Dear Angel - Chapter 19

A/N: I would like to thank once again, my lovely and amazing friend and Beta, Jen (Rescuemama2007) for her amazing work as my Beta. Without her, this story wouldn't be this amazing to read! So, thank you Jen! I love you so much! As you all know, this story will be coming to an end in a few chapters, and I would like to thank everyone who took the time to either comment or review this story. Your words mean the world to us! I hope you all keep in touch in the future with our new story coming up shortly called My Best Friend Sonny by both Me and Jen. The story is only a few chapters long and it will be complete before I start posting it, so that way, there will be no waiting weeks for chapters! Yay! I'm currently working with Christina and Jen on a new chapter of Touch My Heart as well. Touch My Heart is also coming to an end shortly, but no worries, I have many other stories to finish like Remember Me/I Remember You, The Lake, and Cyber Love. Who knows? I might even have a few others in mind as well! I love you all my Angels! Catch you later! - Roxy

Sonny hesitantly stepped forward and then backed away, afraid I wouldn't want him to touch me. I raised my weepy eyes to meet his and just like that, he let all his doubts fall away and took that step back towards me, wrapping his warm arms around my waist. He pulled me into him tightly and murmured through his own sobs, "Please, baby, don't cry. There's nothing that you could've done that would have changed the outcome of our relationship. I did this to us. I broke us..."

I loved the way Sonny's body felt pressed up against mine like this. The feeling of his strong arms wrapped around my body was one of the best feelings in the world to me. He made me feel safe, protected, but most importantly, he made me feel loved.

I know that I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I was despite my greatest efforts not to. I should be telling him that he has no right to make me feel like this anymore, that he shouldn't be allowed to hold me in his arms and call me his baby. But I'm not. Because I can't. I wont. I don't want to.

Instead, I buried my head further into the crook of Sonny's neck and with a soft whisper, I confessed what I've been wanting to say to him from the very beginning. "I never hated you Sonny. I just didn't know how to deal with my feelings. I wish I would have been nicer to you. Maybe then you wouldn't have had to write anonymous letters..."

I pulled away far enough so that I could look back into Sonny's eyes. He looked straight at me with his chocolate-brown eyes that were still slightly glazed over from unshed tears and then he quickly closed his eyes.

I could feel Sonny slipping away...

He slowly released his grip around my waist and moved both of his hands up to my face, cradling it gently. He finally opened his eyes to meet mine once again and what I saw instead of love was distance and fear. He was slipping farther and farther away from me. "Will, don't you ever feel like you have to explain yourself to me. What I did was wrong, and I don't ever want you thinking that this is your fault. Because it's not."

"But, Sonny. I-"

"No, Will! I own this." Sonny dropped his hands and backed away from me. "I don't care about our history, about how you treated me...about how we could have done things differently. That's the problem, Will. What's done is done. At first I thought writing letters would be so romantic. I had envisioned my big reveal and let me tell you, it was nothing like this. I screwed up, Will, I am the reason we won't be together."

"So that's it then? You lock me in here only to tell me that this can't work."

"No, I locked us in here so I could apologize, Will. I have deceived you for so long, and I knew that I owed you the truth."

"Okay. Now I know the truth about how this all happened. It's time you tell me why you did it."

"I'm not sure I get what you're asking, Will." I just stood there holding my ground as Sonny got more and more flustered. "You know why! I thought you hated me. I saw writing those letters as the only way you'd even give me a second glance!"

"No, Sonny, I know that. I know why you created anonymous. What I want to know is why you even cared about me when I treated you so badly. Why did you think I was worth all of this?"

Sonny started pacing in my office, running his fingers through his hair. "Will, I can't..."

"Yes you can. Tell me," I demanded. "Why me, Sonny? Why me?"

"Aaargh! Dammit, Will, because you are the most beautiful person I've ever laid eyes on. I feel like I could stare into your blue eyes forever. You have the greatest laugh. There were times I know you were laughing with Chad about me, but I didn't care because I got to hear you and see your smile. When you tap your fingers on your desk when you're thinking, I want to reach out and cover it with mine, calming you. You're so business savvy and when you present ideas that others don't get, I just want to shake them and ask how can they not see what a brilliant man you are! Because I adore everything about you, Will. Because I think you are wonderful and perfect and-"

But I didn't let him finish. I had heard enough. And now I just wanted to feel my lips on his. So, I stopped him mid-pace, pushed him against the door and kissed him with a passion I had been suppressing for so long.

My lips grabbed at his hungrily while my fingers fisted into his shirt. Sonny let out a whimper signifying his surrender and then he started kissing me back. We crashed together fiercely, hands pulling and grabbing, teeth nipping, lips bruising as we finally succumbed to this insatiable need we had for each other.

"Angel..." Sonny pleaded with a soft whisper when we parted briefly to catch our breath. "I'm not sure this is a good idea."

Angel. Not Will, not baby, but Angel... His Angel...

Hearing Sonny call me his Angel again, hearing him say it so softly, made my heart yearn to hear him say it again.

"Sonny-"

"No my Angel. I'm not about to make the same mistake I did the last time we were together."

"You won't...we won't..." but my words fell on deaf ears, and I realized that Sonny had the key out to unlock the door.

"I think maybe we need time away from this. I'm so sorry; the last thing I ever wanted was to hurt you." He turned the key in the lock and opened the door. "Good-bye Angel...please know that I did all of this because I love you."

And there it was. The declaration I had wanted to hear from him ever since he locked us inside my office. Knowing now how he truly felt about me, hearing those words from his mouth helped me realize that I wasn't ready to give up on him - on us - just yet.

"Sonny please..."

"Will, don't make this harder that it already is for both of us."

"Sonny, I'm not trying to make this harder..."

"Don't you know we were doomed from the start! Angel and Anonymous? How could that ever work! You said yourself all of that was built on lies."

"That might have been, but not this." I managed to reach behind him and close the door. "Sonny, this is us. This is William Horton and Sonny Kiriakis, not Angel and Anonymous, not a celestial creature and his unrequited lover, but you and me."

"But how can we move on from this, Will?"

"Maybe we don't move on, Sonny. Maybe we just start again. Kind of like a do-over."

He finally turned around so he was facing me once again. "I lied to you though, Will. Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?"

"If you can find it in yours to forgive me, too."

"And we're going to pretend none of this happened? We're going to forget Angel and Anonymous?"

"Well, maybe not entirely. Anonymous was awfully sweet and romantic. I do like how he called me Angel."

"I don't need Anonymous around for me to call you Angel. That name came to me - Sonny Kiriakis - the first time I ever saw you. Angel comes from my heart, and I'd like to keep calling you that if I can."

"I'd like that." I smiled brightly at him and he pulled me into his arms.

"Good. So, my angel, if we are going to start over, how about we go out on a date - a real one - like to a nice dinner and maybe a show. What do you say, tomorrow night?"

"Tomorrow night would be great." I took a step back and met Sonny's eyes. They were sparkling once again and his lips were curled up into a smile. He looked beautiful. And I just had to kiss him.

I curled my fingers around coarse black hair as I tenderly kissed his lips. It was sweet and short but so amazing. The kiss soon became heated and before I knew it, my backside was pressed up against my desk, and Sonny's hands were gripping my hips...