name he calls me...Angel?"

"I-I'm so sorry, Will. It's really not what you think..."

"First, you get the promotion that I worked very hard on over me. Then you snoop through my private things to read letters that are very special to me. You will do anything to beat me, won't you Sonny? Here I thought you were a quiet, shy guy who works hard. All along you were a conniving back-stabber who will stop at nothing to advance."

"No Will! That's not it..."

I stood staring at him as he floundered, his hands were waving all over and then running through his hair, he started and stopped talking about five times before he finally spoke a complete sentence.

"Do you not understand that I like you Will? I like you a lot! That's why I've done everything I have to get your attention. I really, really like you and I have feelings for you."

Oh god! Of course! It hadn't even crossed my mind that Sonny might actually be envious of my Mr. Anonymous. Reading my letters, he found out how invested I had become in this love-letter relationship, and he knew he had to tell me how he felt before he completely lost his chance.

"Sonny, I'm sorry...I didn't realize..."

He dropped his eyes to the floor and his hands to his side.

"I wanted to tell you for so long...every time we were alone in the office, the day you spilled coffee all over me..."

"Not my best moment, Sonny, I'm sorry. But why didn't you just tell me? Why didn't you just ask me out instead of sneaking behind my back to find out if I was seeing anyone?"

"Will, I think you might be misunderstanding what I'm saying about the letters."

"Sonny, you are jealous, I get it. I can't say that this makes it all okay, but at least I understand why...and it's almost kind of romantic. I like you, too, Sonny."

Then suddenly, my mind went blank. And all I could think about is how much I didn't want to lose Sonny.

On impulse, I took a step forward and slowly moved my hands towards Sonny's face. His eyes first met mine but quickly left and focused on my arms as they were reaching out to him. Thinking he was going to take my hand, I smiled but was completely taken aback when his hands wrapped around my wrists and halted all of my movement.

"Will, don't...", he begged and looked over to the left avoiding further eye contact with me. I couldn't have read this so wrong, could I? I was the one who stopped us at friendship, but now that I was second-guessing that decision, Sonny was the one putting the brakes on.

"Sonny, Please...Don't fight this", I pleaded and pushed forward until my body was only a few short inches away from him, "I want this, Sonny."

"You think you do, but you don't. Will, we can't...I mean, I can't...", he paused for a measly second and exhaled deeply before he continued, "Not like this, Will. I haven't been completely truthful with you and this isn't-", he cut himself off.

There was a long awkward silence where neither of us said a word to each other. Sonny slowly released his hold on my wrists and placed both of my hands on his chest. That feeling, the one that made me feel light-headed and nervous, returned and I didn't know what to do. Then suddenly, he looked up at me with his chocolate brow eyes and smiled sadly, "This isn't a good idea, Will."

I didn't dare move. I just stood there silently and watched his eyes, and tried to figure all of this out. How could it not be a good idea when it felt really right? I had to know the answer.

"Why?", I demanded, "Why is this such a bad idea, Sonny? Explain to me why you seemed so excited when I asked you to dinner and now I feel like you can't wait to leave and get away from me? How is it possible that your feelings changed so quickly after everything that you've done to get me?"

"Will...", Sonny whispered, almost begging me understand. "There's something that I need to tell you, before-"

"Please Son", I couldn't help myself from interrupting, "Before I felt unsure, I didn't know if I was ready to see someone...but I feel totally at ease with you. I know everything now and there's no need for you to hide anything else from me. I get it, Sonny. You read my letters and you know about anonymous, but you also know that I need this, Sonny. Something real. Someone like you. I need you..." and just like that, I pressed my lips to Sonny's and kissed him with everything I had in me.

Sonny didn't kiss back. Instead he pulled away far enough so that he could speak, "Will...You don't understand...", It almost sounded desperate cry of blameworthiness. And as far as I was concerned, it was going to far more than this for me to be convinced that he didn't want this as much as I wanted this too.

"Please, Son. Just let me have this. Even if it's for just one night. I need this...I need you...I want you", and I kissed him back with full force, letting my guard down and my heart open.

A/N: Oh no! Poor Sonny! If we thought he had it hard before for lying to Will for not telling him he was his anonymous, well... Now Will thinks he went through his stuff and read his letters! Oh the drama! Next chapter will be in Sonny's POV which will continue from the kiss. Yay! They kissed! Right?